Mot's Big Day

Assalamualaikum wbt... Hello humaaaannnnnn ^^

She's married anyway.. hahaha

So, last week, one of my best-est friend got married.. If u're a friend of mine or if u read one of my earliest post in this blog, u must know that i have this circle of best friend which we called ourselves as the so called 'SAWAN' which is obviously the shortform of our names being put together. So, last week, Atikah, a.k.a Mot got married..

Of course all of us were excited, thrilled, happy, sad and all the emotions mixed together. Few months before the wedding, we started few whatsapp groups, yes, few, more than one, hahaha, just to discuss about this upcoming wedding. There were days that we discussed on how emotional we're to let her go or how we thought she's still not ready yet for a marriage, like omg, i don't want any guy to live with Mot.. lol... She's 21 anyway. As all 5 of us grew up together, knowing each other for years, letting one go is not that easy, especially when we don't have any idea at all who the 'husband' is.

Anyway, we planned out everything a month before the marriage. As all five of us live far apart from each other, it's quite hard to set the time when all four of us, exclude the bride la kan, can be together. We booked a hotel, which accidently the hotel which where we had our final form 5 dinner before 

(quite nostalgic...hahahah) 

and at first we planned to get matching outfits. ala-ala bridesmaids la konon.. but then, when everything seems quite impossible, lupakan je hajat tu.. as long as all four of us can be there together to see our friend kawin, then anything else is not that important anymore.

Anyway, selain drpd excited kawan nak kawin, kitorang excited nak jumpa each other. its been quite a while since i last met them.. macam nora and wani, dekat 3 tahun tak jumpa.. aina dah few months, itupun nasib dia buat diploma dekat tapah, and mot last year kot.. However, sadly nora x dapat jumpa.. 
uni life kan.. kena faham..

We arrived in Taiping on Thursday (28thApril), checked in hotel lepas sesat dalam pekan taiping for half an hour waktu cari hotel.. lol, i don't know why on earth is it so difficult for me to digest the Taiping's map. seriously, totally lost. Drive plak dengan aina, memang cantik la... dua2 kekdahnya buta arah...haha

Malam tu dah dinner semua, kitorang iron baju sampai iron meletup dalam bilik hotel (thanks to Aina's scream, brought me back to hostel-life's memories), then sembang sampai pukul 3 pagi.

Esok nya, hari jumaat (29th april), we decided to visit our school which unexpectedly tengah buat hari sukan yang tak macam hari sukan.. takde perbarisan, takde hias khemah, x de muzik2 macam dulu, no balloons... 
pukul 10 pagi dah habis... sedih je kan.. but kitorang jumpa cikgu2, excitedly, some of the teachers still remember me, know my name.. 
that what made me most happy. At first we're so lost as most of our juniors during our school years are not there anymore, we end up not knowing anyone in the school, but somehow, there're still few juniors, yang waktu kitorang form 5, diorang form 1.. hahaha.. omg, kitorang so dah tua..

plus, few things made us realize how old we are. We saw Daniel anak teacher rozita yang dulu so kecik, lari2 dekat skolah, siap nangis2, he's a student of the school now. maybe form 1 or form 2.. then, arvind adik anand, dulu so berkepit dengan mak, sekarang dah jadi pengawas TT uollss.. siap bahas sampai kebangsaan lagi..

Then, i met my so called 'adik angkat' which i don't find it appropriate anymore, hahahaha, Afif najmi a.k.a randy.. dah form 5 dah pun.. dulu macam budak-budak je.. sekarang dah tinggi bkn main, nampak la dewasa sikit, dah jadi pengawas and study pun better now.. so proud of him somehow, all the best with SPM.

Dan, excitedly, i met my forever-and-ever lil sis, Aimi Amanina, during lunch. Dah lamaaaaaa tak jumpa dia. She's 20 now, OMG. Engineering student in USM. So yeah, I'm a proud big sis. But still, she's my lil sis forever.. Masih share stories macam dulu. Really really happy. Hope to see u again soon dear.

Next, malam, we went to have our dinner plus visited Mot's house for malam berinai konon nya malam tu, but then tak sangka pulak malam tu ada baca yaasin dulu baru berinai.. makanya, lepas isyak, tak sempat nak berinai, kitorang dah blah... sorry mot... hahaha 

(psstt: hint: dah beli tiket wayang earlier...hahahahah)

So, drive laju2 pi Taiping Sentral semata nak tengok movie bersama. 
However, secretly, I planned a surprise. hahaha.. x de la surprise mana pun. One of our junior wanted to join us that night, so, secretly i bought a ticket for him too without the other two tau.. tkejutla keduanya-duanya... hahaha.. 

quite a fun night.. balik hotel, disurprise kan lagi dengan delivery makanan di depan hotel, plus borak2 lepak sampai tah pukul brapa, nasib tak tetido dekat luar hotel.

Fast forward, esoknya, (30thApril), the Big Day, pagi2 bersiap.. checkout hotel and btolak ke bukit merah, nak tengok mot nikah. But before that, we picked up the junior yang melagha kan kitorang semalam tu from his house, hahahaha, and then baru drive ke sebuah surau di bukit merah yang mot nikah. Honestly, all of us so sedih plus emotional plus excited that morning.. hahaha, over sangat. Anyway, kitorang convoy dua kreta, my car and another car ada Aina and her soon-to-be zauj (Amiiinnnn....)

Sampai je depan surau, kitorang yang cuak2 tengok mot nak masuk surau nak nikah.. tak tau kenapa.. aku soo tak boleh bayang nanti aku kalau ada rezeki jadi bride, sah kaw2 punya cuak sampai menangis.. 
Maka, nikahlah seorang sahabat bernama Atikah. Hilang A sorang dari SAWAN, tinggal la SWAN sajohh... hahaha

Yang berniqab baju putih ala2 bidadari syurga tu sah2 la pengantin.. 

yang kat blakang tersorok 3 orang tu kawan pengantin.. hahaha.. 

yang kiri dah tak available, sorry..

Dan, inilah zauj si pengantin perempuan.. Ust. Ubaidullah kalau x silap... 

jaga kawan kami elok2 naa.

Nak jadi cerita, kitorang bertiga plus si pengantin dok jauh blakang sikit. Yang dekat depan penuh dengan lelaki and family2 pengantin.. 

sebabkan susah nak snap gambar ke record video, maka kitorang pun wakilkan satu2 nya lelaki yang kitorang kenal kat situ ke depan... 

sambil2 tu punya la dok tunggu bila akad nye.. dah macam berbisik2 je pengantin lelaki dengan ayah mot.. tunggu punya tunggu, tiba2 orang kata dah sah. Terus baca doa.. waitttttt, apakahhhh =='

Dah habis nikah, kitorang gerak ke Bukit Merah Club House tempat kenduri..

Tepi kolam wei.. panas2 tu, sabar je la tengok budak2 main dalam pool.

Dan inilah dia kaum kerabat batch 13 Taman Tasik.. brapa lama aku tak jumpa diorang, muka semua matured2 je.. abaikan rupa seorang syahirah yang berselemuih kepanasan plus muka ready nak drive balik..hehehehe

Plus, few things happened, but i don't think it's proper to share sad stories here. Simpan dalam hati je la.. Kita cerita yang best2 je k.

 Ingat sikit kawan yang kawen tu.. hahaha

So, anyway, dear Mot kesayangan...

Now u're someone's wife, I wish all the happiness for you and your new family. Be a good wife, be nice with each other, respect him, and have a harmonious life. I know you'll be happy with the new changes, you'll have someone to be with for the rest of your life. I'm not married yet, obviously, hahaha, but from all the cases I've read and heard, I'm quite sure there're ups and downs in marriage. Be patient, be strong, think what is best for the future ok. All four of us were sad to let u go knowing that it'll not be that easy to sneak you out for a lil girls' date afterward, but of course we're so happy now that someone will protect you and love you for the rest of your life. 

Remembering our lives as highschool girls, i never thought that one of us going to get married this fast.. Tak puas lagi lepak dengan korang. Yet, jodoh ditangan Tuhan kan.. hahaha. I can still remember clearly how you sneak me out from the hostel and brought me back to your house, tengah-tengah hujan naik scooter dengan helmet curi pakcik guard punya.. How we 'fly' together just because we wanted to eat McDonald. How we used to share stories dekat tangga hostel tetengah malam buta. I really really miss those time. But now, kalau nak buat camtu kena fikir banyak kali kot. Hahaha

Mot, congratulations again.. We'll always pray the best for u. You'll forever be our Mot. If u need any help, or want to hang out together once in a while, or whatever it is, just let us know. InsyaAllah, your friends will always be there for u. Nanti, dah nak ada baby pun bagi tau please. Mot Jr. need to know 'SWAN Aunties'. Take care Mot. Pandai2 bawak diri dekat dunia baru ok. Kalau rindu kitorang ke, gaduh ngan ustaz ke, bagi tau kitorang, nanti kitorang backup.. hahaha.. Take care Mot.. Kitorang sayang ang sangat2.

Wakil SWAN,

SYERA a.k.a 'S'

Lil Note from Yours Truly

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps ^^

Ermm, I don't have any plan to write a post for this time being sebab too busy with upcoming final.

But, after few of my recent posts, and a lot of people texted me about so many things, here i am trying to explain a few things.

First and foremost, thank you so much whoever that read my blog. From the bottom of my heart, niat asal buat benda alah blog ni because i really do love to write, i used to write cerpen, novel and such, but for the time being, a blog will do. I share my stories and pictures that happened throughout my life sebab takut in few years, I'll forget all the best moments in my life. 

Next, I know most of my readers came across my blog because of my posts on Foundation of Law or LLB. I'm so sorry to disappoint u that i only wrote few posts on these topics. I wrote about everything that happened in my life including my family life, 'friends life', love life, personal rant and so much more.. even all those random thoughts that i have out of nowhere. I know some of u annoyed when u're trying to know more about life as a law student, but end up reading posts by a broken hearted girl.. lol

FYI, I'm a normal girl, who's only 20 years old,  trying to survive her 'young life'. And it happened to be I'm a law student. A bad one to be exact. I'm so sorry for portraying all the good things that happened throughout my years as a law student only, but being a law student is not that great. Banyak lagi benda yang berlaku, the bad one, but i don't write it here. And of course, U can't expect all law students have the opportunities and rezeki like i do. Each of us have different stories or version of being a law student. What u read, minor stories that happened in mine. 

I'm truly honored if I inspired u somehow, which i can't understand at all, hahahaha, sjujurnya, I'm not a great person. Really. Whatever that happened, I'm just a lucky girl, diberi peluang, and i just grabbed whatever came across. Thats all. What I can say, ambil iktibar from what i shared. I have so many flaws, so dont be like me. I did a lot of mistakes, and i hope nobody will do the same thing. This Syahirah, trying her best to be better, did a LOT of mistakes in her life.

Thank you so much to those who give me kind words when i think I'm too terrible and almost give up, when I don't have any motivation to continue my life as a law student, when i have this ridiculous thought of give up on life. For all those words, thank you so much. May God bless each and everyone.

I'll share more stories about Indonesia, Thailand, France, Switzerland and my best friend who got married recently, after I'm done with my tests, assignments and final exam. Wish me luck, I'm trying my best to safe my pointer this semester. Lol. Amiiinnn..

*the 'oversize-potato', me..lol.. sorry

Hope to see more of your words..

Yours truly,

Syera 

Random Rant

Hye..

Things just don't go the way I planned.

I did wish everything would be just fine, I really do happy for what u've achieved, and of course i'm happy if u found someone which makes you happier.

But i must admit, it's not that easy to smile, it's not easy to say u're ok now, it's not easy at all to say to myself that I need to let you go..

Of course i'm happy to see u with someone who's much much better than me, swear to God, I'm ok,

Tbh, I'm relieved that u met someone much better than u'd before..

I know you're looking at me when everything happened. I'm not sure whether u're checking out whether I'm ok or not with the whole situation, or u just simply gave me a warn to not judge her or don't get near her. 

And because of that, i really really tried my best not to look at her, i don't have any right to judge anyone, and if i really do judge, u don't have anything to be worried about, she's much better than I am. If u're trying to find out whether I'm ok or not, the answer is, why would i be.. hahaha

Of course, I'm surprised with whatever i saw, the whole situation itself, how i figured it out, how i need to act calm, how i need to answer all those Qs while handling my own confusion and frustration..hahaha.

Things just happened that way. I have no right to comment about this. I'm just happy that somethings are still allowed, and some people are still allowed to wander around my life or day to ensure I'm ok.

 Thanks to that lil guy, i did laugh, smile and happy for a while.

And for that permission, I owe u a whole lot of thanks.

I wish u all the best. Enjoy your life. Whoever u are, whoever i am, in whatever situation, u'll always have my support. Happy always k. 

P/s: i know u hate this whole idea of blogging personal life. In case u still hate what i wrote, let me know. I'll delete everything. U have all the rights to do so. What i said in the beginning of us, still valid till forever. I'm still me, U're still u. Even after all that harsh words i said, any ridiculous decisions i asked, u know who u are. u still do, and forever will. So, if there's anything u want me to change, or delete, or forget, just let me know.

Me,

Ira.