My type of guy

Assalamualaikum... Hai ^^

No, final exam tak habis lagi..

 Tengah take 5 from reading, and saja nak tulis something.

Erm, for the past few days, people around me asked on what kind of guy I'm looking for.. Until last night, one of my high school junior contacted me to share her problem with me. She's too worried that now she's 18 and still no boyfriend yet. Don't worry dear, I'll not reveal your name, unless, I found the right one for u.. lol, kidding.

Anyway, she said it is hard to find someone yang menepati citarasa dia. Hahaha.. She has this one list on what kind of guy she wants to date. 

Well, it's not an embarrassing thing. I used to have my own list too.

Seriously, i used to have this one list on what kind of guy that I'm looking for. Can't remember tho. But, if I'm not mistaken, I used to dream on dating a tall guy with wide shoulders, with great career and verrryyyy romantic. 

Banyak lagi yang i listed out, but can't remember somehow.

Then, I'm introduced to kpop world.. 

Oh.My.God. lagi la my list on perfect boyfriend material bertambah. Lagi2 waktu tu tengah musim Boys Over Flower, omg, Tuhan je tau how complicated nak pilih between Lee Min Ho, dengan Kim Hyun Joong dengan Kibum tu. Berhari-hari fikir...hahahaha.. Then, lagi exposed to kpop world, lagi merepek list tu jadi. And even now, kpop dramas really really influenced girls' imagination.

Including me... ^^

Introducingggg... 

my current crush *blushed* ok, dulu Taeyang, sekarang dah tukar jadi Jota..hehehe.. Nak tau sebab apa crush sangat, ermm check kat youtube pls. Cair wehhhh..hahaha

Ok, back to the main point, after all these crushes and what so not, I can promise you, all these are not realistic at all. Seriously.

Erm, adik2, ni akak nak cakap sikit, from pengalaman akak sendiri, semua list2 ni so merepek. Korang tak boleh list 10 ciri-ciri lelaki idaman, and reject one guy sebab dia ada 8,9 je dari ciri2 yang korang list tu. That's absolutely nonsense. Maybe, just maybe, it's ok to have your own list, but then, make it a realistic one. Contohnya, a guy who can accept your flaws and your past. Kau ingat kau sorang je ada list, laki tu takde list. I've been there before, trying to find the best guy. But obviously, with this face, memang tak la jawab dia.

Anyway, satu lagi nasihat, you're just 18 dear. Sangat2 muda. I'm 21 anyway, and I believe I'm still young too.. hahaha. My point is, jangan risau, u're just 18, baru start matrik. Belum start zaman uni pun lagi. Kau tak tau macam-macam jenis laki lagi kau akan jumpa. And, when I'm 18, i did a mistake, so I hope u'll not do the same thing. I know you're worried enough knowing that your friend is getting married. My bestfriend pun kawen gak dik, kita chill je.

Personally, this is my advice. You're young, kind and beautiful. I know, one day, u'll be the one who'll have hard time to choose which one to be with. As for right now, focus on your study, enter good university, and let the right guy come at the right time. I believe that great guy deserve a great lady. Not a girl, but a lady. Not just a lady, but a great lady. So, do your best to improve yourself. Set your own goals, and try to achieve them. Erm, one more thing, maybe I'm not the best person to give such words, but cuba dekatkan diri dengan Tuhan. Everything will change if you do that.

I've been through a lot. Maybe ada lagi orang yang dah lalui pengalaman lagi teruk, but after whatever that happened before, rather than having a relationship yang boleh buat kawan2 jealous, what I want most is assurance. I want to live my life knowing that I can complete my degree, do whatever I want to do and achieve what i've been dreaming about, and at the end of the day, he'll be there, waiting for me. Bunyi macam makcik-makcik kan, but after going through that much, i just don't want to cry anymore. Thats all.

So, berbalik kepada issue list ciri-ciri lelaki idaman ni, maybe it's okay to have one, if kalau betul la dapat, omg, u're so lucky. Hahahaha. But whoever you end up with, remember that he deserve to be happy as much as u are. 

Soooooo.... for now, jom ubah diri sendiri dulu k. Akak tak pernah baik dengan Tuhan sebelum ni, but then, I believe that whatever happened before, there's always a chance to just go back to Him. Erm, maybe, mana tau, Dia tengah plan surprise for you. Kot la Dia jumpakan anda dengan jodoh anda waktu tengah selak2 buku dekat library uni or mungkin waktu jalan2 nak gi kelas, tiba2 je ada orang terlanggar buku jatuh bersepah.. Haaaaa, who knows. HE wrote your own love story already. You'll meet the right one soon. Just doa yang Dia akan temu kan korang sooner. hahaha. Till then, chill ok. enjoy your life first. 

And, to answer your question again on my type of guy... 

Well, i wish i'll end up with a guy yang siang pakai suit, malam pakai baju melayu kain pelikat.

Hahahaha... well, nama pun my dream kan. At least i want a guy who appreciate me as a blessing.

Thats all.

So, kena sambung study balik. Still have two more papers before raya.

Someone who is trying to be a great lady,

Kak Syera ^^

Geneva - Evian - Paris - Geneva : Part 2

Assalamualaikum and hye guys ^^

So, sambung cerita dari Part 1 landed dekat Dubai airport pepagi buta, and tersangatlah jakun.. like seriously, how on earth nak survive sini sorang2 for few hours. Owh, by the way, before this whole journey, i did a very deep research on everything for almost a month. Dan seriously, berbaloi buat research ni sebab kau akan dapat tau benda yang orang lain tak tau. For example, I'm not sure with other flights but kalau naik Emirates, and transit dekat Dubai more than 3 @ 4 hours kot, korang akan dapat food voucher waktu korang nak naik flight dekat KLIA tu. Rupa voucher tu lebih kurang tiket flight, so jangan hilangkan. And atas food voucher tu pun ada list restaurants or cafes yang boleh guna food voucher ni. So, pandai2 la korang pilih. Kalau transit lagi lama, boleh dapat lebih kot. 

Satu lagi, Dubai Airport is tooooo big. Korang keluar je dari flight akan ada dua gate, satu yang nak keluar, satu untuk transit. And tempat transit di soooo besar. Ada 3 terminals, each terminal sangatlah besar. So, kalau turun flight dekat terminal 1 and your next flight dekat terminal 3, please pandai2 urus masa. Sangat jauh k, tu tak termasuk korang sesat2 lagi. Macam aku hari tu, sebab transit more than 4 hours, first thing aku buat, pegi check departure gate untuk next flight. Tengok jauh ke tak. At least kau dapat bajet brapa lama ambik masa nak ke gate tu. Dah settle tengok gate, baru aku pi cari tempat makanan guna voucher tu.

Ni example meal voucher. So ada banyak kan tempat korang boleh pilih. Tapi, macam yang aku terang tadi, Dubai airport ada 3 terminals. Ada terminal A, B and C. kalau nampak dalam tiket meal voucher tu pun dia dah tulis siap2 kedai tu dekat terminal mana. Here's the trick, kalau flight korang lambat lagi, boleh lah pilih tempat makan jauh sikit. Sebab tu waktu aku sampai tadi, aku terus tengok gate departure untuk next flight, so boleh agak jauh mana nak pi gate tu. 

Disebabkan aku ada few hours lagi before flight, and ada satu je voucher, kalau aku masuk any cafe or takat McD macam tak berbaloi sebab nak lepak lama. So, thanks to research yang buat awal2 before pegi, aku tau pasal tempat buffet, nama dia The Mezzanine, tapi dekat terminal A. Gate aku nak berlepas dekat Gate C, bapak jauh. Tapi berbaloi sebab kau boleh stay lama2, makan la apa korang nak, and paling best tempat dia tersorok sikit, so tak ramai orang tau. Masa aku pi pun, memang x de orang sangat. So selesa gila.

See, tak de orang pun kan.. sebab tempat dia memang tersorok. Kalau tak silap aku, korang cari tempat duty free yang area perfume, then ada satu lift macam tersorok sikit, korang naik tingkat dua, lepas tu lift tu bukak je, nampak restaurant macam fancy sikit kan, don't worry, tunjuk je voucher. Dia punya waiters memang friendly gila. Nampak aku ala2 maid pun, diorang layan baik sangat. Siap tanya lagi aku nak apa2 dulu tak sementara diorang set up tempat buffet tu. Plus, tempat buffet tu sediakan makanan international, so ada american breakfast, french breakfast, indian food, chinese food, Malaysia food pun ada.

 Lol, aku tengok nasi goreng and mee goreng terus  x de selera. lol, jauh2 terbang sampai dubai, dan kau masihlah nak cari mee goreng. Maka, syera pun makan lah french breakfast, ambik mood nak pegi France.. gituuuu. hahaha. Tapi serious, tempat dia selesa, ada meja sebelah aku ada family caucasian 4 orang, diorang ajak aku makan skali sebab nampak aku sorang2 kan.. tapi sebab aku nak blah naik flight dah, aku tolak baik2. Yang penting, korang kena cari tempat ni elok2. Kalau tak jumpa, sampai area perfume tu, cari info centre, mmg banyak kaunter pertanyaan kat situ, then tanya je restaurant tu kat mana, nanti dia tunjuk ada lift kat corner tu. Satu lagi tips, sampai je kat airport tu, ambik siap2 maps dia, ada 3 untuk stiap terminal. Memang dia punya signboard banyak, but at least, korang ada rough idea korang kat mana and where u want to go. Maybe aku ni jenis perempuan adventurous sikit, bukan la jenis tak takut langsung, of course aku takut, beg memang aku pegang elok2, cuma aku jenis main redah and try my best first untuk cari tempat tu, kalau tak boleh langsung baru aku tanya orang. But if korang jenis tak berani and tak tau nak agak masa nak masuk flight, aku recommend korang stay je kat terminal korang, and cari tempat makan terdekat, elak dari sesat okay. 

Satu lagi, Dubai Airport sangat cantik, sangat selesa. Tempat duduk ada merata-rata, siap boleh baring2 lagi, toilet and surau pun banyak, sangat selesa. Coffee machine pun ada. Ok, settle bab Dubai, then, naik flight ke Geneva. So, here's the thing, waktu tunggu gate bukak, tempat tunggu tu dipenuhi orang2 bermata biru dan rambut blonde sahaja. I'm the only one with different skin tone and wearing head scarf. Plus, orang keliling pakai baju ala-ala corporate, and here I am like a walking potato. Lupa langsung yang aku nak ke Geneva, tempat all kind of elite people. So, orang pandang aku atas bawah atas bawah je. Maybe takut aku terrorist ke apa. But ada gak few of them yang so sweet, tanya aku nak ke mana, tolong tengok kan ticket and impressed that I'm joining a competition. And luckily enough ada sorang FA dia is a Muslim man, so he took extra care towards me la kot. Hahaha...

Waktu dalam flight, semua usha aku pelik, even all anak Mat salleh yang lalu, akan berenti dekat my seat and just merenung macam nampak alien. Lol, aku just senyum, at least those kids senyum back at me. But their parents, pull their hands away from my seat like as if i'm a dangerous animal. Even waktu aku makan chocolate, there's this one very cute lil boy stop at my seat, i offered him a chocolate, out of no where his parents shouted at that lil boy, asking him to toss away the choc. As if I'm giving that precious lil boy a poisonous thing. Terasa sungguh aku, but then, i just smile. Aku buka pembalut coklat, terus masuk that chocolate into my mouth and said 'it's just a chocolate' and i smiled. The FA came to me and say sorry. It's not even her fault. And that kind of situation occurred few time during the whole journey. But thank god, makanan emirates sedap, and banyak movie best, so aku pekakkan telinga and just enjoy the rest of the flight.

Dulang-dulang lah aku makan... hahahaha

Dah sampai dekat Geneva, turun je flight, kemain sejuk dia.. orang lain punya la berjaket-jaket lah.. Yang aku, acah2 macam dari kutub, kulit tebal x rasa apa. Benda menggeletar kemain. Lalu immigration dia, nasib dari Malaysia, dia nampak je Passport Malaysia, terus dia lepaskan tak tanya apa pun. Aku plak yang terpinga-pinga sebab orang depan aku tadi dari flight lain, ala2 orang arab camtu, kemain dia tanya macam-macam. Yang aku, dia cop je, siap senyum lagi, dia kata 'Bonjour, (ok, my first bonjour ever), so aku pun 'bonjour'kan balik.. hahaha.

Then, ni satu lagi tips, dekat geneva, sampai je airport, korang boleh nampak ada machine yang bagi korang transportation pass, boleh naik any public transportation for free for 40 mins if i'm not mistaken. So, sempatlah nak guna pegi hotel naik bas and tram dia. 

kalau agak2 lapar, korang boleh je beli roti2 dulu dalam airport tu. ada je. Then naik bas dia, kalau bawak luggage bapak besar macam aku, hati2 sikit sebab tinggi sikit bas dia. Then kitorang naik bas and tram and bas, tak sure brapa kali tukar bas, then sampai lah area hostel kitorang stay untuk 1 malam, before esoknya btolak ke Evian. 

Ni hah tempat kitorang stay, Geneva Hostel. Tempat dia so aman damai. Memang selamat sebab bertentangan dengan hostel ni ada balai polis kecik kalau tak silap. Banyak student yang stay kat sini sebab trip. And if you are travelling alone, or with your friends, especially yang perempuan, tempat dia selamat wei. Nak masuk bilik guna korang punya individual key card, nak bukak locker pun sama, nak buka pintu toilet pun sama. So, dari segi safety, memang selamat. Toilet and bedroom pun bersih. Kitorang sampai macam tengahhari camtu, kitorang rehat jap, then baru ronda-ronda tengok luar and cari dinner. Satu lagi, fyi, dekat geneva ni, kalau korang stay satu malam, korang akan dapat transportation pass for 24 hours for free.. so kalau sesat ke apa, no problem sebab korang boleh naik any bus or tram sepanjang hari sampai korang jumpa asal usul korang k.

Petang tu, gigih je kitorang jalan-jalan cari taman, lalu tasik geneva semua.. Geneva ni so aman damai. Dia tak bising-bising macam KL ke apa. Even Bangi lagi bising kot. Then kat sini kau rasa macam masa blalu so slow, relax je. Sebab tu aku suka gila Geneva. But untuk orang yang suka bising-bising, korang so akan rimas duduk kat Geneva ni.

Then, kitorang try cari dinner. Pegi dekat are Gare Cornavin, dia punya Stesyen KeretaApi yang Main, macam tengah-tengah Geneva tu, area tu macam meriah sikit, banyak kedai makanan Arab, kitorang pun masuk je kedai mana kitorang jumpa. This one kedai, dekat2 starbucks kalau tak silap, ramai gak customer dia. Sebelah meja kitorang ada budak2 Indonesia, maybe anak2 duta kot. Satu je aku nak ingatkan, kat geneva ni, makanan arab dia portion so besar, boleh kongsi dua orang kalau perempuan. kalau makan sorang2, nasi boleh habis, but ayam dia bagi bapak banyak, boleh bungkus ok. And waktu aku dekat Geneva, Evian dengan Paris, aku tak tau kenapa aku kemaruk sangat minum epal juice. So, satu kemestian untuk syera cari 'pomme juice'. Before kitorang balik hostel, sempat singgah starbucks untuk study sat. Waktu tu la aku baru perasan yang orang-orang Geneva ni semuanya perform. Lagi2 yang lelaki. Semua handsome2 wei. Even yang barista Starbucks dengan yang sapu sampah tepi jalan pun handsome. Hahaha... anyway, thats all for now, sambung Part 3 kemudian. 

The one who miss Geneva most,

Syera.

Life Update - June 2016

Assalamualaikum... hello ^^

Sebenarnya, niat hati nak tulis pasal Geneva, walaupun dah berkurun balik Malaysia, pegi sana pun sekejap sangat, tapi masihlah, nak tulis before terlupa.. But then, rasa nak tulis something more important now, then baru sambung cerita Geneva.

Just a short life update, pengajaran hidup, perubahan dalam hidup, dari bulan satu, and now dah masuk June. At least, nanti agak-agak dah putus harapan, boleh patah balik tengok belakang, and see how far diri sendiri dah pegi, and how strong i can be.

January, bulan yang sangat tough for me, as a girl, as a lover. Somehow, people just leave whenever they want to. But the one who's left behind, helplessly, grasping the new reality. Affected badly. Traumatic. Blaming myself for an unknown reason. I kept saying, 'he left me because of myself. Maybe, I'm not good enough, or not pretty, or not as cool as other girls, or..' and the list goes on. But then, slowly, i started to appreciate myself more. I learnt that, God planned everything perfectly that at one point, I let him go from my life voluntarily. But, another problem muncul. I started to build up barrier to that particular gender. Tapi nak kata tolak terus pun tak gak. Friends still ok je. But more than that, jujur aku takut. I'm hurt enough. Almost nak cakap yang guys sucks, but then teringat how cool my ayah is, so nevermind. lol.

But seriously, even though I can say that I'm fully in 'move on' mode, but I can't stop wondering on how far can a guy breaks a girl heart? Like seriously, how can a guy be that bad.. But of course, aku yakin aku banyak belajar dari whatever happened. Aku tau yang bila aku berubah, aku tak pandang belakang dah.

Next, tentang my achievement this year. Ramai tanya, how to have the same experience, or ada jugak yang kata, untungla dapat pegi merata. Again, just like what i explained before, I'm not a smart student, I'm not a good debater or mooter, I'm not a fluent English speaker, like seriously, faaaaaaaarrrrr from that, and my parents bukan orang kaya. Biasa2 je. But then, I learnt that, sometimes, Tuhan campak peluang depan mata, selebihnya terpulang dekat kau nak grab ke tak, nak usaha ke tak. Aku berani kerat jari takde sapa nak bagi kau bejalan free camtu je. Nobody. But, kalau kau pandai cari ruang, peluang, rajin sikit isi essay2 tu, you can experience more than what i did. Percaya cakap aku, bila orang offer or bila kau nampak peluang, just grab it. Jangan fikir, 'taknaklah, english aku teruk, segan je nak pegi' or 'ehhh, malaslah nak tulis essay sampai 500words, bukannya diorang pilih aku pun nanti' or yang lagi teruk 'ermmm, takpelah, aku kan orang Melayu, pergi join pun buat malu je'.

Kalau kau buat perangai macam tu, aku berani janji, kau duduk je la kat mana kau ada sekarang. You'll never grow, you'll never jejak tanah orang, you'll never experience what others did, because, kau sendiri yang tolak rezeki.

This semester, i really learnt a lot about my own family. At one point before, I'm in a situation where i hate to go home, I hate to see my sibs and parents, but i'm really glad that those phase dah habis. Like seriously, things are too tough this semester, but family always the best place to go back to. I'm blessed enough with the best parents in the whole wide world. Yang bakal jadi menantu mama ayah nanti, percaya lah, anda insan paling bertuah di muka bumi ini. hahaha. sumpah, i don't know why did God gave me such amazing parents. Believe me, when u think you're done with your life, or you're feeling too lonely, or you think you don't have anyone anymore, believe me, go back to your parents, call them, balik rumah. They'll cure everything.

This particular matter, I learnt a whole lot. Seriously. I think i don't need to write it here sebab i don't think I'll ever forget about it.

Just, for future syera, remember one thing, you should be proud with yourself. You learnt how to not cepat melatah, you learnt to appreciate yourself, you learnt that it's okay to drive while crying badly, you learnt that in the end, it's okay if you're alone. Jangan pernah lupa how strong you can be, how rational you can be. Be proud with yourself dear.

These days, I think God love me a lil bit more than usual. Hahaha. Nak kata everything jadi senang pun tak. But, how to say this, erm, every single masalah yang berlaku, in the end, opened my eyes. I learnt that, bila kau usaha, kau akan dapat hasil yang setimpal. I learnt how strong I can be. And I also realized how traumatized I am disebabkan apa yang berlaku before. I don't know how i can end up being this scared. But sumpah aku takut. U guys will see me in confused mode these days. I'm not sure what to do now. I don't even understand what's happening. But i learnt that i need to thank to a certain person that give me hope to be a better person. I bet you don't even know what u did to me, but seriously, thank you. I'll try to be a better person. Satu je pesanan aku, don't play with others' hopes. I learnt enough before, and surely I can't afford to go trough those feelings again.

Dah, settle bab royanan. Dah boleh sambung buat assignments dengan tenang. Goodnight guys.

P/S: That one particular moment today, serious macam drama korea wei. hahahahaha. I'll say 'hi' to u soon. 

Someone who's confused with her own feelings,

Syera.

If you think you're the one, so, 'Hi'. You have no idea at all how much i want to say that word.

Plus, 'Thank you', simply because you deserve one ^^