Closing...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye...

It'd been so long since the last time i wrote a post.. in the middle of final..

quite busy.. ni pun curi2 masa to write something in the middle of the night..

so yeah, how's my life...

tahla.. i'm not sure how to describe.. 

i'm not happy, i'm not sad, i'm hurt, i'm frustrated..

can i say it as soul-less...

things and things happened.. bad things...

it's getting harder and harder each time...

i believe in one, i'm frustrated...

 then i believe in another one, and i'm frustrated again.. 

and i believe in another one, hoping that it'll be different, but somehow, i realize, people are just the same..

in the end, i don't care about anything anymore..

i don't believe in anything...

when u need, u try to be as close as u can.. 

when u don't need, just pretend u never know them..

hehehe.. 

i keep thinking, 'Why is this world works this way. 

People keep hurting one another.

but, i have to admit, that's how life works..

whether it's about love, about friendship, about life, about people around u...

when u're making the decision to let them step into your life, remember, u're also permitting them to hurt you...

that's how life works..

so, i'm not against the world..

i'm just too tired..

too tired to be strong... too tired to be soul-less..

and now, let me close it, for a while..

once, i almost close it, but someone ask me to open up, so that, i don't have to live alone..

but somehow, the same person make me want to close it again..

close it tightly...

i'm not the only one.. people around are hurting as much as i am..

because of the same kind of people..

individu berbeza...

latar belakang berbeza...

hubungan berbeza..

yang sama hanya dua..

jantina..

dan luka..

maka, pintu itu aku tutup..

sementara..

sampai ketika..

orang berbeza...

aku buka...

everynight, before i went to sleep, i keep thinking, there're so many things i want to do back then, but i never get the chance..

after a while, i said to my heart...

' Ira, plans u made back then, God don't let it happen, not because He don't want to let u experience it, but He's making u to experience it with the right person, in the right moment..so, hold on a little bit more. Create your best happy ending with the best person to be with'

hopefully, i'll get the chance to do so.. 

if i meant to with the same person, i'll be blessed... 

deep inside, i'm still waiting... with hope..

i believe, every person deserve second chance..

but, if it's not you, if it's other person, thank you for entering my life..

i can't ask for anything better..

you'll be my happy-ever-after...

live your life..

XOXO,

SyeraZehar

Kelu...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hai...

OMG, dah berbulan tak menulis... tiba2 nak tulis balik... i'm so sorry..

too busy nowadays as final is so soon..

sooner than i thought it'll be..

so yeah, i'm sorry...

beside nak elak diri dari baca posts lama...

hahahah... syera still syera...

takkan berubah...

my life ok je... kadang2 je rasa lifeless skit..

tapi, i'm still ok..

cuma, macam tadi, tiba2 diungkit, ditanya, aku kelu..

moga jawapan itu jawapan terbaik..

untuk kebaikan bersama...

masih ada timbang rasa..

masih cuba menjadi terbuka..

mohon bahagia di sana..

aku terluka. sikit. manusia biasa.

sakit itu normal.

terima kasih. bagi aku rasa.

hahaha... mohon jangan pelik..

curahan rasa semata.

XOXO,

uknoWho

Partial-Stranger

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Again...

This is my second post today... 

Dah lama tak buat post, tiba2 buat, dua terus...

hehehehe.... ni la namanya tamak haloba..

so, where's the point... yeah, it'd been few months since my recession phase..

but surely, moving on is the hardest thing ever... 

(owh, study law is the hardest..hehehe..)

but i thought, i should at least, pretend to be move on...

and i survived...

then, few days before, i talk to a friend.. not that close to that person..

just a general friend.. but somehow, we started to share stories... 

even stories that we wished no one will ever know.

pelik how a stranger can be more comfortable than any one closer...

so, after had some talk, it's a big relief..

like all the burden from the sadness gone..

so, thank you.. hehehe

so now, i do believe that the best revenge is to move on..

 being week will never help things to back like old days...

Proving my abilities to be above that person, will give me a victory...

For sure..

I'd try my best... but yeah, not every people think the same kan..

so, pray the best for me..

Hope everything planned will work..

and you, just dont ruin your future.

that's all la kot..

Good luck.. 

kalau ikotkan, saya di pihak teraniya, nak doa bukan2 pun boleh kot...

hahaha... kidding... 

i'm not that evil..

you're...

hahaha... ok, joking lagi...

erm, stop the nonsense.. 

right....so, no regret...

p/s : it has been a very long time since the last time i got a crush on someone... but now i did.. and i dont know why... and it's fun... feeling like a lil girl back... hahaha... shhhh~ it's a secret...

XOXO,

UknoWho

#prayforMH370

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye..

Right now, 0023, more than ten hours since the MAS flight missing, and i'm sitting infront of the tv, listening to the news, hopefully there're any good news..

I don't really know anyone in the plane, but i do know they're human.

 i'm not concerning which nationalities they are, as long as there're human in there, it will be in my concern too.. it's heartbreaking actually.. 

I can't even imagine how their families are doing right now..

But i do wish they stay strong..

Everyone know the possibilities.. The clock keeps tik tok tik tok..

I also keep hoping there will be at least a new about it..

At least the position of the plane can be traced. 

If there is any survivor, it'll be a great bless.

I really really wish the plane will be found soon.. InsyaAllah..

Something impressed me the most is how people in Malaysia or not, keep praying and giving supports...

i thought we are loosing humanity and the spirit of being a society, but i'm wronged..

There're people that still care about things like these..

so, May Allah ease everything.. hopefully, everything gonna be ok..

i don't want to comment anything about the speculation or what people things and make jokes out of these incident or who to be blamed because i do believes that those things are craps.. so, yeah, pray for MH370 everyone..

XOXO,

UknoWho