Surprise by His-truly

Assalamualaikum and Hello peeps..

You really are... lulls.

So guys, i'm in the middle of my semester break. And same goes to him. 

Ermm.. before that, i'll let you know something. 

I know some of you guys asked me to update about UKM and stuffs, i'll do it soon (InsyaAllah.. kalau dapat hidayah =='), but for right now, i'll write about the super duper amazing day of my life which took place few days back. 

So, be strong with this super cheesy post. Goodluck ^^

This story of mine almost the same with the one i had back on November 2013. He did a surprise, again, well he really did lots of surprises throughout these years, but usually during our dates. 

Well, throwback to Nov 2013 event:

Surprise from November 2013

Here's the recent one..

It'd been quite a while since the last time we had a date as both of us were terribly busy with finals. And to make it worst, he started his semester break wayyyy earlier than me which was when my final just started, and by the time i'm home in Tapah, he'd been home for God's know how long.. = ='

So, basically, i miss him terribly, and we don't have that much opportunity to gayut2 like old times. Therefore, tahap kerinduan kritikal. 

So, on that day, i've nothing to expect. Like seriously, since my semester break started, i've been doing count down for 2 months before we will meet. ( 2 months as something will happen). Swear to God I never expect this to happen.

So, back to that story, as usual, i've been waiting for my parents to come back from schools (they're teachers) and wait for their plan for that day. Usually, by 4.30pm, we'll go to the nearest Bazaar Ramadhan to but some food for breakfasting. But for that day, we need to head to Ipoh to settle few things and breakfast there. 

Sementara tunggu my parents bersiap, i was watching the tv, and suddenly my phone ringing. Seriously, for the first few second, i was staring at the phone blankly, amazed and shocked. I took the phone and ran into the room, hoping joyfully in the room and nervous a bit. 

I picked up the call and heard his Hello. Ohemgee... I MISS YOU.

He asked me where am i, what am i doing and few other Qs. I thought he's just want to say hi and asked me on life updates. but it turned up to be something so cool.

Me: Where are you.

Him: Infront of your house.

Me: What??

Him: Hahaha. No lahh..just joking.

Me: Phew...= ='

Him: Actually, I'm on my way to your house.

Lullllsssss... what the heck just happened.. is this chrismast or raya or my birthday or what...

He's coming.. even though sesat2 a bit, but yeah, he came all the way from Taiping to my house.

I'm super surprised, super shocked, super amazed, super love you.

Like seriously, i've never thought that he'll come.

Plus, from the call earlier, he said he's bringing along a friend, well, i don't mind at all as i would love to know bout his friends and family. But then when he introduced his 'friend'..... 

= =' hmmmmmpppphhh, budak niii... kenal sangat.

Apa2 pun, i'm glad they came that day. I really did.

As i need to go to Ipoh soon, we only got to talk for like half an hour, infront of my house.. loll.

Iolls saja taknak ajak masuk sebab impian nak bagi masuk bila dah berani nak merisik je *coughcoughcouh*

The funny part was, my father, unexpectedly, came to us. I was damn too nervous that i kept goyang2, but ayah dengan terlebih ramahnya datang salam2 diorang jemput masuk rumah. lolls.

Overall, i'm so happy and glad that he came all the way from his home to my house for a reason.

RINDU.

we talked, and update about our life, and plannings. 

Lega dapat jumpa, and see him life depan mata. Like, serious lega.

Huhuhu.. Tuhan je tau how i felt the moment i saw him in the driver seat, he parked right infront of the house and looked at me and smile.... kyaaaaaa!!! I kennot la like this..

And that day, he wore that shirt that i've not seen quite a while, and his hair a lil bit longer and clean shaved. He's handsome. Got heart heart in my eyes.. hahaha

seriously, he is handsome. but I really need to negotiate with his mummy to allow him got a tiny bit of beard. jambang yang well trim. agak2 boleh dapat tak? overall, u looked great.

Guys, excused my fangirling mode. I'm this kindof girl. I have major crush on my guy. I think it's  a good thing la kan, at least i tak minat laki orang, ok what... hahaha

All and all, dear awak, kesayangan, kehenseman, kerinduan dan segala ke yang lain, abang ira...

Thank you sooooo much for everything. Thank you.

Thank you for coming.

Thank you for introducing your girl to your bestfriend.

Thank you for making me smile.

Thank you for making me laugh.

I'm a luck girl ^^

so, dear you know who you are,

please take a good care..

be safe..

pease no more accident and such..

i've enough heart attacks..

be happy and enjoy your day with your family.

hope to see you soon.

i miss you

I really do... every single day ^^

Your girl,

Ira.

Life Update : 4 months before 20

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello ^^

I've spent my day today reading all my posts back.. yup, all..

what i can say is that i've changed.

when i compare my first 20 posts with my previous 20 posts, they're totally different.

Things did happened in this few months and my life did changed a lot.

But, what shocked me the most is that the 'positive-minded' syera has gone.

Like seriously,i'm being too negative nowadays.

I forgot to enjoy myself, enjoy throughout the day and cherish every moment i have.

I'm worried about everything.

What if they hate me?

What if i'll make them mad?

What if they don't want me anymore?

What if they don't like me because i'm not beautiful?

What if they'll leave me soon?

And the 'what-if-list' goes on..

Today, i realized that instead of worrying people will leave, i need to cherish their existence. All memories and dreams and hopes that we share, enjoy those things and stay happy.

Things will get tough occasionally, but i just need to be tougher.

I'll be 20 in few months. One of my bestfriends is getting married. 

And here I am still struggling with 'trust-issue'.

By turning 20, what important the most is the future.

I'll be just fine.

We'll be just fine.

InsyaAllah,I know and i believe that my hopes and dreams will come true eventually.

Can't wait for that time..

Till then,

STAY.

Hey there, 

We've been through a lot. 

Sedar tak sedar, we're these far right now, way ahead from the first baby step we took before.

Stay still and be strong.

Few years more and we will be we forever.

Lets achieve our ambitions first ^^

If I let them know our memories, damn they'll be shipping and make us as their life goals..

Gittteewww... Kemain..lulls.

But seriously, dear u know who u are,

thank you for coming into my life.

thank you for coming back into my life.

thank your for staying in my future.

Thanks.

To my readers, sorry that my post this time turned up to be a lovey dovey thingy.

But hey, logically, i'm a GIRL that will turn 20 .

That, shall explain everything.

P/S:Remember years ago, when i got a hug from your mom for the very first time? It was so warm and comfortable that in my heart, i know i want it again and again in the future ^^

Luahan hati,

Ira

Degree Law UKM : Part 3

Assalamualaikum and hello peeps..

Been a while since the last one..

Too busy with final, assignments, tests and stuffs..

Plus, super busy preparing for something.. 

what is it? insyaAllah panjang umur nanti share..

So, for the past few weeks, i think almost a month, i got so many emails and texts and what so not asking so many things on Asasi life and also Degree life.

Sorry x sempat reply one by one, and mostly yang tanya about Asasi life, i asked them to refer to other bloggers as in my blog post pun i tak cerita banyak. Mostly i jawab yang melibatkan taktau nak pilih apa or if the decision right or just nak some motivation..

However, i'm quiet surprised as i got so many Qs about how degree life really is.

So, here i'll try to answer few of them.

Q1 : Budak science stream boleh tak study degree law (LLB)?

J : 

I'm a science stream student waktu highschool and my science subjects are not that bad pun. The point is, tak kisah lah u're a science stream student from SPM ke, STPM ke, Matriculation ke, as long as u try, insyaAllah, boleh. 

Ramai je students LLB yang dari science stream especially STPM. Even yang tengah study medic and dentistry pun ada yang tukar buat law. But, as a reminder, don't pursue Law if u thought it as an escapism plan. Jangan anggap yang by doing law, it'll not be as hard as doing medic or engineering. It's equally susah.

Q2 : Belajar law ni memang baca buku je ke?

J : 

Haaaa~ part ni seriously kena jelaskan. Nak kata salah tu tak jugak sebab mainly memang hidup budak law mengadap buku je. 

Memang takde la nak main pembaris macam budak archi ke, nak main tulang2 macam budak medic or main keyboard macam budak music.. eh?? hehehe.. kalau main keyboard pun, keyboard lappy je la kot. assignment berlambak.

But tak la pulak sampai hari2 pegi balik faculty angkut buku je, hidup dekat library je.. memang no way. banyak assignments and other activities yang tak melibatkan buku.

Eg assignment : for 1st year UKM, kitorang ada assignment yang perlukan kitorang berlakon, pergi jumpa lawyer, pergi company, pergi pejabat2 kerajaan, pergi jumpa artis (kadang2) , banyak berurusan dengan orang dewasa, main kira2 sikit, ada la main gunting2 tampal sikit. Conclusion, bukan dengan buku je.

Eg aktiviti luar kelas: untuk faculty law, ada few persatuan macam ALSA and UNESCO yang memang ada macam2 aktiviti. Korang akan banyak terlibat dengan conference around Malaysia and murah rezeki lagi fully sponsored untuk conference international. Then, macam biasa, ada debat, debate pelbagai bahasa, pidato and also mooting.

Macam mooting, majority competition akan ada sampai peringkat international. Then, korang boleh jugak join cultural activities, contoh ada tarian, main gamelan, okestra ect. Even our own fac produce our own musical-kind-of-law-theater called mocktrial. so yeah, among students law, ada yang power buat makeup2, ada yang power menari and such. And also, sukan pun ada. Budak laki slalu je buat lawan futsal and such.

So conclusion nya, in our life, it's not all about books. Its a whole lot more. But certainly, u can't avoid from reading books. Kalau x nak baca buku langsung, tak yah belajar law. yang tu baru buku, kau belum tenggok cases lagi *muntah hijau*

Q3 : Kalau tengok dekat tv tu, yang lawyer2 tu takpun budak2 law dia lawa2 handsome2. Memang camtu ke in reality?

(Jawapan berdasarkan my point of view)

Toksah nak merepek. Takda maknanya bayangan korang. Kalau ye la semua lawa2 cantik2, iolls tak balik rumah dah. Rela bertapa dekat library faculty. Hahaha. No la. Seriously, keadaan dia macam dekat sekolah. Biasa je. 

Cuma kadang2 la korang jumpa a few yang lawa dia or handsome dia tu terlebih menyerlah. Macam kat sekolah kan ada budak2 hot, lebih kurang camtu la dekat sini. Tapi tak nafi la ada je yang cantik dia bukan main, sampai kau yang perempuan pun terpegun usha. Yang laki pun ada je ala-ala Korea or bidadara dunia dekat UKM ni hah. Jangan la kalau korang nampak buat ala-ala terkejut luar alam. Benda biasa je. tapi sorry la, kat fac ni takde lagi taste iolls. Serious memang takde ^^

Erm, setakat ni je la kot yang i explain. Tak larat nak tulis panjang2 lagi. Apa2 soalan just directly contact me. InsyaAllah i'll answer. Sorry if tak membantu pun apa yang i tulis ni. But my only intention is to give motivation to u guys. Jangan rasa rendah diri with your result or how u looks, ok? 

Live your life guys. Cherish every moment ^^

XOXO,

UknoWho

2nd Time

Hye..

This is not the best way to write a post after the last time i wrote..

Erm, hows my second sem?

I predicted it too early, that finally i'm the one who's full with frustration.

I hope this sem to be well, at least it need to be fine.

But things end up the same way.

Erm, i've a lot of assignments, tests, quizzes, programs..

In simple words, this is the hardest time in this sem.

I really wish someone will be here, by my side.

Sadly, I'm wrong.

For the 2nd time of my life, I'm alone.

I thought 20 will be different. I'm wrong.

20 and 19 are just the same.

It's hard right now.

Really hard that it hurts me a lot.

Hati rasa macam kena toreh.

Sakit sangat

What should i do?

but i believe one thing..

I know who i want to be with for the rest of my life..

And i know that will happen..

I'll let the time to decide.

Remember every promises..

Stay

Be safe

Don't worry..

I'll be fine..

I'll be ok..

Ira kan kuat..

I'll be ok..

Sincerely,

Me

Degree Law UKM : Part 2

Assalamualaikum and hello

It'd been quite sometime since the last post..

Erm, i can't use busy as an excuse..

just say that the feeling to write is not there.

So, today, want to write and share few things.

This is my 2nd semester of degree life. Baru start few weeks, but truly hectic.

Make new friends, knew few people, trying few new things.

All and all, until this moment, i believe i'm improving myself day by day, and surely i want to keep it that way through out this year.

if nak tanya result hari tu macam mana..

hurmm, segan nak bagitau.

but, seriously, dari awal dulu saya tak penah kata i'm a great student.

Obviously, i'm not la kan.

Kalau tanya my parents, they'll say i can improve my result for this sem.

If u asked me, i'll say i'm quite satisfied with my result despite my kesibukan and all my time spent into few things.

But somehow, thank God, along this rough journey of first sem, i always got people that support my back.

My parents yang tak pernah putus doakan kejayaan anak and always bagi kebebasan untuk anak diorang ni buat keputusan.

My siblings that even though tak jumpa selalu, but i know they always want me to do my best.

Him that always support me with what i'm doing, always there when i need comfort words, always there to help me make my mind, always there to hide me away from this world when i need time to be alone.

My best girl ever, for her support, her words that makes me laugh and her time spent hearing my lovey dovey story.

and for all that, thank you so much.

betul cakap orang, lagi bertambah umur, lagi kurang orang dalam hidup, 

lagi banyak yang melangkah keluar.

i'm used with being alone since little.

i'm that kind of person that dont have much friend.

Kalau dulu rasa macam nak bunuh diri bila rasa takda kawan and terlalu sunyi.

Sekarang, i'm satisfied with what i have.

I don't need thousands of people to be my friend.

I just need these few people that will never leave.

sincerely,

me

Stay

Assalamualaikum and hey

Just another appreciation post to show my appreciation to someone that deserve it..

I've been thinking about this a lot..

and I've come into a conclusion

I'm going to be 20 soon..

and so do you..

we're not 17/18 anymore..

i can't be like the old me again..

doubting and worrying about useless thing.

it's time to put trust and just let the time decide everything.

as much as u value my pictures, my videos, my shirt, my so-much-more-lil-things, i always and forever will value your existence.

lets be strong and stand still, trust each other..

few more years, everything will be just fine.

remember..

u asked me to believe in you.

u asked me to let u be my abang forever.

u asked me to not be worried as u'll be there together.

u asked me to be strong.

u asked me to open up.

don't forget..

years ago, I've said the same thing.

whatever happened, for whatever reason, for any relay,

u were, u are, and u'll forever be,

My Abang.

p/s : Stay - Miley Cyrus & I Won't Give Up - Jason Mraz

Forever your bestfriend, forever your sayang, forever yours,

Me.

Fresh start

Assalamualaikum... hello ^^

Honestly, this post will be super duper jiwang and highly dedicated for my jiwang soul..

so, if agak2 nak tengok any update bout my degree life, mohon singgah kmudian hari ya...

so, here it goes..

Seriously, last year was a horrible, damn shit year.. (sorry for my language)

Never once in my life before i be that kind of person..

Diri serabut, fikiran serabut, hati serabut, hidup serabut..

However, this year, i cant say it will be perfect but at least, i got a very happy, fresh new start..

I'm not alone.. i'll complete my degree with full motivation.. eceh... ahahah

keadaan kembali tenang, seperti yang aku harap, seperti yang aku mimpi..

harapan aku letak tinggi, perkataan 'forever' aku junjung dalam hati..

tapi siapa tau apa akan jadi..

cuma aku berani janji, selagi masih waras, selagi ada nyawa, aku usaha..

macam yang aku tanggung, yang aku gantung harap tahun lepas...

akan aku jadi kuat selagi mampu..

so, yup, lets work this out.. make it till the end k..

lets make a new start.. whatever happened back then, just forget everything..

after a year, u changed a lot..

u're not the same person i knew back then..

and for that changes, thank you so much..

I can't ask for more..

I can swear with all my heart, u're the right guy..

U treat me like a princess and a queen at the same time..

i don't think a girl like me deserve a great guy like u..

for everything that we share and experienced for the past few weeks, thank you..

those beautiful days will forever be remembered..

kalau nak ikut hati, i want to share everything here..

but i know i can't.... hahaha..

so, hopefully none of us will be nyanyuk or hilang ingatan that early..

nanti i write special post just for u je la... senang cer.. hahaha..

so, here my last word for u.. for us actually...

well, for the past few weeks, i know we're getting to know each other better..

there're other side of us that we'd never see before kan..

i know u're quite surprised with the new side of me..

hopefully, we can accept each other for who we are..

we can't asked for perfection in each other, but we can tolerate kan..

i cant promise u forever happiness without any problems..

i believe there are ups and downs in relationship..

so, instead of keeping it in our heart, lets settle it together..

Talk... settle things together..

if things get harder, instead of letting go, lets give 'us' some time to figure it out..

here it is..

there'll be time that u'll think this relay will go nowhere..

i really wish when that time come, just do this..

text me, say that u need some time alone, go wherever u want, take as much time as u want..

but when things get better, please come back..

I'll forever there..

Waiting for my Abang..

Last, thank you for being my Abang along this journey..

See you in few days..

proud to say, i'm in love with my bestfriend, my long-time-crush, my partner, my young man..

p/s : iolls ok + redho pasrah je madu ngan cheTa, but please, only cheTa je k.. lebih2  i kennot...

Forever yours (eh?)

Ira

The Crush

Assalamualaikum.. hye..

These few days are just too beautiful..
just too beautiful that i unable to describe it..

so, my main point is the crush..
honestly, i have one during my high school years, and i still do..
this one crush, i never let anyone know about it before, even my girls dont know bout it.

Last night, i let someone know..

The Syera that people know is the Syera yang muka x de perasaan, yang suka marah2, yang bajet bagus and the list goes on..

However, i'm still a girl, and i admit, i do have crush on someone.. lol..
blushing while writing this..

i don't know how all these started..
during my first year in high school, i'm all nerdy over books and i dont see boys as boys... lol..

as our classes opposite each other, it's not that hard to take a glimpse over him..
by that time, that boy somehow catch my attention, but during that year, i just knew his existent but never have any attempts to be his friend..

starting from my second year in high school, i got this one new habit, curi2 tengok..
hahaha, kalau ingat balik sumpah malu..
as a prefect, i need to do few things during the perhimpunan..
kadang2 jadi emcee, kadang2 jaga baris, kadang2 jaga blok..
and waktu bertugas ni je la i got the chance to do my agenda..

honestly, he's not a perfect guy or what, but somehow i have this feeling to be his friend, tapi mcm x de sebab je tb2 nak jadi kawan kan..
so, curi2 tengok je mampu..

so, macam mana i buat..
if waktu i jadi emcee, if ada waktu ucapan or anything, my eyes will absolutely at him..
if waktu jaga barisan, i'll find the best spot so that i can see him without anyone noticing..
if waktu jaga blok, believe me, diriku ini hanya tengok sorang budak je..
hahaha... tempat paling best untuk mengusha is hujung pejabat mengadap tapak perhimpunan..

that's what i did from form2 till form 5.. i've never done more than that..
never be close friends.. kadang2 if terserempak pun buat2 tak kenal..
and he never give any interest..
nama pun crush kan..

then, time form4 and form5 i involved in quite a lot of school events and so do him..
its quite nice to be able to see your crush.. lol

how did i know i have crush on him?
simple... first, i always have this feeling to be his friend..
2nd, when he talks to me, i got a mini heart attack...hahahaha
i really did..

i tried to talk to him few times, but it's always be a conversation between batchmates..
but now, after few years, my crush finally knew that i have crush on him..
luckily, he's ok with it..

and guess what, he's my bestfriend right now..

how i wish he know that he's still my crush and forever will..
eceh.. hahaha..

ehem ehem... hahaha

that's all, a story of mine..

XOXO,
Syera

Hope

Hye.

so... ermm.. i've been thinking for a while now..

few days back, someone asked me about hope..

and i did let you know about my hope..

at least part of it..

I do hope for your happiness and I do hope for my success..

once, i came across this one quote..

'Hope is waking dreams'

you know i dreamt a lot..

i really did..

and i still do..

so..these dreams are my hopes..

but still, how am i supposed to tell you everything..

Tbh, i learnt a lot from everything back then..

 Just like what u did, i'm trying to improve myself too..

and i'm trying hard to do so..

When u asked me that question, i didn't know how to answer..

"Is that the only thing u're hoping for?"

If i can answer it again, I really do hope I'll answer it this way..

"Can i hope for more?"

From how u reacted, i knew u dont read this blog anymore..

so, i dont think u'll never ever ever know about this small thought of mine..

but seriously, your question make me wait for your text every night causing me to get less sleep..

and i really do need enough sleep right now...

so, i do pray a lot to God.. i knew He is the only one that can deliver this to u..

hopefully, kalau terdetik rasa hati, please let me know the answer..

don't stop a conversation with a riddle or a question, i hate it.

it's between these two..

goodbye or letting go.

let me know soon

me is still me.. 

you are still you..

i'll be the better me..

as u'll be the better you..

p/s: i don't know where i got the courage to do that that night, but somehow, i'm really glad i did that.

ira