From KUL to JOG (part 3)

Hello... again... hahaha..

I don't plan at all on writing about this topic this soon, but somehow, at 1.50 am, while reading few articles from my lappy, i came across pictures from when i'm in Indonesia last year.

And i realized  that i've never introduced people that help me a lot during my stay there, and also people who later become my friends that i value so much.

So, here i am, sharing with u guys few people that always there to help me, the so-called OCs

This is for u guys fellow Indonesian friends ^^

First and foremost, the girl that i miss so much, Elory Leonard (El).. 

The first time i met her, when the OCs gathered us in a mall, for a kindof ice-breaking session.

She was there and like always, she's so bright. And then during the camp, she started each session with dance. She's that kindof girl that heat up the event.. hahaha 

And from that moment, i know i want to be her friend.

At first, i thought she might be older than me or maybe at least we're at the same age as she look so matured, very dependable like a sis, she always tried her best to help people around.

I can still remember how i looked for her when i want to use irom from the hotel and even when our room key locked in the room, i tend to ask her to help me because it's so comfortable to be with her.. yet, she's younger than me..

To be very honest, among all the OCs, i'm most comfortable with her, even tho i feel so sorry towards her as i always looked for her when i need some help, but she never say no and she never ignored. And for that, i'm forever grateful..

I really really hope we'll stay in contact for years ahead, and surely i'll find her again when i'm in Jogja or Jakarta..

I have a lot more memories with her, we share a lot of laugh, a lot of worries, discussions on few issues on so much more. I can never forget how relieve i am when El and Titi and Alvin and Farid came to the village for a visit, somehow i felt like i have my friends back, and I'm not alone.

Thank you so much and i really do miss you, El ^^

Next, Victorio Fikgi Amartha aka RIO

Hey Rio.. its been a while since the last time i contacted u isnt it..

Anyway, for my whole 20 years of life, this is the first time i met such a hardworking person.

He is the best OC/Buddy ever. From the beginning of the program, he always always help us, ALWAYS. He rode bus with us, he took pictures of us, he gave us ride whenever we need, he always always help us in every way he can.. Sometimes, i feel so sorry for him as he always make us his priority rather than his own health. He always there for us, like always. And the fact that he's Alex's buddy, make me jealous. Hahaha.. but i know, he's like buddy to all of the EPs.

He's always a great friend, i can always share my problems and asked him everything during my stay there..and i'm sure he'll be loved and appreciated by everyone around him.

Rio, i will always pray of your success.. do some to Malaysia soon ^^

And Titi.... hahaha.. titi, I'm so so sorry, i tried to find pic of two of us, but there's none.. somehow, i still have pic of out feet, in our same purple shoes.

I tried to spell your name, but they're so complicated.. so, prahastuti aka Titi..

You're such a great girl at that young age.. i wonder how u're able to manage all that events and program so well. I'm so glad to you take care of us so great. You're so great being the one between us, the EPs and also the villagers and schools. I can never imagined if you're not the one who arranged all that. Just like El, you are so matured at your age, you can even get married now.. hahahah

I have so much fun being around u, especially when we're with Alvin.. The only way i can hear jokes in bahasa Indonesia. I still remember when u gave me a ride with your scooter.. I will always remember how cute your smile... And i really appreciate the moment when we wrapped presents for the Independence Day together.. Anyway Titi, Thank you so much for everything and stay cute ^^

* excuse my face as i'm actually trying to fix my 'tudung' when somehow these two photobombed me*

But anyway, for these two guys, Alvin and Farid

For Alvin.. to be really really honest, from the bottom of my heart, at first i thought you're at least 25. But hey, we're of the same age.. hahahaha.. 

You are so funny bro, you are so kind, you are so sweet...

I will always remember how hard you tried to translate the menu for the other EPs, and we always end up googling all those words.. Your jokes will always make me laugh.. 

I really enjoy watching conversations between you and Titi..

I'm a big fan of sinetron, but watching it live, feels so good..

Anyway, all the best with your study, and i'm going to make sure to see u again when i'm back in Jogja.

And for Farid..

He's a great friend. Even though you're few years younger than me, you always take care of us so well.. Knowing you background, and seeing how far u're now, you surely are a great student and a great person. Good luck with your study ok..

Plus, Thank you so much for being so nice towards me.. especially with my last few days in Jogja, thank you for letting me experienced angkringan at night.. lol. anyway, terima kasih ya Rid, i owe u a lot.

Actually, there are many more OCs that helped my throughout the project.

Caca, thank you so so much.. u helped me a lot before and during the project..

Thank you to Oza for being such a nice OC, the airport guy, and also his family to provide us with so comfortable accommodation and transportation..

Thank you to Tika, Imam,Kansak and all others that involved but somehow i'm unable to mentionyou names.. I'm truly sorry.

Thanks to u guys, i have a very very great memories in Indonesia.

Thanks to u guys, i learnt a lot that i know i'll never be able to gain from anywhere else.

For all that, i really really grateful.

U guys did a very amazing job throughout the project.

On behalf of all the EPs, we're so sorry for troubling u guys, for demanding too much, for making your weekends restless, for making some of u guys cried.

But deep from our heart, thank you so so so much.

U guys did really really well.

I really hope u guys will continue to organize more Healvolution program..

I will always support each and everyone of u..

Cheers to all memories...

Terima kasih Indonesia, terima kasih Jogjakarta, terima kasih Tanjung Gunung kerana berikan aku pengalaman yang cukup indah.. 

InsyaAllah, moga dimurahkan rezeki untuk ke sana lagi..

Terima kasih ya teman-teman.. Moga ketemu lagi ^^

Missing u guys,

Hira.

P/s: As I believe, the thing we share between Indonesia and Malaysia is Upin dan Ipin, jadinya lagu yang paling cocok buat kita adalah lagu Sahabat Selamanya.. hahaha.. kangen skali sama kalian

Jean Pictet (1st part)

Hey peeps..

So, cerita dia cuti panjang, and hati gian nak tulis, so selongkar la gambar mana yang ada, buat update heh...

Basically, this story went back to 2 years ago, when they asked me to fill up the form for the mooting audition. They asked me to list 3-5 moot competitions that i want to join. If i'm not mistaken, two of what i've listed are Philip C. Jessup and Jean Pictet.

Why these two? 

Well, i knew about Jessup since my Asasi year, and for me, Jessup is like the most prestigious moot competition. And those who represent Malaysia, or ever joined this competition is like best of the best. Kalau tak silap, dulu my seniors in UiTM pernah explain about this sort of hierarchy in "moot world". The newbies are so called 'ikan-bilis' and the Jessup team are the 'ikan paus'.

That shall explain everything. So by that time, Jessup is like the ultimate goal even though it's almost impossible.

Next is Jean Pictet...

Erm... for Jean Pictet, I'm not so sure what it is exactly as i've only heard it once from my UKM seniors. Still remember during earlier weeks of 1st semester when UKM moot teams introduced to us the 1st year, what moot really is. And i can still remember the moment they told us about Jean Pictet which took place in Spain on 2014, and UKM is the first Malaysian uni to join that competition.

They showed us pics and explain how cool it is, and the competition went for almost a week.

A week in Spain and competition that involve real life situation, that is major cool, besides the coach is Caucasian...lol, typical malay..

Anyway, thats how i'm amazed by those two competitions and wrote them as my major goal for mooting.. and, during the audition, i still remember how Dr. Matt and Dr. Jedi commented on my 'competition-goals'. They said that those two are impossible for me.. so yeah, devastated, but somehow i manage to join the IHL 2014 team.

And, here come the amazing part..

Somewhere on July or August if i'm not mistaken, i've heard that they're dividing us, the mooters into few teams for different competition, and somehow, i have this wants, that i want to join different types of moot competitions each time ( moot competitions varies from criminals to biz issues to human rights and many more). And i knew that some of my friends and previous IHL teammates are called by Dr. FJ to discuss on Jean Pictet.

Woooooo~ JEAN PICTET man..

i really really want it, but, to be frank, Dr. FJ don't know my existent...lol

I almost crash their meeting, but somehow saya berpijak di bumi yang nyata..hahaha

devastated. again.

They offered me to join IHL team again for the 2015, but yeah, just like what i said before, i want to try something new, despite my lacking..hahahaha

I humbly rejected their offer and greatly happy afterwards when i know two of my bestfriends joined up the team. Totally proud with Tiqah and Jason. They did so great.

Mirically, i got a call from Raymond, my previous teammate from IHL 2014, and he said that we're on the same team. For a competition. Jean Pictet to be exact.. HUH??

And thats how everything begin.. 

Few weeks after, we got a mooters meeting with Dr FJ and she listed out all the competitions for 15/16 and all the mooters name. She started to divided us into teams and assigned our competition..

Not-so-surprisingly, hahahahaha, she wrote the names for Jean Pictet team, which are Raymond, Wahab (4th year) and me. And, only I'm there, those two are not there.. And here is what Dr.FJ said

" For Jean Pictet, I assigned Raymond to lead the team, and after a discussion, he suggested Syahirah and i suggested Wahab. Well, I'm not sure who is Syahirah. Anyone know who she is?"

I almost laugh at myself..hahahahahahah

"Dr, I'm Syahirah. 2nd year student. Raymond's teammate from IHL2014 team." 

*I raised my hand awkwardly...like super awkward*

"Owh...ok" - Dr. FJ 

and she continue to complete teams for other competitions and thats how raymond and I assigned for another competition (incase we fail with jean pictet national round). and thats how i'm almost sure that they dont actually put much confident on us to win this thing..

and..somehow, we prove them wrong..

*OMG, i just realized how this first part gonna be extra long*

We only have less than 1 month kot to actually do preparation.. and as that one month we're super busy to complete assignments and what so not, so if i'm not mistaken all three of us only meet up properly less than 5 times kot.. yang lain, pandai2 baca sendiri. And to make it worst, we're not actually sure what Jean Pictet actually is.

Bayangkan, Malaysa pernah join skali je, which is a year ago, and yang join tu pun dah grad, kitorang google pun tak dapat banyak info, and yang kitorang prepare, only based on what the previous team, Team Saw, cerita. As, Jean Pictet is so much different than other moot competition and the materials to read are a whole lot more, so yeah, i'm not sure what i read either.

Apa beza moot competition dengan Jean Pictet?

Erm, yang most obvious ialah moot competition lain, korang ada satu je role, whether korang lawyer, or negotiator. But, dalam Jean Pictet, korang boleh jadi macam2. Maybe korang boleh jadi lawyer, or prime minister or ministers, or delegates or volunteers or terrorist or whatever it is, in one day..

Yes, dalam sehari, korang akan dapat 2,3 watak berbeza.. hahahah

second, kalau dalam moot competition, korang akan dapat soalan or the moot problems or the client profile dalam sebulan sebelum, but in Jean Pictet, u'll know your role and the problems 30-60 mins before. Yeap, hahaha haritu setengah jam je.. 

3rd, dari part materials yang kena baca, dalam mooting, korang dah tau apa kena baca.. Based on problems yang korang dapat. But for Jean Pictet, you need to read everything, you need to watch everything. Yup, baca and tonton ye kawan2.. during preparation period, i read on international humanitarian law dengan public international law a lot. In these two fields, i read on a lot of things which includes on macam mana cara perang yang sah, orang mana yang boleh bunuh, orang mana yang x boleh bunuh, senjata mana halal haram guna waktu perang, bantuan apa boleh dapat, tempat mana boleh letup, senjata baru mana boleh guna, taktik mana sah nak guna and so on...which is obviously sooooo different than the game, yang x tau nama apa, that i tried before. Someone played his PS, and somehow, i crashed the game.. cant remember tho, tapi yang ingat game tu boleh bunuh2 orang sesuka hati, curi kreta ke apa tah sesuka hati.. and i played the game just because nak rasa perasaan bawak bas, bawak lori dengan naik skuter.. lol.. while he obviously played the game to kill people.. guys...i cant understand them somehow. hahahah.. ok, back to the story.

And i watched a lot of war movies, basically to imagine hows the situation during war, physically and emotionally.. I watched save private ryan and lot more.. including Rwanda.. lol, still ingat.

And joined the national competition.. stress terlampau.. dapat plak kena lawan dengan UPNM, which semua orang tau diorang belajar benda2 ni.. Datang muka semua ala2 askar, i is so takut.. hahaha

gelabah la masing2 dalam bilik moot. hahaha...

Muka cuak tapi acah2 macam tak dengan Raymond, feat bilik berselerak berterabur dengan barang kitorang... ^^

So, hows the competition done..

This is the first time Jean Pictet for national round. And, I'll write here roughly on how the competition done as i'm pretty sure there'll be juniors that will asked about this.. so lepas ni kalau tanya, akak suruh cari my blog je k.. hahahaha

So, for the first day, basically ada taklimat on how the competition akan dijalankan from the organizer which is ICRC Malaysia.. and then few slots from professionals on ICRC roles and on human rights.. 

Second day, the competition starts. First, they gave us few documents, dalam an hour before. First doc, macam surat or note on appoinment. They will state who u're going to meet and who u are.

And few other documents termasuklah background negara terlibat, map, keratan akhbar, lirik lagu or anything yang relevant. After sejam, competition start. 

gambar waktu kuarantin... abang photographer masuk pun dah tak sempat nak layan.. korang nak tangkap gambar ke apa, buat la, akak x sempat layan.. sorry.. tapi akak masihlah perasan korang dok main tangkap gambar kot celah tingkap, siap buat video ulang alik bukak tutup pintu, tapi akak masih usha kertas, acah2 busy.. hehehe..

For first round, the note cakap kitorang jadi orang icrc.. so, kena nego based on our responsibilities.

Lepas dah kena basuh dengan judge, waktu ni lawan Unisza, then tamatlah first round..

2nd round, dia bagi masa setengah jam je preparation, waktu ni lawak.. dalam memo tu, dia tulis team kitorang jadi strategy team, team UPNM jadi legal team.. diorang bagi kitorang situation, suruh kitorang bagi strategi perang, then suruh budak upnm bagi tau dari legal view.. mati kutu kitorang..

so, sebagai budak law yang belajar based on movie je, so sesuka hati je kata yang ni kita ambush, yang ni kita hantar spy, yang ni kita boleh guna drone kot, orang ni kita tembak je, x berharga pun, yang lain tu kita baling bom....hahahah

yang buat benda ni lagi lawak, dalam note meeting tu, dia kata kitorang akan jumpa orang dari pejabat presiden.. so kitorang ingat, owh maybe judges ni orang2 pejabat presiden.. but bila pertandingan start, dengar budak2 upnm panggil judge "Mr. Presiden", baru tau kitorang meeting dengan presiden sebenarnya.. padan la judge nya asyik berdiri, ke hulu ke hilir, dengan mencarut suka hati dia je.. menjiwai watak sungguh,.. presiden rupanya... hahaha

3rd round dengan semua team, ada united nation punya meeting if tak silap, and kitorang jadi delegates for one of the countries involved, and sempatla buat drama bergaduh sebab negara lain tuduh kitorang hantar virus untuk hack diorang punya pertahanan.. waktu tu team iolls so emotional, mati2 x nak kalah kata kitorang tak bersalah. hahaha.. akak so malu sekarang..

nah kau, 6 teams skali lawan, penuh dalam kelas tu.. bertekak la ramai-ramai.. 

kekdahnya berebut mic.. masing-masing taknak mengaku sapa hantar virus..

habis lawan, semua kembali ke tempat makan, beratur ambik kuih dengan air teh.. lol sangat.

and alhamdulillah, we made it to final ^^

and final jumpa team ni hah... geng international relation Unisza..

malam tu prepare tah pape.. sebab target esok keluar pasal rogol, maka malam tu gigih tengok cerita Rwanda.. kemain berjujuran air mata, emo tengok cerita tu.. 

alih2 esok bincang tentang benda lain =-='

final kitorang jadi orang icrc balik.. kena pergi penjara ke pusat tahanan apa tah.. kena nego dengan pegawai penjara, mintak kebenaran untuk tengok banduan/tahanan, make sure diorang dapat rawatan, makanan and tak kena dera.. kekdahnya menjiwai watak, merayu-rayu lahai nak masuk.. dan pertama kali dalam sejarah hidup, tak pernah2 syera mencarut waktu lawan, tibahjah, mencarut kat team lawan waktu final.. nasib team kitorang tiga2 mencarut slow2.. lol.. anyway, drama melampau, tak habis cakap judges dah bangun, acah2 ada meeting lain.. terkapai-kapai la si raymond tak puas hati tak habis cakap lagi..

and, alhamdulillah, despite all the carutans, we won..

For the first time ever, i won a competition during my degree years, and we're going international..

InsyaAllah, ada rezeki nanti akan terbanglah seorang Syahirah dengan kejakunannya ke sebuah negara tak jauh mana dari Malaysia.. 

kot... hahahah

Anyway, thank you so much semua yang terlibat, support our team in all possible ways, yang tolong aku angkut buku dari library gi kreta, yang tolong angkat buku terjatuh berterabur tengah jalan, yang tolong bukak kan pintu bilik moot, yang tolong cover tertidur dalam kelas dan yang sewaktu dengannya... plus, yang tolong tangkap gambar  dua tiga hari tu... jarang2 ada gambar waktu pertandingan...

Conclusion dia, apart from nak cerita pengalaman, i just want to share my stories with my fellow friends and juniors, especially the Malays, bukan nak jadi racists ke apa, but i know, majority of us afraid to join moot team sebab kena speaking kan.. macam yang korang baca, even korang pernah encounter me, my english is horrible.. grammar tunggang langgang. X confident pun sebenarnya nak speaking ni..

Even from my background, my family 100% cakap bahasa melayu, sekolah rendah pun sama, sekolah menengah pun sama.. My 'english' moments terhad dalam kelas English je. my non-malay friends tak ramai.. ada la 2,3 ketul.. Stakat anand, devend, karthik dengan dharmika tu, diorang pun cakap bahasa melayu.. anand tu, walau pun siam, mak dia masih lah cikgu sastera.. devend tu bahasa tamil pun dia kena rujuk karthik.. so faham2 je la.. Yang penting, berani untuk cuba, try to explore..

Zaman degree bukannya panjang pun.. nak bersaing dengan ramai orang.. bila ada peluang, ambik.pandai English ke tak, tu belakang cerita. korang boleh improve along the way, aku pun masih dan sentiasa belajar.. kau ingat semua orang masuk mooting tu pandai speaking.. x de maknanya..

so now, instead of tanya kitorang best ke tak mooting, susah ke tak mooting, try it yourself. of course kitorang akan kata mooting damn susah, damn penat and so not berbaloi, but then, after dah join, korang akan tau how the kepuasan really is.. so, believe me, bila ada pluang, brave yourself, and try. We, the mooters always support new people.. kalau korang minat, and sanggup sacrifice, then just let us know, kitorang akan tolong semampu yang boleh..

tu je la kot.. for 2nd part, insyaAllah, bila dah settle next journey, iolls akan update eh..

wish me luck..

Yang penat menaip,

Hera

kasi can akak tampal gambar lemau lepas seharian berlakon jadi macam2.. walaupun akak tak secantik akak askar UPNM, akak nak paste gak gambar akak kat sini.. ada saya kesah ^^

plus, sebab bukan selalu muka akak featured dalam video, plus dalam youtube lagi, so izinkan akak share video ye.. maafkan 'kepoyoan' disitu.. tak tau brapa kali take video tu.. dengan tudung senget benget, faham2 je la, akak melawat tempat tahanan, bukan melawat awak.. lawan cakap pun dengan judge, bukan dengan bae akak... so, anyway, thanks to bro and sis videographer.. gigih sangat temuramah even 2 jam dah habis lawan..

Syera on vid for the first time ever...lol

sekian.. doa akak terbang nanti tak buat drama jatuh masuk laut tak pun, headline tv3 student law ukm kena letup disamping kejakunannya.. amiiinnnnn....

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2016

Hey.. Hi..

Happy 2016 anyway.. 

even though half a month had passed, i'm not that late maybe...

So.. I've just done with my last paper for part 3 of 2nd year LLB.

Hows my papers? Terrible. Done. Hahahaha

Anyway, few people asked me what exactly happened? Suicide is it? 

Sorry, I'm still alive. Half dead to be exact.

Erm, few things happened. Though ones. But yeah, life goes on.

I learnt few things along my 3rd semester. 

And I'm not sure how much i grew up.

As a law student, 2nd year is damn hard. 

It's not about the classes, well thats another thing, but who i am as a 2nd year law student, i'm such a mess. What happened to me during my 4th year of highschool, happened again. The rebellious era. I don't want to study, i don't want to do assignments, i don't want to hang out with friends, i hate books.

And i'm sick. A lot. This is my first time not going to classes for so many time. 

And i can't believe i can end up with such a 'sickness'. 

And for few reasons, i only revealed it to my bestfriend. I don't have the guts to tell mama and ayah. They will surely cry if they knew about it.

Don't worry, I'm not going to die.. am I?

well, i'm getting my treatment well at least.

So, i'm still alive after my last paper, means i survived first part of my 2nd year.

Next, how's my life as a syera or hera or ira or whoever she is..

To be honest, it's pitch black now. 

Everything i planned and imagined before seems impossible.

I learnt that i can love someone that much.. 

too much even for me to understand.

I never thought that tough syera before, can have that super-soft-sensitive heart.

You can caci maki me for no reasons, you can tengking me as much as you want, and i can end up being hell of a bitch to u.

But then, when it comes from my family, or bestfriends, or loved one, i just cant.That strong, tough syera just lose herself.

'Go and change yourself'

How much more should i change myself? Will you guys accept me in your life if i change that one thing.. am i that horrible.. am i that bad.. am i that annoying.. why cant i have happiness like others..

i want to be happy too.. i want to laugh too.. i want to smile too.. 

Can't I?

I've been practicing this for a long long time.. 

I'm a bitch maybe.

anyway, I've though about this a lot. And no matter how much and how deep i think about this, it never changes. i guess you're the one.

I don't know when, and i don't know why..

but I know how and i know who..

So yeah, I'll grow up.. i still have few years isnt it..

when the time comes, lets give another shot cause i can sense endless potential in this relationship.

till then, u know what to do..

you know everything that i would say..

and you know exactly what i want to hear..

So yeah, till then..

p/s: Just in case you want confirmation, i'm still staying..

Really tried my best to not be straight forward,

Syera/Ira

This one movie that gives me a lot to learnt..

and this song, despite its simple verses, it serves a whole lot more than it should..

i guess that's all for the 1st half of first month of 2016. 

Stay strong guys.. stay happy.. reflect yourself and try to improve..

you'll be a better person.

And, whoever you're, i love u..

just in case you think nobody loves you, just remember u have one here..

Suicide

Hey..

After all these while, my words just kill me back. I ruined my own life. I stabbed my own heart.

I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry. I'm sorry..

I hate myself. I hate myself. Why cant I be happy.. I hate myself.


I'm sorry