Conclusion 2014 : Debat Gender

Hello... It's me... again

settle dgn dftar bagai, masuk la minggu orientasi..

mcm biasa la orientasi ni, ada nyanyi2, ada blaja cheers2 bagai... 

owh, ada perang dectar.. apa perang dectar?? nnti2 la aku crta..

as i mentioned before, aku join team debat za'ba... yg best pasal debat ni, serious aku salute,  yg join smua bangsa ada.. ramai je chinese and indian join.. and their BM is superb.. another thing, ramai je yg x de basic lgsung... wktu skolah tringin nak try, tp x dpt.. so, digalakkan wktu miggu MMM ni try.. korg siap dpt personal coaching lg...

and then, dah settle mggu MMM, minggu akademik start mcm biasa..

btw, seniors sini baik gila.. aku dr law fac, so, korg boleh approach je mana2 senior yg korg terserempak.. law fac ukm ni kecik and isolated sikit.. sapa dr asasi uitm shah alam maybe mcm dpt nmpak beza dia.. 

student tak ramai, bangunan pun kecik.. so, chances nak jmpa senior tu boleh kata dlm 99.9% la.. just tegur je.. agak2 nnti korg masuk, ternampak aku, tego je la "hey syera!!", tak pun nampak dr jauh boleh dah kot lmbai2... haaaaa...

part from that, aku join UPU iaitu unit pengucapan umum..

basically mcm kelab debat and pidato BM..

this UPU thingy is awesome, mcm kau join satu family baru... kau jmpa budak lain course.. sumpah best.. even kau x da pglmn debat lgsung, boleh join... seniors and alumni sedia tolong...

aku pun dalam upu ni la buat kawan baru, baru nak kenal senior faculty sendiri... mana nak dpt wei senior 3rd year, 4th year lyn kau sikit punya baik... 

budak2 law, aku mmg recommend korg join upu ni, boleh improve your soft skills.. x de byr yuran ke apa.. join je...

so, mana part debat gender nya..

here it is... every week, akan ada perjumpaan UPU, whther selasa or rabu, untuk sparring oe if ada competition, untuk build up teams and everything..

This one particular day, aku x dpt pi sbb ada meeting lain dekat kolej..

tiba2 abg naim (naim fital) dia call, tanya bz tak, if tak dia dtg ambik bawak gi upu..

so, here it is.. 1st, senior 3rd year kau call.. 2nd, senior kau ni org lejen debat.. 3rd, dia sndr nak gi ambik kau bawak gi UPU... conclusion nya, ada something wrong.. so, ok, dia dtg, ambik bawak gi bilik UPU.. lupa nak cakap, abg naim ni (naim fital) was my coach during MMM week... so, dlm kreta ada dia, aku and aiman syahmi... dia kata.. mlm tu ada pemilihan untuk team gender.. team gender wajib ada perempuan.. so, ukm hntar 2 team, satu team 2 org, means sorg laki and sorg prempuan.. so, there's not enough girl debater..

aku ringkaskan, skrg ni ada dua org 1st year yg diberi peluang, if aku x dtg mlm tu, so the other girl automatically join the team.. so, he just want me to grab the chance.. sumpah aku takkan lupa jasa dia... mana nak dpt wei, 1st year, x smpai sbulan masuk boleh try join team ukm..

so, alhamdulillah, mungkin rezeki aku wktu tu, dpt join team ukm.. my teammate is abg Awi aka abg Virg... sumpah mula2 awkward.. but syukur kat Tuhan aku jumpa and kenal insan hebat ni... Tuhan je tau betapa besyukur nya aku... 

mcm2 pengalaman... ni 1st time aku join debat british style.. empat penjuru..

lain sgt2.. mcm2 bnda jd.. alhamdulillah, skali lagi, rzki ktorg dpt masuk semi..

aku yg first year, first time join debat uni, rezeki jmpa team2 hebat..

team UM, UiTM, UIA, UPM... senang crta smua team elite la... rasa kerdil sungguh wktu tu...

tp abg Virg always pesan, everytime before start lawan, dia kata, igt balik tujuan kita dekat sini nak blaja, nak dpt pglmn... menang kalah blakang kira.. just enjoy the match... even kalah pun, aku puas hati... bnyk sgt2 aku blaja, bnyk sgt2 org aku jumpa, aku kenal... sapa sgka 1st month join ukm dpt naik atas pentas salam dgn menteri.. rezeki..

yg penting bagi aku, kau ambik peluang, do your best, challenge yourself and have fun... tu je la kot..

sapa2 nak tau pasal mggu mmm lagi or debat MMM or debat gender boleh contact me directly via FB : Nor Syahirah Azahar or twitter : @irazehar..

XOXO,

Syera

Conclusion 2014 : UKM registration

Assalamualaikum and hye peeps..

* this is practically me right now, except i'm not an apple user, i dont have whiskers and yeah, i'm sneezing all over the place...

Quite a while since the last post..

pretty much busy with finals...

Even though first year law student only got 3 papers, but i can say it's a damn hard 3 papers...hahaha

All and all... here I am...

 using this last few moment of 2014 to write few memorable moments before i forget everything..lol..

 so yeah, i'll try my best to summarize everything in few posts..

Happy reading people ^^

That is almost me during my first day in UKM...

So, as these MMM week was months back then, I'll try my best to explain everything that i remember ok...

By the way, my story is from a law student perspective ok.. my perspective..

Basically, MMM week, or also known as minggu mesra mahasiswa, same like other minggu orientasi.. rasanya tak banyak beza pun dgn orientasi Uni2 lain..

cuma, sape yg bakal berdaftar, ada few things nak dipesan...

First, sape2 yg dok jauh, senang crta luar Selangor, pls book hotel area bangi ni bila korg dapat twrn.. senang crita, klik je kptsn, dia tulis 'Tahniah blablaba...' maka, berlari-lari lah anda tunjuk result dekat mak bapak, then terus call hotel ok... hahaha.. serius ni perlu.. 

Jgn nak kata, ekeleh, rumah aku Perak je, tolak lepas subuh smpai je ni..

 ni hakak nak pesan, toksah nak buat pala sgt.. kau dok dpn ukm ni pun, kalau subuh kau pukul 9, jwb dia kau dok la baris dlm kreta tu 3,4 jam.. 

Kau igt kau sorg je dpt twrn UKM, beribu lagi dik, so mohon, dtg awal sehari..

And, tolong la jugak, sehari sebelum pegi tu, belek dulu map UKM yg dia bg tu.. tgok siap2 mana simpang nak gi kolej kau.. yg ni kesian aku tgok pak guard tu, lepas satu, satu kreta dok berenti, tanya kemain...

''Encik, anak sulung saya ni, kemain hebatnya, taktau la macam mana boleh dapat belajar dekat UKM ni... blaja undang2 plak tu... tak tau la mana dpt kehebatan dia tu.. sapa la gamak nya mak ayah dia...ni nak tanya, Za'ba dekat mana?"

haaaaa~ yg tu, mak bapak sapa buat camtu, mohon gi siku sikit... jgn kata siku anak je, ngan mak pak pun siku skali... lol... dia tak tau bratus lagi budak ambik law... =='

2nd, please la sgla borang mak nenek tu isi awal2.. kaunter dia kecik and sikit.. org bratur kemain pnjg.. so plis, jgn smpai dpn kaunter tu, baru nak keluar pen, cari gunting, mintak pinjam gam dari org blakang laa...

jangan nak buat hal.. bnyak lagi bnda nak dibuat...

3rd, ni tlg igtkan mak ayah, nak parking kreta tu, biar bertamadun sikit... 

Ni kadang2 kemain, kat cermin kreta, tampal sticker "My son is a lawyer-to-be".

Kekdahnya, mak pak parking kreta mcm buta terus undg2...

Mohon la igt sikit anda hidup bermasyarakat..

4th, bawak barang tu berpada.. jgn nak mengada stock pndh rumah...

Aku pun bawak barang blambak.. bantal 3,4 jugak... tp pndai2 la packing bg senang skali dua angkut terus habis...

Ni tak, ada yg tak kenal lgsung rupa beg and kotak kot... lepas satu, satu dia bawak... adik beradik ada 6, semua dia kerah agkut brg dia.. sorg bawak mug, sorg bawak bantal, sorg bawak selimut.. tu belom kira yg bawak sekampung...

please, serius aku fhm, kdg2 ada yg anak sulung, kdg2 ada yg kau anak tgh pun, kau sorg je masuk Uni, sumpah aku faham..

Tapi tolong la, jgn la bawak warga emas, jgn bawak kakak kau yg pregnant, jgn bawak pakcik makcik yg sakit gout ke,lutut lari ke apa..

Sumpah sian wei, wktu hr tu ada yg bawak moyang... dah la tua, kau plak dpt tgkt 4,5.. blok mmg x da lift... kau considerate la sikit.. kau yg muda pun lelah, ni kau harap moyang kau gagah... so, beragak la sikit.. pastu ada yg bawak kakak pregnant la, kau nak anak sdara kau lahir dkt ukm ke apa... yg bawak sakit sgla tu, kesian aku tengok mnapak naik tangga tu, setingkat setengah jam apa cer... yg kakak ada baby tu, dan2 tu la nak menyusu pun... yg ada laki tu, tak payah angkut smpai ke bilik, karang drama korea korg tak da sapa nak usha wei....

and last, please la be ready... jgn la wktu tu la jugak korang nak mental breakdown.. waktu tu la nak jadi diva bagai.. jgn nak mintak tukar bilik la, x nak tingkat 2 la... nak bilik dgn kawan la... kau nak kena siku ke apa...

settle bab daftar, bab orientasi ni aku pendek kan je...

cerita nya, lpas dpt offer ukm, aku buat research sikit.. then dpt tau wktu debat ni ada lawan debat antra kolej.. sapa masuk team debat most of the time x payah join aktiviti orientasi...

Maka, sebagai insan bernama syahirah, facee umum je sapa nak join debat, chapchuss aku agkt tgn.. lolllsss sgt... maka, terselamatlah diri ini dr join aktvt lain..so, sesapa yg ada pglmn debat, or nak try debat, join je ok...

 by the way, sesapa nak dftr law ukm, aku recommend, korg usha la blog naim fital... mmg bnyak bantu... thats all..

Chau..

XOXO,

Syera

Eccendentesiast

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello...

hey...hai...so... yeah...

It's 15th december... 

and here I am... 

stuck with loads of assignments, reports, studies...

Final is coming... and i'm hell not ready yet.. (mind my language)

If you know me, know who I really am... U'll know my condition right now..

Like everyone see... here she is... the strong lady..

and here i am... smiling... like always.. like a dumb...

It's hard.. It's tough...

Degree life.. more than what i've imagine..

and going through all these, without few people i really need, make it unbearable..

I'm hurt.. I'm tired.. I'm sad..

I need time... I need space.. I need smile.. I need hug.. I need u..

If and only if u ever think about this...

I'm not...

I'd thought of stopping.. but because i'd made a promise to make it till the end..

so here i am..

it's really hard..

and if u ever asked whether anything change?

The answer is no.. but there's one thing change... 

Once, i believe dream is a must and dream do come true...

But now i realized, dream is something that make us happy for a while... 

and just like other dream, it remains as dream..

this same date, exactly one year ago, I had the best dream..

but the dream, just like other dream, only appear in my sleep..

you know who u are..

Sorry.. I still watch from a distance..

I still pray for no reason...

I still..

Moga cepat sihat..

Pray for my final.. as a friend.

the eccendentesiast,

Ira.

Pengajaran

Assalamualaikum and hi! ^^

So..... I'm busy... very busy... 

somehow, I stop for a while to write this thing...

Just now, i came across a story in FB (yeah, FB have everything rn.. like EVERYTHING!!).

It's about a student who are in a restaurant, doing his/her assignment... i share the link below... just click it, and yeah, reflect yourself...

The story

and oh, to akak empunya story, sorry tak mintak kebenaran dulu, but seriously niat saya baik... thanks for the sharing tho..

Sad kan... yup, really sad actually.. I cried, badly..

terkedu sekejap.. then, suddenly I remembered something that happened to ME.. 

Few weeks back, I went somewhere, can't remember tho, Midvalley maybe...

So, on my way back to UKM, after reaching KTM Bangi station, I decided to take a cab.

Seorang pakcik, mungkin tua sedikit dari ayah saya, pelawa saya masuk dalam teksinya..

Lumrah seorang perempuan, sedikit rasa was2.. 

Teksi mula bergerak, beliau (ya, saya guna 'beliau' sebab pakcik tersebut layak mendapat penghormatan tersebut), tanya pada saya, "Anak kolej mana?"

"Kolej Zaba, pakcik." dan sebagai seorang Syahirah, yang sangat awkward dgn org x dikenali, aku terus snyap..

"Jauh kolej awak ni nak.. jarang2 pakcik hantar orang kat kolej tu.." kemudian beliau capai sepeket kacang dan mula mengunyah. Dipelawa saya makan, namun saya tolak dengan baik..

Sejujurnya, saya masih was2... dalam dunia moden ni, mcm2 cerita saya pernah dengar, cuma terlalu berhati-hati..

Tersenyum pakcik tu.. " Nak, kacang ni pakcik beli dekat pusaneka td.. pakcik x buat pape."

Saya tersenyum dengan penjelasan pakcik tu... sedikit rasa bersalah.. Ya Allah, mungkin pakcik ni dah terasa hati dengan saya..

Beliau memandu agak perlahan buatkan saya mula rasa geram.. mula tengok jam..

Sekali lagi pakcik tu senyum.. "Nak, sekarang ni orang bawak kereta laju2.. bahaya.. takpa lambat sedikit, asal awak selamat, pakcik selamat, orang dekat luar pun selamat."

Sekali lagi aku tersentak.. direct menusuk hati...

"Awak belajar kursus apa? jadi student mesti penat kan.. banyak kerja kena buat..."

Apa yang jadi selepas ni, mohon kawan2 ambik pengajaran... 

"Saya belajar undang-undang pakcik" 

Tersenyum pakcik tu.. "wahhh, bagusnya... Alhamdulillah, merasa pakcik jadi driver sorang bakal peguam.. macam mana belajar?"

Sejujurnya, aku sedikit bangga waktu itu.. ya, aku belajar undang-undang, terlupa seketika, aku hanya seorang pelajar, dan lebih memalukan, aku hanyalah pelajar tahun 1.. entah kenapa, terdetik rasa bangga diri.. 

" Alhamdullilah pakcik, setakat ni ok lagi.. biasalah mula2 belajar, rasa susah.. tapi insyaAllah, lama2 ok la kot" 

"Belajar rajin2 ya nak.. insyaAllah, pakcik doa kamu jadi lawyer.. nanti dah berjaya, tolong masyarakat ye.." kata pakcik tu..

"ya pakcik.. insyaAllah.. doakan ya.." dan ya, dalam hati, aku masih terasa bangga diri..

ok guys, this is the amazing part....

"Nak, anak pakcik pun peguam jugak.. Alhamdulillah, berjaya dah dia sekarang.. dulu pakcik tengok waktu zaman dia student, dia slalu busy.. sekarang dia dah kerja, lagi busy"... terkedu aku..

"Tapi pakcik bersyukur, anak pakcik dah berjaya.. sebagai anak melayu, dan sebagai seorang perempuan, dia dah jadi seorang peguam, dia dah ada firma sendiri, dia dah beli rumah sendiri dekat setengah juta harga dia... walaupun dia ada suami, dia kumpul duit sendiri, beli rumah.. kata anak pakcik, bekalan untuk anak.. Pakcik bukan nak bangga diri, pakcik cuma nak anak tau, yang kita Melayu dan anak sebagai orang perempuan, boleh berjaya... lagi berjaya dari anak pakcik pun boleh.."

Terkedu.. terkejut.. tergamam...

Ya Allah, berdosa aku bangga diri tadi.. berdosa aku prejudis dekat seorang lelaki.. berdosa aku prejudis dekat seorang pemandu teksi.. Pakcik ini, boleh je duduk di rumah mewah anak beliau, luang masa dengan family, tapi dia pilih untuk bawak teksi..

Sedar2 dah mula naik bukit belakang zaba dah... Pakcik tanya lagi..

"Anak dah ada boyfriend?"

kemain pakcik ni... tanya sampai ada boyfriend bagai...hahaha

"Belum lagi pakcik.. saya ni tak la lawa.. x de sapa nak gamaknya... lagipun skrg ni busy, kalau ada boyfriend, confirm2 boyfriend pun lari" 

Jawapan pakcik tu mmg best betul...

"Takpa nak.. insyaAllah, nanti ada la tu... awak tu jangan jual mahal.. sekarang ni, nak cari yang elok tu susah. tapi pakcik tau dlm UKM ni banyak yang berkualiti tinggi" tergelak aku dengar kata pakcik tu.. sungguh, tak sangka langsung pakcik tu jawab camtu...

"Cuma nak, jangan kahwin dengan laywer jugak.. payah nak.. nanti gaduh tak tau mcm mana nak habis...pakcik tau la, anak pakcik tu kawin dengan lawyer jugak.. pening anak2 bila dorang gaduh..tapi takpa, gaduh2 pun nak makan, nak tido cari juga.. elok ja hidup" yang ni aku gelak lebih..lol.

sampai depan blok...

" Pakcik, terima kasih banyak2.. doakan saya berjaya dunia akhirat.." sungguh, pakcik ni banyak ajar aku.. yang paling penting, jawapan pakcik tu buat aku nangis bila aku smpai bilik..

"Nak, pakcik doakan kamu berjaya.. cuma satu je pakcik pesan... kamu sibuk mana pun sekarang ni dan bila kamu dah sibuk waktu kerja nanti, jangan lupa mak ayah ya.. " Pakcik tu senyum and pergi..

yup.. itu pengajaran paling penting... dalam hidup ni, sehebat mana pun kita, sekaya mana pun kita, jangan lupa 3 insan ni... Mak, Ayah, Cikgu...

saya mohon, ambik iktibar dari pengalaman saya.. sekadar perkongsian.. 

moga2 pakcik tu dirahmati Allah sentiasa.. 

tu je prkongsian untuk kali ini.. wallahualam..

XOXO,

saya.

Life Update

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello guys...

It's November!!!! Ooooeeemmmgggeeeee...

Lol, dah lama tak update sini, last bulan September... serius rindu nk tulis.. 

but too busy...

Few people contact me via email, fb, insta and whatsapp...

majority budak TT, ada yg ex students, ada yg juniors yg I kenal, ada junior yg I x kenal, kiddies from other schools from other states yg i x knal and ada someone's mommy yg i obviously x kenal... 

I'm so sorry sbb tak dpt reply your responds... bukan menyombong ke apa... ada bdak TT junior yg i tak kenal siap tanya lg, 

"akak, sy tau akak x kenal sy, tp jgn la smpai x reply... saya sedih sgt"...

 OH GOD....puhhhlissss dik... toksah nak fefeeling sgt... bukan sesaja... biasanya sis reply je... cuma these few months sesangatlah busy, therefore, skrg br dpt curi ms skit to write something... I'll try to answer most of the Questions in a post...

1st Q

From: I'm not sure who, maybe Asasi students or STPM students or matric's students

Question: " Iv degree law susah x? tanya apa je?"

Answer: i've gone through only 2 interviews which are UKM and and UiTM.. Iv bg setiap Uni lain2.. My opinion, untuk UKM, more about currents issues, legal issues and judging through your confident level and the way you handle and response in group discussion.. For UKM, get used to both BM and English language.. For UiTM, it's even harder... u need to know both current issues and what u have studied in your whole Asasi year ( criminal, tort and contract)... yg current issues, read the most current issues, eg: what happen yesterday or this morning in Malaysia and other countries... yes, that much of current, a.k.a what happened today and yesterday... so, ni ringkasan, nak detail or nak tanya pape, can directly ask me personally...

2nd Q

From: juniors TT (sorry, i don't now u guys.... student baru ke or juniors yg masuk lepas i keluar??)

Question: kenapa akak ambik law? susah tak? bahas best tak? apa benifit bahas ni? budak sekolah biasa boleh survive tak dekat asasi and uni? mcm mana life akak kat skolah dulu? banyak problem dkt skolah and asrama, boleh tak sy nak mintak tlg akak? bila kak syera nak dtg skolah? (lol, soalan berbelas-belas org i combine in one sentence.

Answer: Pasal law and everything related to it, dah di jawab in previous post.. boleh la jenguk2 balik... pasal survive ke tak, depend on individu... but hey, i survived Asasi *smirks* but uni, i'm not sure, baru 1st sem, so tak leh nak bg comments sgt but guess what, every year mesti ada org graduate with llb.. sooooo, ada je yg survive...hehehe... life sis wktu kat skolah? not that fun but colourful...hahaha.. will explain more later (hope i can find some time to write it up)... kes nak mintak tolong, boleh je... feel free to contact me.. InsyaAllah, I'll reply when i have free time. Bila nak dtg skolah? soon..... hahahaha

3d Q

From: juniors TT yg kak syera kenal (lol, tetiba guna kak syera sebab they called me that way)

Question: kak syera, boleh tak kitorg nak pggl kak syera dtg skolah and buat aktvt? 

Answer: boleh je... i've no problem at all... sgt2 berterima kasih and bersyukur if i have a chance to do so... will be more than glad if i can help u guys in some way.. so, here it is, i'm not a great student as in during school life, Asasi life and Uni life... my results are not that good.. and i'm not a 'good' people.. i do commit crimes in all 3 eras (school,Asasi, uni) and involved in soooo many problems.. but, what i can do is just share my experience and a lil bit of advice prior to my mistakes. InsyaAllah, if u want to have aktiviti2 tntg other courses mcm medic, engineering, archi, arts, science stream or such, i can help to find few of my friends yang lebih arif in that matter... pengawas or bahas, i've no problem to ask help from alumni pengawas or alumni bahas... even few of my debat friends here in UKM can help u guys... don't worry about transport, place to stay and food cause i can handle it... as far as i can give something to school, i'll be glad to do so... ^^

4th

From: mak orang and kakak orang... (maaf aunties and sisters... i really have no ideas who are u guys)

Question: Hows your life now?

Answer: Obviously, I'm pretty busy right now... both study and other things... well, belajar law tak kan pernah senang... akan sentiasa busy, itu yang pasti.. banyak benda kena korbankan.. as for me, for my study and my passion towards debat and mooting, banyak yg perlu dikorbankan... masa dengan family, masa dengan kawan, masa dengan diri sendiri.... dapat tido at least 3 jam sehari pun dah kira bersyukur sangat...my final dah dekat, assignments yg belambak,  just done with the Great Gender debate (will update about this soon) and currently struggling with mooting. my life is so hard right now... so, yeah, practically, i don't have a life right now... hahaha

5th

From: Juniors TT

Question: what do u miss the most right now? Hows your love life? best ke uni life? and "akak, u're my idol" (lol, tht last part tho... honestly, not my self proclaim ok)

Answer:

 What i miss the most.. if i have to give one answer, it'll definitely be time with my family.. i miss that the most (including my bed, my tv, my kitchen, my wifi, my aircond, my cat....lol^^) but other than that, i miss my time with my friends, rindu nak lepak dgn my friends especially bebudak 4 org tu (eyna, nora, wani mot), bebudak 4 org tu ( tasnim, timah, cik, mizah), bbudak asasi 4 org tu ( tiqah, anis, anna, izzan), roommates waktu form 5, classmates Asasi, bebudak bahas skolah menengah and so much more... practically i miss my time with other human being besides my moot teammates and debat people... (yes, my life mostly have books and papers rght now.. deal with it)

then, hows my love life? well, i don't have any right now... like seriously, sape nak perempuan yang x pandai, x lawa, sibuk sesangat smpi diri sndr tak terurus? hahaha... sejujurnya, kalau ada sekali pun, i'll be sooo simpati with that guy because i don't have time for him... so, for now, i prefer to be alone. done.

Best ke uni life. My answer, NO. hahaha... life paling best is your toddler life.. Free worries life.. that's the best.

and the last part, the statement tho, i got 3 statements like that from 3 diff person for the past 3 days... so here it is kiddies, i'm not a successful person... believe me, my life was horrible.. i don't have any achievements to be proud of yet... 'idol' is such a big word... dpt that term from other people, i'm ashamed..i don't deserve that... what u've read and see from my blog or fb or insta or twitter, is the fun part a.k.a the positive thng that happened in my life... U'll never knew the ugly part.. seriously, u don't want to .. therefore, my nasihat, if u want to take someone as your idol, believe me, the best people are your parents.. look, they have married for years and they survive, they're working parents but still, they've successfully manage their marriage... they've successfully handled problematic kids like u guys... they've successfully brought up the coolest kid on earth like u guys... (eh?? hehehe) so, i do believe, the most deserve people to be your idol is your own parents...

That's all i can fgive for this moment... ni pun nak rushing buat assignments pulak... I'm so sorry if i tak reply to your email or whatsapp or fb instantly, but i will when i have free time... 

believe me people, whatever happen now is only the training for u to face greater challenge in your future... kalau korang rasa kerja skolah korang banyak sekarang, percayalah, assignments dekat uni jauh lagi banyak... if korang rasa kelas dekat skolah tu lama sgt, tak habis2 even dah ptg, percayalah dkt uni kelas pun habis petang, then mlm kena settle banyak lagi hal... u don't have that much time to eat and sleep during uni life... kalau rasa sekarang asyik kena marah je ngan cikgu, percayalah, dekat uni ni korang kena marah dr ramai org... if korang rasa susah nya lahai dekat skolah nak cari guy/girl yang berkualiti tinggi or sesuai sgt nak buat calon suami/isteri, percayalah dekat uni ni x de masa pun nak cari... and i do believe, when u start working in the future, it'll be even more harder...

 so, chin up people, be strong and face your life.. give your best till the end... work hard, study hard... if u study hard and don't get great result during your test, that mean, u don't put enough effort and you're not doing your best and yes, u just think so... but if, u dah usaha semampu yang boleh, u dah give your best, but still don't score during your final, tu Tuhan nak uji... 

be positive people ^^

till then,

XOXO,

SyeraZehar

Degree Law UKM - Part 1

Assalamualaikum and Happy SEPTEMBER!!

Lama dah tak post... busy for few weeks.. very hectic..

So, I'm so sorry to those yang text, whatsapp, email and yg sewaktunya tanya pasal where am I rn..

Bukan x nak jawab, cuma mencari masa sesuai untuk explain everything..

and i really really hope that my few posts on my degree life will help other people in future.. so, let's start..

First, ramai yang tanya where and what i'm studying rn..

Well, i'm currently at UKM kampus induk, Bangi.. and in process of making llb..

Degree in Law, Faculty of Law, UKM.

gambar ehsan google.. sorry, gi fac lupa snap gmbr.. lol.

Second, ada yg tanya, knapa pilih law..

Wahai adik2 kesayangan akak sekalian..hehehe... 

sebenar-benarnya, i'm not that interested with law at first.. 

even during Asasi year, i don't have that much confident that i'll continue with Law for my degree. So, why did i choose Law.

Sejujurnya, niat asal, even dari highschool, i want to join UKM's debate team.

Sebab apa? sebab zaman skolah dulu, Cikgu Rodzlina a.k.a my debate coach slalu ingatkan, kalau nak jadi pendebat yang baik, kita kena mula dengan proses peniruan. Jadinya, at that time, i'll watch UKM and UM debate team videos over and over again sebab nak tiru. I'm not born with debating talent, no i'm not. Just ada deep passion je.. itu je yang saya pegang for years and i'm so grateful that i've been holding to that principal till now.

Tapi waktu tu, just terfikir untuk untuk tiru.. sampailah one day waktu form 5, before gi peringkat kebangsaan, baru terfikir, kenapa perlu tiru if one day u can be part of them.. so, that's how everything started.

Tapi, waktu tu tak terfikir langsung nak sambung Law kat sini. Just terfikir nak masuk apa2 course kat sini and teruskan dengan debat. but, at the same time, diri ni tak berani nak sambung science courses. therefore, the only way is Asasi law. Waktu Asasi Law plak, i'm not expose to their kelab debat. So, i joined mooting competition. Pengalaman baru.. 

Then, alhamdulillah, sambung UKM.. and to make it even better, I'm doing llb.

Next, 3rd, orang tanya, how i got into UKM?

Sejujurnya, aku sendiri tak tau camne boleh dapat..

 Bukan nak buat rendah diri ke apa.. this is sejujur-jujurnya..

 Law memang my first choice in UPU, but, bukan the only one, ada pilih hubungan antarabangsa Unimas and sosiologi and antropologi UKM. Minat aku sebenarnya lebih terarah kpda hubungan antarabangsa.. sumpah, hati aku dah separuh yakin akan dapat unimas.. segala ilmu wktu asasi dulu aku dah lupakan right after settle interview ukm. 

Pasal ukm, aku terangkan in other post.

 Honestly, result aku rendah sgt2 berbanding student2 lain yg dtg iv especially kalau banding dgn student stpm and matrik.. dorang stok result 4flat je smua..

 and muet aku just band4, just cukup the min requirement, x la hebat smpai dpt band 5 ke apa. Interview hr tu pun biasa2. Sejujurnya, aku x rasa kepuasan iv hr tu.. rasa mcm x lgkap je. 

So, senang kata, ni semua rezeki.. TQ so much Ya Allah.. Aku yakin Kau atur yang terbaik untuk diriku ini.. May Allah ease everything.. Amin~

Aku just nak pesan, to everyone, terutamanya my juniors, kalau korang nak sambung in anything, don't give up.. just keep on usaha.. don't stop.

 We don't know what God had planned for us.. Have faith on Allah.. anything can happen.. As long as u know what u want, everything gonna be just fine.

What am i doing right now?

Well,  baru habis minggu mesra mahasiswa a.k.a minggu orientasi..

Don't worry, pasal orientasi and interview, aku post kemudian..

overall, I'm more than satisfied with my life right now..

Till the next post.. Doakan i'll survive here..Dream big, people.. In my life, dream do come true..

Love your life..

XOXO,

Syera

Part 2: UKM Law Part 2

Part 3: UKM Law Part 3

Part 4: UKM Law Part 4

Part 5: UKM Law Part 5

Part 6 (Final): UKM Law Part 6

Before life changing moment...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello..

Dah kenapa emo tiba2... dah la lama tak update, tiba2 nak emo..

Lol~ abaikan..

Erm, in another few hours, like in 8 hours, i'll have my life changing moment..

I'm not sure whether I'll have the happy tears or the sad tears, i'm not sure..

Whatever it is, i really hope it will have a happy ending..

And here I am, at 4 a.m, watching sad movie alone while crying mcm apa je..

Cry of happiness, cry of nervousness, cry of loneliness, cry of sadness..

Well, this is my way..

I watched sad movies to let my tears away ^^

It'd been a very tough few months for me...

Well, 19 is not what i expect it to be...

Hmmm~ but yeah, life goes on..

I'm not sure who's here...I'd been thinking for few weeks..

Maybe you or maybe even you or you...

hahaha... The 'you's ' that i'll never knew..

This nervousness and happiness, I expect it differently a year ago...

Expectation can be too high...

however hard we try, somehow, can never be reached...

Not that i'd never try... well, fated..

HATI is called as hati for a reason kan...

So people, whatever happen tomorrow, redha and pasrah k..

This feeling should be shared...

Shared..

That was my plan since a year ago...

No, since everything started..

Well, dear me, share..

Plan no more..

Sorry, i don't know what else to write..

May Allah bless..

take care there..

me,

Syera

First Snow - Exo

All is well..

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye...

Hari tu aku nampak kau menangis...

Hari tu aku nampak kau sakit...

Hari tu aku nampak kau menjerit...

Hari tu kau datang dekat aku, mohon maaf, ingatkan tentang kawan...

Kau nangis..

Aku nangis...

Kau pergi...

Aku bangun, aku nangis...

Hari tu kau datang dekat aku...

Kau mahu macam dulu...

Aku fikir, aku tolak.. 

Kau sedih, kau nangis..

Aku nangis..

Kau pergi...

Aku bangun.. aku nangis

Semalam kau datang lagi...

Aku cuba pergi...

Kau minta tolong..

Kau mintak maaf, mintak lupa apa jadi..

Air mata kau ada lagi...

Kau ok?

Kemudian kau pergi..

Lagi...

Jadi aku mohon...

Malam ini jangan kau datang..

Jangan kau bagi kata maaf..

Jangan kau tunjuk air mata..

Sebab aku sudah lelah..

Lelah dengan harapan..

Lelah dengan penantian...

Lelah dengan senyuman...

Sebab pengakhirannya, kau pergi..

sentiasa pergi..

tak apa..

doa aku pada kau takkan putus..

doa seorang sahabat..

moga kau ok sahaja..

moga kau gembira..

Maka, kau pergi dengan hati terbuka..

sahabatmu,

Syera

Touched...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello peeps...

Before I explain everything about this post, i want to say about two things.

First, niat saya buat blog ni, demi Allah untuk kepuasan diri yang masih minat menulis dan berkongsi cerita.. blog ini saya abdikan sebahagian besarnya untuk menyimpan segala memori secara terperinci... motifnya?

 Saya tahu dan faham sangat dunia ini tiada siapa duga.. 

entah esok lusa masih bernyawa atau tidak, masih mampu mengingati atau tidak, saya tidak tahu, anda tidak tahu.. semua ini kuasa Tuhan..

 Jadi, sepenuh hati saya mohon, jangan salah anggap.. 

Tidak ada sekelumit pun rasa hati untuk membongkak atau membangga diri, mahupun mencerca atau mencaci.... 

ok, done with skema words.. next, 2nd...

u'll be surely annoyed today as i'm going to update my blog with few posts (InsyaAllah few je)...

makanya, mohon sabar... 

agak2 sakit mata ke, loya tekak ke bila baca, klik je la pangkah dalam kotak merah kat atas tu..

agak2 dah hilang loya tu esok, mohon sambung baca... hahaha...

ok.. siap..

back to the main issue...

As most of u know, i'm officially penganggur now.. and for the next 3 months..

therefore, hidup penuh kenikmatan sekarang... goyang kaki sentiasa..

hahaha

tapi bila dah beberapa bulan tak buat apa, kaki pun dah penat goyang, mula la nak cari sumber tambah duit...  

yang penting, dengan syarat, i have to work without leaving my house... 

acaner tu???

setelah difikir-fikir, baru tringat, ''eh, i got a nuffnang account laaaaa~''

yang 'laaaaa' part tu sumpah panjang... 

like seriously, bertahun berkurun dah ada acc, tak pernah teringat...

entah berhabuk bersawang ke apa tah...

makanya, terkial-kial la gi bukak...

punya lama tak bukak sampai password pun tak ingat.. hah, hambek kau..

dah buka, godek merata-rata, update apa yang patut...

then...tiba2 cuba try usha tracker..

eh?? 

biasa dari chrome je.. entah knapa ada dari link lain...

faham tak??

maksudnya, ada orang baca my post that being posted in other blog...

senang cakap, my post dicopy and pastekan link nya di blog orang laen.

HAH!!!!

what the.. memang panas...

maka nya, mula la sesi spy... cari sampai lubang cacing...

bila dah jumpa, hasil nya.......

the blog share a post of mine... Asasi Undang-Undang KPTM

Wa terharu doh... sumpah terharu.. tangkap lentok ar wa cakap sama lu..

menitik wa depan lappy.. rasa marah tadi hilang camtu je...

why?

i found this...

berulang-ulang saya baca...

 i don't know why, makin banyak kali baca, makin terharu...

I don't know who is the owner of the blog..

I don't know who is Anis Najwa obviously...

and i really don't know the real motive of sharing my post...

whether it's " don't be like this girl" or " take her words as an advice", i don't know..

but whatever it is, ianya buat hati saya terharu.. luahan hati kecil yang tak seberapa ini, yang nawaitunya, ingin membantu junior2 yang saya kenali, entah mcm mana, beri sdkt erti kpda org luar...

terharu...

dah habis terharu bagai tu, mula siasat pulak, who is the owner of the blog...

and the search brought me to amazement..

If i'm not mistaken la...

If tak salah orang, tak pelanduk dua serupa..

Empunya blog is Ustazah Sakinah Salleh, a writer of few books by PTS, a successful woman..

MasyaAllah... lost my words..

Whatever it is, tq madam.. 

i'm not sure what is my post mean to u but surely, i wish it'll be in a good way...

Tujuan saya tulis bukan untuk kata blog saya dibaca oleh orang luar, bukan..

yang saya cuba sampaikan ialah, whatever about us, may bring some meanings to others..

whether it's the bad side or the good side, it'll help people..

As long as u appreciate yourself, appreciate your memories, appreciate you experiences...

and last but not least, sentiasa bersangka baik...thats all..

Your stories may be a hope to someone else..

Your stories may be an advice to someone else...

Your stories may be a guide to someone else...

Your stories might change someone's life...

Live your life guys...

Laugh out loud...

P/s: Sorry... memang saja buat tema post ni tema panda sempena tibanya panda ke Malaysia.. hehehe

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SyeraZehar