The Crush

Assalamualaikum.. hye..

These few days are just too beautiful..
just too beautiful that i unable to describe it..

so, my main point is the crush..
honestly, i have one during my high school years, and i still do..
this one crush, i never let anyone know about it before, even my girls dont know bout it.

Last night, i let someone know..

The Syera that people know is the Syera yang muka x de perasaan, yang suka marah2, yang bajet bagus and the list goes on..

However, i'm still a girl, and i admit, i do have crush on someone.. lol..
blushing while writing this..

i don't know how all these started..
during my first year in high school, i'm all nerdy over books and i dont see boys as boys... lol..

as our classes opposite each other, it's not that hard to take a glimpse over him..
by that time, that boy somehow catch my attention, but during that year, i just knew his existent but never have any attempts to be his friend..

starting from my second year in high school, i got this one new habit, curi2 tengok..
hahaha, kalau ingat balik sumpah malu..
as a prefect, i need to do few things during the perhimpunan..
kadang2 jadi emcee, kadang2 jaga baris, kadang2 jaga blok..
and waktu bertugas ni je la i got the chance to do my agenda..

honestly, he's not a perfect guy or what, but somehow i have this feeling to be his friend, tapi mcm x de sebab je tb2 nak jadi kawan kan..
so, curi2 tengok je mampu..

so, macam mana i buat..
if waktu i jadi emcee, if ada waktu ucapan or anything, my eyes will absolutely at him..
if waktu jaga barisan, i'll find the best spot so that i can see him without anyone noticing..
if waktu jaga blok, believe me, diriku ini hanya tengok sorang budak je..
hahaha... tempat paling best untuk mengusha is hujung pejabat mengadap tapak perhimpunan..

that's what i did from form2 till form 5.. i've never done more than that..
never be close friends.. kadang2 if terserempak pun buat2 tak kenal..
and he never give any interest..
nama pun crush kan..

then, time form4 and form5 i involved in quite a lot of school events and so do him..
its quite nice to be able to see your crush.. lol

how did i know i have crush on him?
simple... first, i always have this feeling to be his friend..
2nd, when he talks to me, i got a mini heart attack...hahahaha
i really did..

i tried to talk to him few times, but it's always be a conversation between batchmates..
but now, after few years, my crush finally knew that i have crush on him..
luckily, he's ok with it..

and guess what, he's my bestfriend right now..

how i wish he know that he's still my crush and forever will..
eceh.. hahaha..

ehem ehem... hahaha

that's all, a story of mine..

XOXO,
Syera