When things meant to be..

Hi...

sometimes, things are meant to be that way..

whether they're bad, whether they're good..

They're meant to be that way..

so, no matter how loud u laugh, how hard u cry, how wide your smile, how deep u regret,

as they're meant to be that way, there'll be no way to change it..

as a normal human, i'm hurt...

people see me as a strong person..

i am..

but somehow, when it's hurting too much, u just wish that it's just a bad dream, and pray the best to wake up.

being hurt is not an option...

but u always have the option whether to hurt people or not..

so, referring to the case of Me v That Person [2014], involving the Law of Feeling, it meant to be that way..

There're lot of damages..

There is defence that can be use, but not even partial..

erm, obviously, violating the Principle of Natural Justice...

*sorry for explaining the case in law mode.. 

so, yeah... people make mistakes.. and as the person that have the cause of action, i don't ask for any damage..

i still got monsters under my bed, but yours, i don't think so...

so yeah, beside all this sadness, many things happen.. the good things..

 and i think, it's meant to be tht way.

i made a decision before..

i'll be going..

and surprisingly, a lot earlier than i thought..

where i'l be going? 

when am i going?

why am i going?

let it be a secret for this moment..

there's no point to share it now..

bukan ada nak hantar ke, menyambut ke, melawat pun kan..

so yeah... until that day, that time, that moment, let just God know it..

HE know better than anyone..

am i running away from problems?

at this moment, honestly, yup.. i am running.. for a while..

but then, i'm going for good reasons too..

trying to reach the best future..

just pray the best for me.. for my future..

May Allah ease all the process..

owh, people kept asking whether i regret whatever just happened..

i'll never regret..

but yeah, frustration always there..

there's nothing to regret for..

it's part of my life.. part of the memories..

it just happened to be like that...

and people yang keep asking me whether i'm ok or not..

don't worry eh, i'll always be a strong person..

or at least i'll try to be one.

sorry buat siapa yang tidak faham..

it just something that i need to write down, to let me feel a lil bit better..

and dear mama and ayah, 

thank u for being the best parent ever...

even though i never share these kind of things with u guys,

but still, u're trying to make me laugh..

for this moment, i still cant.. but one day, i will.. again..

don't worry if i always not feeling well...

don't worry if i'm not in the mood..

don't worry if i'm getting 'cengkung'..

don't worry if i sound so weird..

your lil girl here, is starting to be a lady..

thank u..

and last but not least, Aina Asyran, thank u so much.. for everything..

things are getting harder for me.. don't worry, i'll be just fine..

i'm surviving..

i'm not sure whether u'll miss me or not afterward (hehehe...)

 but surely i'll miss u a lot girl.. 

we're getting into so much distance..

u'll be a lady when i meet u afterward..

whatever it is, aku sayang ang wei.. 

so guys, just live your life..

life did get so hard sometimes, but it is life after all kan..

hold on a bit.. u'll be just fine..

think positive..

and yup, best of luck..

XOXO,

uknoWho

The Beginning...

Assalamualaikum wbt...

this should not be a sad post tho..

hehehe~ it's supposed to be inspiring...

so, here it goes..

yup, something did happen..

and my life went crazy for a while..

tunggang terbalik kejap..

but after a while, i realized, i can't do anything if i'm behaving like this..

so, i make a decision..

and i'm proud i took that decision.

i'm not regretting..

i'll never regret...

tak de sebab nak regret dengan benda yang buat diri jadi lebih baik kan..

i believe that time will heal everything.. insyaAllah..

let me improve myself first..

let me be a better person first..

let me get some achievements first..

i'm not sad..

i'm happy..

this is the time to take a look at what happen back then, and simply do a better one in the future.

Life goes on..nothing will ever change.. that's what i can promise u

so yeah, i'll be just fine here...

i'll be a successful lawyer

 ( insyaAllah since my MUET result is more than i expected..hehehe)

we'll see how our future look like..

remember this..

whatever problems happen in your life, face it with courage...

when u feel u're stuck in your life, go back to your family, 

they're the best to be with

when u feel sick, be strong, u'll be just fine..

if u feel, u're alone, don't worry, there'll be always someone for u..

if u feel so down, don't worry, u have your mummy and ayah..

they know what to do..

when u think your mummy don't love u, jangan nak merepek.. 

she loves u more than anything...

when u feel so tired, just take a rest, nothing to loose..

when u feel your life is lifeless, don't worry..

 God put it in that way for a reason..

and the most important is, when u're driving, please be careful.. 

anda tak kawen pun lagi.. taknak kahwen kah.. hehehe~

Don't worry, i'm a strong girl..u led me to be one.. i'll be just fine..

 don't worry.. this is not the end.. this is the beginning 

be strong, be brave, happy always..

good luck young man.

good luck to both of us.

XOXO,

Ira

In The Midst of Hardship

Assalamualaikum.. hye guys..

Sorry.. i'm supposed to post bout my last vacation kan.. but i'm so busy..

 life have been so complex and so hard these days.. 

so.. i don't even have time to write some..

i'm so sorry..

this sem really bad.. like terribly bad.. start dengan demam teruk.. 

fever for days..assignment bertimbun-timbun and so many more problems..

i almost lost my grip..

i almost quit all this crap..

everything sangat sangat susah..

and being sakit make it even worst..

and both of us really busy, didn't have opportunity to meet each other pun..

and this make it even harder..

i tried to be strong..

but somehow, being weak is not an option..

i don't get enough sleep..

i loss my appetite...

i can't even think properly..

dizzy for no reason..

can't stand the cold..

one of my hardest weeks..

i cried everyday..

i sighed everyday..

i slept 2,3 hours per day..

i'm totally tired..

mentally

physically..

but...

Thank You Allah swt..

for the give..

the best parent in the world.. (tq ayah and mama)

the best friend i could ever get..( tq asyran, my girls from last sem and ji)

the best someone i could ever imagine..(him)

thank u guys for your supports..

for your dua'

thank u.. 

i believe that the best solution is by believing yourself...

u can do it..

i'm being a strong girl right now.. i'm proud of myself...

and anda,

thank u for your comforting words,

for your encouraging word,

for believing in me..

thank u for being there..

thank u for being my someone..

Missing me missing u,

Ira

My-late-NewYear-Resolution

Assalamualaikum wbt and yeah, Happy NewYear guys!!

Wow! 2014 already... cepatnya 2013 habis... 

The last time i'm in here was weeks away... Knapa dah lama menghilang..

I have my own reason, but i overcome it...

so yeah, sorry for my late-belated wish.. 

but still, it's only the beginning of 2014..

and back to the topic, my resolution..

erm, nothing in specific, but surely, i want to be a better me..

every year, the resolution still the same.. nothing really change.. 

tapi rasanya, years ahead, it'll change a bit... a bit..

 maybe, "must get married this year".. hahaha kidding~

hehehe... berangan sat...

OK, i want to be a better person, a better child, a better sister, a better someone's someone, a better friend, a better senior, a better junior, a better nemesis... frankly speaking, i just want to be a better me..

hopefully, people around will help me to be a better one...

owh, few days before, i saw a statement from my senior on how shock she is because she's turning 20.. and i just laughed... 

but, ooo~ if she's 20, that's mean i'm turning 19.. OMG.. i'm that old now!!

God, rasa macam baru je lagi i told my mama that she should not ask me to do all the dishes or lipat kain bagai because i'm only 9.. 

like seriously, 9 y.o girl should enjoy main masak2 or race basikal in my case...

wake up syera, tu cerita 10 tahun lepas...

perghh... slap to my face... 

so, yeah, bak kata mama, tak berapa lama lagi lu akan wa kawen kan..

bawak2 sedar diri, lu nak kena maki ngan mak mentua ke apa..

nanti lu kawen, wa tanak ambik tau dah... lu hidup la dengan laki lu...

* ok kidding, my mama don't talk like that.. but intisari nye still lebih kurang..

so, please people, guide me to be a better one.. 

thats all... happy new year, enjoy your 2014.. enjoy it to the max..

live your life guys...

p/s : i'm suppose to share my last year family trip.. tapi tak dapat ilham lagi..

so, insyaAllah, afterward, i'll post some of it k..

XOXO,

uknoWho

The Two-colour Trip

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye guys...

Once, i am a young dreamer... and i'm still..

 but somehow, a dream of mine come true... 

i dream for it too much and like in Disney world, dream do come true...

Years back, a court meant so much to me that it looks like a princess's dream palace.. i'd never imagine that one day, i'll be there...
 in the sense of good way la..takkan la ikot the bad way kan...

And thank to Allah for bringing me to this path, in this Asasi world...

i'm not sure if i'll be able to continue in this law field in the future, but being able to be there, even for once, it's more than enough for me..

Kompleks Mahkamah, Jalan Duta... 

Actually, cerita ni dah lama... nearly a week ago.. 

but hey, it's still one of the best experience ok..

so yeah, to keep it simple, i'll just put pics while we're there..

Enjoy~

LWA02G...huuuuuu~

with my sabahan and sarawakian girls...

lawyers-to-be... insyaAllah

in one of the courts...

and, few of my friends really did amazing job in producing a really nice pic candidly... candid kah?? hehehe... 

The next Mock Trial kononnya... hehehe.. insyaAllah...

basically, a very very nice trip.. i'm so amazed with the condition there... 

like, everyone seem to be very charismatic...

 young or old, they seem so professional and all of us looked so kiddies...

I usha all of them... like every single person that walked by...

 the way they dressed, the way they walk, the way they talk, the way they gazed... seriously, dropdead..

All the formalities really really amazing... 

why am i so passion with debate all this while... 

the formality..the thing i love the most...

they look amazingly cool...

And, luckily, i got to see some cases.. judgement and stuffs... 

the coolness of the lawyers and judges are way too attracting...

 even some of them are young but still, the coolness are there..

after a long walk, its time to go back to shah alam.. and guess what, after just 5 mins, everyone when for a dream... hahaha...

even Arab the class rep pun hanyut...

and At the most popular sleeping beauty pun tak dapat di cover lagi... huhuhu

somehow, i really really want to be like that someday in the future... 

giving inspiration to other kid to face the future and give sort of help to the society in their own way...

pray for me =)

and last but not least, safely arrived UiTM Shah Alam... 

infront of DATC... nice journey kawans.. May luck be with all of us... 

see u guys again in court, future lawyers, judges, practitioners, public prosecutors and fellow law-liners...

what cases did i heard on that day?

A rob case, few drug cases and a murder case... 

Was it fun?

Some of them not that fun, but mostly, yeah... so much fun..

Did i enjoy the trip?

yes, i really really enjoy it.

Why do u choose to study law?

There's so much reasons why i'm choosing this field.. 

First, like i said earlier, the formalities.. i just love things that look so damn 'smart' and 'cool' and i find that all those things are fun too..

Second, i want to break the legacy of the education-based people in my family.. like the first lawyer.. sounds quite good isn't it? hehehe

Third, i just want to make my parent proud..

4th, this is the way to bring up my family to a higher level.. i don't want my family and i being in a wrong place in a certain situation.. its hard to explain here.. nak faham lebih lanjut, silalah hubungi saya...

tujela kot... i'm happy to be an Asasi law student and hopefully i'll be able to do the LLB in future.. Aminnn~

So guys, live your life... move on with your passion and ambition...

 u love music, just go for it.. u love art, carry on..

Who knows, maybe u'll be the next Albert Einstein or Mozart or Leonardo DaVincci or even the new people...

Who'll i be... I'll be the future Syahirah Azahar..

 the one who gain success along with achievements..

and future generations will remember my quote

 "i live my life with dreams, and all of them are my real stories.. and my biggest achievements are these two, my dreams and my love-life"

may it be forever...

XOXO, 

uknoWho

A month + distance = ...........

Assalamualaikum wbt and hye... again...hehehe

hehehe... bajet comel... benda dah besar jadi horror... tak caya??

nah bukti...

nah... hilang segala kecomelan... and this is Charlie...my lil bro...

dah lama tak buat perangai tulis dua post dalam sehari...so, here is the second post.. and this post untuk luahan perasaan... kot... maybe...

hehehe... lebih kurang ar...

It'd been a month since the last 15th Lovember...

 and maksudnya lebih sebulan la jugak tidak ketemu... 

Hati rasa apa??

x rasa pape pun... hahaha... 

tipu ar kalau tak rasa apa... ada rasa sesuatu.. tapi, biarlah rahsia... ecehh~

hohoho~ kejiwangan terserlah disitu...

somehow, our holidays are far apart... waktu orang cuti dia tak cuti...

 waktu orang tak cuti dia plak baru nak start cuti...

lepas tu mula la nak kata macam2... UiTM ni la, UiTM tu la...

ni pun, when u're on holiday, i'm struggling here... then when i'm about to go for a holiday trip, u're just came back from a great 'balik kampung' trip...

*sigh* *big sigh*

like always... missing to the max...

take care.. we'll meet soon...

i want to hear more unique stuffs and multisinger too..

LOL~

tahniah young man... hahaha...

live your life everyone... cherish it with love... hahaha... 

like what i'm doing with dignity right now..

miss u the most, 

Ira

AnaAbu's Story

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hye peeps....

uuuuuu~ starting a post with a cheesy matter... hahaha... joking....

but yeah, i meant it...

So, back to the topic...

Last weekend, i hang out for a while with my few friends here in sec.7 

Shah Alam.. just doing girls stuff.. eat and cuci mata... hehehe....

and like always, we went to the boutiques one by one...and everything look so tempting.. but a student will always be like a student... 

boleh tengok jela, beli tak mampu, duit tak hado...sedih disitu... 

sedih je jalan2...

First pit stop, Cala Qisya...beautiful shop... the colour combination use for the interior is so sweet... and the products sold there are basely using pastel colours... but for me, doesn't hit my taste... jadinya, usha2 je la...

Decoration depan kedai CalaQisya ni... seriously, so cute... even i'm the one who don't like all the cute thingy pun rasa tempat ni macam comel je...

so, dalam kedai tak snap any pic sebab ramai orang... and sebok2 selak segala benda yang dijual sampai lupa nak snap pic... hahaha..

next, i was introduced to this one new place.. i'm not sure since when the shop is there.. but this place will definitely be my fav place after this...

 like seriously, my vintage-freak-soul really come out there....

the price are reasonable as the quality of the products are satisfying... and bila dah lama2 dok kat situ jadi rambang mata... rasa macam banyak je yang nak dibeli... tapi this place really really suits with anyone yang jiwa ala2 hipster or so-called vintage... hehehe... and i'm one of them...

presenting.....

AnaAbu... and yeah, ada duta disitu...hehehe...

one of the best site in there... sorry for the blurgghhhh pic... biasa la, tangkap gambaq sambil jalan2...hehehe...

decoration dia sumpah cantik habaq hang.. siap ada private place tokey kedai punya... tapi sempat gak aku gi usha2 dari jauh.. akak jaga counter stok tak puas hati je... tapi apa aku kesah... dah nama pun kedai...

 i assumed everything is on display mode...hahaha~

owh, kedai AnaAbu ni tingkat 3... jenuh jugak la nak menapak naek tangga... but tepi2 tangga tu dia hias2 sikit... mostly vintage thing... 

seriously, i love old stuff.. hehehe.. weirdo a bit..

lepas berapa lama bertapa dalam ni, sambar jugak sehelai dua... then, cepat lari takut tangan gatal nak beli lagi... so yeah, out from AnaAbu...

owh, lupa nak cakap, kitorang ada gak tersesat masuk satu butik baru... betul2 atas kedai CalaQisya...

 tu la kedai nya... dear Solehah nama kedai tu... hari kitorang pegi is hari perasmian dia... hahaha...

 bila dah redah kedai, nak keluar tiba2 dapat goodie beg ni satu..

 thank you akak tokey kedai... sorry sebab kacau your promotion shooting hari tu... hehehe....

so... ada la beberapa lagi kedai yang kitorang masuk... tapi tak jugak beli..

cukup la sekadar cuci mata... tenang hati before balik UiTM yang huru hara...

that's all... my weekend kat Shah Alam yang serba sederhana..

guys, live your life.. dream big... dream huge... dream the best dream...

bak kata AnaAbu, welcome to my humble dream... 

ecehh~ hahaha...

XOXO,

uknoWho

2nd sem @ FUU

Assalamualaikum and salam December...

Dah dekat 2 minggu sem 2nd start, baru malam ni tergerak hati nak menulis nye hah... erm, how's my 2nd sem?? 

Ermmm~ so-so... not that great and not that bad...

I'm still alive here... hehehe...

This 2nd sem start out badly... like hell bad... 

and i'm thinking of quitting or crying... almost cry...

and that person is not here either.. so, it's not the best sem ever..

However, i still alive.. at least until now.. right... just pray the best for me k...

i choose to stay strong, happy with what i got right now, put all my best, be patience and believe in future...

ok.. continue with FUU.. what is FUU?

FUU is the short form of my faculty here that is Fakulti Undang-Undang or in bahasa omputeh nya is the Law Faculty.. 

many events took place... and what i salute the most is the people behind the event... they are so talented in so many ways and what made i impressed the most is their creativity in producing so interesting posters... 

want to see some??

Sungguh menangkap mata ku ini... banyak lagi sebenarnya, tapi ni je yang sempat ku capture masa merayau-rayau nak gi kelas...

hahaha... yang dua poster ni waktu musim mengundi hari tu... 

stock macam nak general election je... siap speech menifesto bagai... 

tapi best la gak.. new experience for the newbies...

yang poster atas ni no comment la... jenuh ku belek2, nak kata racist, tak jugak.... tapi, tah la, depend kat tafsiran masing2...hehehe...

and my classes dah start... banyak buku dah start kena beli... duit mengalir keluar macam air sungai... nasib still boleh tahan nafsu membeli barang2 yang pelbagai... tak faham la diri ku ini, kenapa la rajin sangat UiTM ni buat macam2 jenis karnival... yang dijual pun jenis tangkap goda punya...

alih- alih makanan, baju n novel... yang tu la pun yang asyik menggoda-ngoda purse ku ini... sabo je la...

That's all la kot.. pasal class and subjects, next post la eh... inspirasi takde, so tulis mana yang mampu je la... nanti dah dapat ilham, akan ku sambung lagi k...

and last but not least.... tadaaaa~

budak asasi meghela nak rasa dok depan court... 

dok depan moot court pun jadi la... moot court tu apa, moot court tu mahkamah olok2... tempat lawyer-to-be practice... hehehe...

 waktu ni kitorang curi masuk... bajet nak tangkap gambar pose cantik punya kat tempat judge, skali macam dok dalam gua... gelap tak bleh blah... 

last2 kat depan ni pun jadi la..in future, jangan kata gambar, office aku pun dalam court... hehehe... Aminnnn~

owh, lupa nak citer, hari tu ada mock trial... mock trial tu apa? mock trial tu mock trial la... susah nak terangkan... but yang penting produced by law student.. part brape saya tak pasti.. mock trial ni agak popular... kadang2 macam lawan ngan mock trial Uni laen.. dengar citer this year punya best... malangnya, diriku ini tak merasa tengok sebab diorang jual tiket waktu budak asasi cuti... cisss~ hehehe

pape pun, congrats FUU!!

the mock trial... title dia JIBRIL... teringin nak tengok... tapi tak merasa... owh, there's something to talk bout the director.. lain kali la citer... hehehe..

 I shy~ =='

so, thats all...

owh, some people asked me, what happen to us??

There's nothing much change.. Us still us... nothing will change insyaAllah..

we are happy... done.. hehehe.. just pray for us k kiddies... = )

Guys, live your life perfectly... enjoy it in whatever way.. never give up.. find the +ve side in each problems and feel free to love people... 

found one.. one that won't let me sleep.. hehehe.. remember or not??

p/s : puas hati hari ni... lama benar aku jaga, hari ni berbaloi..moga2 plan 

       jadi and both of us happy naa... kirim salam kat bumi hujan anda..

XOXO,

uknoWho