Assalamualaikum wbt and hello ^^
I've spent my day today reading all my posts back.. yup, all..
what i can say is that i've changed.
when i compare my first 20 posts with my previous 20 posts, they're totally different.
Things did happened in this few months and my life did changed a lot.
But, what shocked me the most is that the 'positive-minded' syera has gone.
Like seriously,i'm being too negative nowadays.
I forgot to enjoy myself, enjoy throughout the day and cherish every moment i have.
I'm worried about everything.
What if they hate me?
What if i'll make them mad?
What if they don't want me anymore?
What if they don't like me because i'm not beautiful?
What if they'll leave me soon?
And the 'what-if-list' goes on..
Today, i realized that instead of worrying people will leave, i need to cherish their existence. All memories and dreams and hopes that we share, enjoy those things and stay happy.
Things will get tough occasionally, but i just need to be tougher.
I'll be 20 in few months. One of my bestfriends is getting married.
And here I am still struggling with 'trust-issue'.
By turning 20, what important the most is the future.
I'll be just fine.
We'll be just fine.
InsyaAllah,I know and i believe that my hopes and dreams will come true eventually.
Can't wait for that time..
Till then,
STAY.
Hey there,
We've been through a lot.
Sedar tak sedar, we're these far right now, way ahead from the first baby step we took before.
Stay still and be strong.
Few years more and we will be we forever.
Lets achieve our ambitions first ^^
If I let them know our memories, damn they'll be shipping and make us as their life goals..
Gittteewww... Kemain..lulls.
But seriously, dear u know who u are,
thank you for coming into my life.
thank you for coming back into my life.
thank your for staying in my future.
Thanks.
To my readers, sorry that my post this time turned up to be a lovey dovey thingy.
But hey, logically, i'm a GIRL that will turn 20 .
That, shall explain everything.
P/S:Remember years ago, when i got a hug from your mom for the very first time? It was so warm and comfortable that in my heart, i know i want it again and again in the future ^^
Luahan hati,
Ira
