9teen is your number....

Assalamualaikum wbt and happy 19~

This post is specially dedicated to my one and only Atiqah Dalila yang jauh di mata, dekat di hati... ecehhhh~ kemain lagi... hahaha...

You're 19 babe... A year older than me officially....hehehe

Dah boleh kawen dah ni...

*Birthday song*

From the bottom of my heart, happy Birthday Atiqah Dalila..

 Moga panjang umur, dimurahkan rezeki, membesar sebagai anak yang membanggakan ibu bapa, insan yang berjaya dan dapat memenuhi tuntutan masyarakat sejagat... hahaha

Hey girl or i should call you a lady now, happy 19th... may you have a blast birthday... 

i don't know how u celebrate it there, but still, di tanah air ini, i'm praying the best for you and your life...

you've been a very very very great friend to me... 

susah nak terangkan what we'd did...

only God know how much i'm glad to know you... a very wonderful person that saw my ups and downs, my cry and laughter, my ugly side of life just in a year...

we've eat together, shopped together, cuci mata together, gossipping together...

remember how we'd put all our efforts to Bangi?

remember how we overnight in McD?

stay with me tepi pagar UiTM at 5am?

jalan kat sek.7 waktu subuh....

it's crazy for me to do all those things, but i'm glad i did all that with u...

so, dear my dearest girl,

life can be quite harsh... but remember, God is not that cruel...

he knows what he did...

he plan so well for u...

what's most important now, pursue your dreams, enjoy your youth and the other part of your life, God will arrange it...

Things will be much harder in years after, but remember this, whenever u have problems, and u don't know where to go to, i'll always here to help u..

just hello2 me, insyaAllah, i'll try to help...

i don't know when else we can see each other..

insyaAllah, kalau x degree, nanti2 kita jumpa gak di tanah orang... 

i'm not sure where i'll be going this September but, UK is not that bad after all kan...

Tiqah, 19 is your number now...

 stay perettay babe,happy birthday Atiqah Dalila...

With lots and lots and lots of love,

Me ^^

If and only if....

Assalamualaikum wbt .... hye people~

Dah kenapa syera tiba2 cakap hal ni??

 kata hari tu 'no opposite gender allowed' kan?? yup... it's so true..

However...... hehehe... hari ni kan, i don't know why,

 but suddenly i got the feeling to watch this Korean programme, 

We Got Married, that once, i'd been so fanatic over it..

hahaha... nama pun perempuan kan...

 i'm quiet into Korean program but not that fanatic...

so, today, i don't know why, i started to watch again all the episodes of Khuntoria couple and YongSeo couple..

 This couple....

and this couple~ ^^

as a girl, i can't ignore the fun and enjoyment of all the Korean fantasies...

watching all the dramas and these WGM episodes fill my day..

Hehehe~ i started to think and imagine what kind of guy that i dream of and so on...hahaha~ silly me...

well, honestly, it's not about their handsome face or their image 

(ok, ada la skit pasal image, tp minor), but what caught my attention the most is their manner... 

i know that all of those scenes are just based on the script, drama semata-mata, but what important is that, the manner jadi mcm sort of panduan to their citizen.. even normal people do all those manners nowadays..

gila tak cair kalau camtu... hahaha..

aku yang hati agak kental ni pun hancur lebur, ni kan pulak yang tangkap jiwang tangkap leleh... hahahaha~

hehehehehe~  ^^

writing all these pun, i'm all smile...

but, i know, to expect someone like that is totally nonsense..

i don't expect for perfect man...

as i'm not a perfect lady either....

I'm not asking for a man that come from a rich family...

or pull the seat belt for me...

or walk beside me to avoid other people stumbled me..

or use his sweater to keep me warm..

or open the door for me, pull the chair for me..

or even do all the surprises ...

i don't expect all that...

what i need is a nice man..

that appreciate me as much as i appreciate him..

that know where to place me in his life...

that's all...

hahahah~ cliche tho..

but IF and ONLY IF i can make a wish and it'll surely come true,

i want 1 YongHwa, 2 Nickhun, 1 WooBin, 3 JoongKi and 1 Chen...

semua original, Chen tu je bagi spicy...take away... hehehehe

and yeah, that's why i put IF and ONLY IF there... *sigh*

Hailah, sape la yang tanak kalau jodoh dah mcm ni kan... hehehe~

Owh, and one more, guys, can u please appreciate all the lil things that we did and do all the lil things..

We don't expect the big things..

We appreciate the lil things the most...

I'd learnt my lesson..

Whatever happened back then, it's not your fault, not my fault, not anyone fault... it's just a lesson for us in the process of growing up..

There are so much lacking in us that God gave us a break to improve ourselves..

And when i said 'no' or stop suddenly, doesn't mean u're not good enough for me, or you're bad person or etc etc..

It just that I know u deserve better person, u can end your life with a better lady and i have lot and lot of improvements to do first...

Friendzone is the safest place...

Therefore, contact me, like always, as friends, not more and not less...

i'll be more than glad ^^

and i believe it's true...

therefore, sekarang tempoh menunggu, for the right moment, the right place and the right person..

Nak yang macam ni...

macam ni pun nak gak...

macam ni pun boleh...

macam ni sangatlah digalakkan...

and last but not least............

* drum roll please*

awwwwwwww~ dah... kalau dpt mcm ni, like dream come true...

that's all for today punya session merepek.. 

till everything happen, keep on dreaming as that's the only thing we can do... hehehee~

P/s : People asked me bout my dream guy, and my answer is, I want a MAN that wear SUIT during day and BAJU MELAYU and KAIN PELIKAT during night... 

#deepthought

Live your life people... Don't u dare to feel lonely...

The moment u feel like nobody care bout u, there's at least one heart that wish u are there...

so, people, feel free to contact me...

230414 0357,

Irah

New List...

Assalamualaikum... hello~

Yes.. this is my 2nd post in a day...

Nampak sangat banyak benda yang terjadi sampai boleh hentam 2 post skali...

Many things happened... everything turned me to a weaker person...

Yeke?

Maybe... but most importantly, i wanna change...

and this is my plan.. (semua ni plan semata-mata)

1. Get into a good uni and start a new life with new identity.

2. Enjoy my youth days more with my family and Ma Girls.

3. Trying to be a cool person maybe... hehehe

4. Absolutely 'No Entry' to opposite gender in my life.

5. Try all sort of food and enjoy every kind of coffee..

6. Learn all the basics skills..

7. Start bahas again

8. Exercise more..( walaupun tau takkan terjadi, angan2 kena ada)

9. Try out new activites...

10.Learn to live alone comfortably

I want to be alone. Enjoy myself without being disturb by world. Be an indie lady. Built a career. Happy with my life. Have fun to the max. That's all.

F.U.L.L.S.T.O.P

180414 0025,

me

Friendzone

Assalamualaikum w.b.t... hye kiddies~

Many people have this problem before mainly with girls..

 but before this i thought this is not that serious..and maybe not worth it to be a concern.. 

but now that i experienced it, it is so damn hard.. 

lagi2 at this youth age... 

in whatever situation, i always draw a line in any relationship..

lagi2 with friends of opposite gender...

and don't get me wrong.

i'm not bad, i just want to accept the reality and pijak di bumi nyata..

i know the limit, i know my limit..

when i took any actions, when i said any words, i'd thought about all those things thousands time before i did it..

what i did just for everyone's sake..

i don't want to hurt your feelings, others' feeling, and my feeling..

when i put a gap, doesn't mean i hate you or u're bad person...

i just don't want bad things to happen..

u said u can control..

well, nobody can control their feeling.. me too..

just, yang penting, i got my own reason why i did all these..

and sorry..

for everything...

have a nice day..

totally me,

syera

Asasi Undang-undang KPTM

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye...

i'm done with Asasi year... so, 5 months break before degree started..

ramai juniors yang bertanya pasal Asasi Undang-undang..

maaf lambat beri penjelasan...

so, i'm going to answer few of the Qs given..

Maaf, i'm not going to explain the differences between UiTM and KPTM or what are the subjects or how long it takes to finish Asasi year or such as u can google it and there are so many posts by other bloggers on this topic...

i'll go directly ok..

 but this is my answers, based on my experiences, based on my opinion..

lain orang lain pendapat...

so first, ramai yang tanya, susah ke tak..

well, any courses memang susah.. tak kira la masuk matrik ka, form 6 ka, diploma ka, foundation ka, asasi ke, smuanya susah...

As long as u put efforts, everything will be less harder..

i don't say it will be easy, but it'll be less harder... hehehe~

sejujurnya, it's superly hard..

when u're in there, don't say u're straight As, or you got A+ for history or BM or English, everyone there got the same result..

U're straight As or not, u got 4 or 5 As, don't worry, once u're there, your SPM result is nothing...

penat2 kau belajar, masuk sana, they treat u equally...

tak kira la kau best student kebangsaan ka, kau budak jenayah sekolah ka, u'll be treated the same.. 

so, chillex sudah..

owh, ada yang tanya kelayakan..

i'm not sure bout the requirement sebab ada yang straight As, ada yg 4,5 A pun ada...

senang kata, bergantung pada rezeki..

and, betulkan mindset, if u're so damn good waktu sekolah pun, tak jamin kau boleh dapat dean list every sem macam makan koci..

no way..

kecuali kalau kau study spuluh kali ganda daripada persiapan kau nak spm dulu..

Owh, i'm an Asasi student at shah alam, so, i'm not sure the condition in merbok and kuantan..

but i believe, its not that much different..

after all, yang penting kau minat..

kau masuk Asasi law, tak bermaksud u'll be a lawyer..

so not true..

u can go into so many courses afterward... 

management, biz, political science, etc etc...

yang penting, jangan hanyut.. tu je..

sumpah memang best kalau dapat masuk shah alam..

kebebasan terlampau..

memang seronok.. depan UiTM tu sek. 7...

boleh aku kata, syurga makanan...

kau nak breakfast McD, brunch KFC, lunch subway, tea kat secret recipe, dinner pizza, late dinner kat tutti frutti pun boleh...

nak habiskan duit pun senang...

sunway pyramid, sunway lagoon, klcc, sacc, midvalley, timesquare, pavi...

anywhere u want to go, easily access..

tapi, hidup mesti ada batas...

normal la aku tengok student asasi gi midnight movie and overnight kat mcD...

but, if u can handle your lifestyle like that, without rosakkan your future, silakan..

but, if and only if, u know yourself, and u know u can't handle it, please don't do it...bahaya...seronok sekarang tak jamin seronok kemudian..

aku nasihat sekarang bukan sebab aku baik sangat, tapi sebab aku nampak dah kesan dia.. ramai yang hanyut... aku pun hampir2..

2nd sem, mcd tu dah jadi macam rumah aku je.. overnight takyah cakap la..

but bring along your books.. study there is better..

yang perempuan, confrim2 korang kat kolej mawar... 

bagi aku, mawar tu pun dah terlebih meriah..

 kau nak makan apa, kau nak beli apa, Dataran Cendekia kat atas tu pun dah lebih dari cukup...

yang laki, pandai2 la korang hidup.. hahaha..

so, takat ni je la dulu kot.. bayangan asasi lagi, nanti ar sambung...

serabut nak ingat balik...

sape2 yang nak tanya, boleh contact anytime, insyaAllah mana boleh tolong, aku tolong...

until then,

live your life...

XOXO,

syera

Closing...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye...

It'd been so long since the last time i wrote a post.. in the middle of final..

quite busy.. ni pun curi2 masa to write something in the middle of the night..

so yeah, how's my life...

tahla.. i'm not sure how to describe.. 

i'm not happy, i'm not sad, i'm hurt, i'm frustrated..

can i say it as soul-less...

things and things happened.. bad things...

it's getting harder and harder each time...

i believe in one, i'm frustrated...

 then i believe in another one, and i'm frustrated again.. 

and i believe in another one, hoping that it'll be different, but somehow, i realize, people are just the same..

in the end, i don't care about anything anymore..

i don't believe in anything...

when u need, u try to be as close as u can.. 

when u don't need, just pretend u never know them..

hehehe.. 

i keep thinking, 'Why is this world works this way. 

People keep hurting one another.

but, i have to admit, that's how life works..

whether it's about love, about friendship, about life, about people around u...

when u're making the decision to let them step into your life, remember, u're also permitting them to hurt you...

that's how life works..

so, i'm not against the world..

i'm just too tired..

too tired to be strong... too tired to be soul-less..

and now, let me close it, for a while..

once, i almost close it, but someone ask me to open up, so that, i don't have to live alone..

but somehow, the same person make me want to close it again..

close it tightly...

i'm not the only one.. people around are hurting as much as i am..

because of the same kind of people..

individu berbeza...

latar belakang berbeza...

hubungan berbeza..

yang sama hanya dua..

jantina..

dan luka..

maka, pintu itu aku tutup..

sementara..

sampai ketika..

orang berbeza...

aku buka...

everynight, before i went to sleep, i keep thinking, there're so many things i want to do back then, but i never get the chance..

after a while, i said to my heart...

' Ira, plans u made back then, God don't let it happen, not because He don't want to let u experience it, but He's making u to experience it with the right person, in the right moment..so, hold on a little bit more. Create your best happy ending with the best person to be with'

hopefully, i'll get the chance to do so.. 

if i meant to with the same person, i'll be blessed... 

deep inside, i'm still waiting... with hope..

i believe, every person deserve second chance..

but, if it's not you, if it's other person, thank you for entering my life..

i can't ask for anything better..

you'll be my happy-ever-after...

live your life..

XOXO,

SyeraZehar

Kelu...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hai...

OMG, dah berbulan tak menulis... tiba2 nak tulis balik... i'm so sorry..

too busy nowadays as final is so soon..

sooner than i thought it'll be..

so yeah, i'm sorry...

beside nak elak diri dari baca posts lama...

hahahah... syera still syera...

takkan berubah...

my life ok je... kadang2 je rasa lifeless skit..

tapi, i'm still ok..

cuma, macam tadi, tiba2 diungkit, ditanya, aku kelu..

moga jawapan itu jawapan terbaik..

untuk kebaikan bersama...

masih ada timbang rasa..

masih cuba menjadi terbuka..

mohon bahagia di sana..

aku terluka. sikit. manusia biasa.

sakit itu normal.

terima kasih. bagi aku rasa.

hahaha... mohon jangan pelik..

curahan rasa semata.

XOXO,

uknoWho

Partial-Stranger

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Again...

This is my second post today... 

Dah lama tak buat post, tiba2 buat, dua terus...

hehehehe.... ni la namanya tamak haloba..

so, where's the point... yeah, it'd been few months since my recession phase..

but surely, moving on is the hardest thing ever... 

(owh, study law is the hardest..hehehe..)

but i thought, i should at least, pretend to be move on...

and i survived...

then, few days before, i talk to a friend.. not that close to that person..

just a general friend.. but somehow, we started to share stories... 

even stories that we wished no one will ever know.

pelik how a stranger can be more comfortable than any one closer...

so, after had some talk, it's a big relief..

like all the burden from the sadness gone..

so, thank you.. hehehe

so now, i do believe that the best revenge is to move on..

 being week will never help things to back like old days...

Proving my abilities to be above that person, will give me a victory...

For sure..

I'd try my best... but yeah, not every people think the same kan..

so, pray the best for me..

Hope everything planned will work..

and you, just dont ruin your future.

that's all la kot..

Good luck.. 

kalau ikotkan, saya di pihak teraniya, nak doa bukan2 pun boleh kot...

hahaha... kidding... 

i'm not that evil..

you're...

hahaha... ok, joking lagi...

erm, stop the nonsense.. 

right....so, no regret...

p/s : it has been a very long time since the last time i got a crush on someone... but now i did.. and i dont know why... and it's fun... feeling like a lil girl back... hahaha... shhhh~ it's a secret...

XOXO,

UknoWho

#prayforMH370

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye..

Right now, 0023, more than ten hours since the MAS flight missing, and i'm sitting infront of the tv, listening to the news, hopefully there're any good news..

I don't really know anyone in the plane, but i do know they're human.

 i'm not concerning which nationalities they are, as long as there're human in there, it will be in my concern too.. it's heartbreaking actually.. 

I can't even imagine how their families are doing right now..

But i do wish they stay strong..

Everyone know the possibilities.. The clock keeps tik tok tik tok..

I also keep hoping there will be at least a new about it..

At least the position of the plane can be traced. 

If there is any survivor, it'll be a great bless.

I really really wish the plane will be found soon.. InsyaAllah..

Something impressed me the most is how people in Malaysia or not, keep praying and giving supports...

i thought we are loosing humanity and the spirit of being a society, but i'm wronged..

There're people that still care about things like these..

so, May Allah ease everything.. hopefully, everything gonna be ok..

i don't want to comment anything about the speculation or what people things and make jokes out of these incident or who to be blamed because i do believes that those things are craps.. so, yeah, pray for MH370 everyone..

XOXO,

UknoWho

Memory Lane

Assalamualaikum and hye ...

18/02/2013

Today is my first time writing this sort of thing in a place called diary.. i never did this kindof thing before.. 

so, it's kindof awkward a bit..

However, i decided to write these memories as i know that somehow, one day, i might forgot all these because of my age or who knows if i suddenly lost my memories..

Few minutes before, that person called me.. i don't know how to describe it, but i'm happy.. very happy..

That person is on his way back home..he's checking my condition as i'm alone at home. We talk, we laugh, we giggle.. it's fun.. Too much fun..i don't know how to describe it.

I asked that person if he's ok with this kind of conversation being publicly heard as he's not alone there..(obviously as he's still underage by that time.. someone has to drive the car)so, that person with this 'abang' and that person lil bro..

so, it is public.. but the person's answers sooth my feeling..

That person said, there's nothing to hide as everyone knew about us already.

We talked for a while before that person took a short nap. When that person reached home, that person called me back and we talked some more.Im shocked a bit as we're having our conversation with the person's mother there.. i can here the woman's voice..

Honestly, i'm scared... hahaha.. don't know why.. scared without a reason.

That person gave me advises, try to correct my mistakes and patient with my nagging..

we talk few hours and stop by 4 am.. ( 0143-0356)

* in here (while pointing to the heart) got 5 person..

 my A, my M, my A, my B and U...- McD Kampar

#untukmencintaimu-seventeen

today was a happiness...

18/02/2014

Today, i'm reading my diary back. A diary that got 365 pages telling the stories of me in gaining my maturity in becoming a lady. A strong lady..

There's a page where the words are in gold and silver but still, there're words that're in pink..

I read it again and again and again.. Amazed by how a year had gone..

yup, my tears are there.. I'm not regretting, I'm not angry..

Those tears are reminding me how beautiful it is back then..

I might loss a precious thing, but i did gain so much more..

That one year, taught me so many things..

It's a total lie if i said i don't miss that person..

i did...

but, somehow, that's how life works..

so, dear that person, 

i'm not sure whether u're going to read this like how u used to read it before..

u used to read my blog and even remember some of it..

but it's in the past..

but if, in case, u come across this post,

i hope u're doing fine..

i know u're happy right now..

i know u're just gaining your health back right now..

i know u're struggling with your study right now..

i know u're living your life right now..

and i'm glad u're like that..

i got few words for u..

and take it as an advice from a friend..

people are talking about u..

people will never stop..

so don't feel down..

carry on with your life..

carry on in the right path...

i know u're still a teenager, but being a teenager is not a free pass for u to do everything...

i know, i believe, someday, u'll be a great guy, a great person, a great son..

sorry i keep recap all these memories..

maybe u don't need it anymore.. but i did...

so, live your life there..

insyaAllah, we'll meet in future..

your friend,

Ira.