Take Note #1

Hai..

When i start without a salam, there's always something wrong.. 

yup, something is not right...

i think bout this over and over before i decided to write this down.. 

i'm not complaining, i'm not trying to relate this to anyone or trying to degrade or humiliate someone.. so please, no offence..

erm, first, lets make this clear..

salah and silap is so different..

personal and professional should not mix up..

feelings and fate can't be denied..

don't worry.. this post is not one of those my lovey dovey journey..

something serious is happening.. and i don't like it..

once, in my highschool years, i'm not one of the friendly friend or student or senior or anything that goes the same..

aku tau aku jenis cepat melenting..

 tak kira kawan or tak kawan, junior tak junior, senior tak senior...

when i said it's wrong, no one can denied..

but hell you know, i'm not evil..

i'm not that cruel to ruin your life..

just, put yourself in my position just for a while..

you'll understand my action..

gila kuasa takde dalam list..

jalankan tanggungjawab is my priority..

the way i handle it may hurt people, but trust me, if i don't do it, how to complete it..

aku tau aku tak rapat ngan orang, but hell you know i have feelings too..

sapa kata aku tak sayang kawan or tak sayang junior wei..

budak batch aku.. even aku penah marah korang pun, kalau korang jatuh telentang patah riuk pun, aku tak tinggal camtu je...

kalau aku nampak apa korang buat sebelum2 ni pun, aku tutup mata jugak..

penah tau ke ada 'kawan' korang yang celik...

untuk junior aku... sesombong-sombong aku, semasam mana muka aku pun sebelum ni... aku sayang korang kot...

seteruk-teruk aku marah, tampar, sepak korang pun before ni, fikir balik..

aku marah tanpa sebab ke apa..

takde la aku hitler sangat sampai nak hukum korang tanpa sebab kan..

teruk2 mana korang kena sampuk hantu pun, aku tak lari kot..

sesusah mana pun korang nak sembang ngan aku sebelum ni, kalau korang mintak tolong ngan aku, aku tolong jugak kan... 

tak kira ar aku korbankan masa ke, tenaga ke, duit ke apa, pernah ke aku mintak balas balik.. takkan..

aku bukan ungkit.. aku bukan masuk bakul angkat sendiri..

cuma fikir sekali..

kalau aku cuba berbaik..

kalau aku panggil kau adik..

kalau aku tak pandang jelik..

kalau aku boleh respect..

susah sangat ke nak treat aku as someone u know at least..

aku tak mintak banyak pun dari korang..

just treat me as u want yourself to be treated..

i don't mix my personal life in between, so u too..

don't..

believe me, i don't take advantage on people..

 i don't start a communication for a drama or a cliche or a melancholic..

trust me, that is me, the one u'd never knew before..

ask my friends, ask any of those SAWAN, any of my Shah Alam friends, any of my debate team, i've never once take advantage on people, tak pernah dalam hidup aku nak menjatuhkan orang...

i'm frustrated..i'm mad.. i'm upset..

just think..

jahat tak bermaksud jahat selamanya..

jahat tak bermaksud kejam..

things happen for reasons..

think wisely, and u'll understand..

guys, sorry for my language today..

don't use it in any of your essays or during MUET test k..

Teacher Leez and Cikgu Rodzlina, maaf bahasa yang ku guna tercemar..

live your life guys..

p/s : if u heard bout me from anyone of any stories or 'rumors' should be, just try to think for few times.. am i that bad??

XOXO,

uknoWho