Fresh start

Assalamualaikum... hello ^^

Honestly, this post will be super duper jiwang and highly dedicated for my jiwang soul..

so, if agak2 nak tengok any update bout my degree life, mohon singgah kmudian hari ya...

so, here it goes..

Seriously, last year was a horrible, damn shit year.. (sorry for my language)

Never once in my life before i be that kind of person..

Diri serabut, fikiran serabut, hati serabut, hidup serabut..

However, this year, i cant say it will be perfect but at least, i got a very happy, fresh new start..

I'm not alone.. i'll complete my degree with full motivation.. eceh... ahahah

keadaan kembali tenang, seperti yang aku harap, seperti yang aku mimpi..

harapan aku letak tinggi, perkataan 'forever' aku junjung dalam hati..

tapi siapa tau apa akan jadi..

cuma aku berani janji, selagi masih waras, selagi ada nyawa, aku usaha..

macam yang aku tanggung, yang aku gantung harap tahun lepas...

akan aku jadi kuat selagi mampu..

so, yup, lets work this out.. make it till the end k..

lets make a new start.. whatever happened back then, just forget everything..

after a year, u changed a lot..

u're not the same person i knew back then..

and for that changes, thank you so much..

I can't ask for more..

I can swear with all my heart, u're the right guy..

U treat me like a princess and a queen at the same time..

i don't think a girl like me deserve a great guy like u..

for everything that we share and experienced for the past few weeks, thank you..

those beautiful days will forever be remembered..

kalau nak ikut hati, i want to share everything here..

but i know i can't.... hahaha..

so, hopefully none of us will be nyanyuk or hilang ingatan that early..

nanti i write special post just for u je la... senang cer.. hahaha..

so, here my last word for u.. for us actually...

well, for the past few weeks, i know we're getting to know each other better..

there're other side of us that we'd never see before kan..

i know u're quite surprised with the new side of me..

hopefully, we can accept each other for who we are..

we can't asked for perfection in each other, but we can tolerate kan..

i cant promise u forever happiness without any problems..

i believe there are ups and downs in relationship..

so, instead of keeping it in our heart, lets settle it together..

Talk... settle things together..

if things get harder, instead of letting go, lets give 'us' some time to figure it out..

here it is..

there'll be time that u'll think this relay will go nowhere..

i really wish when that time come, just do this..

text me, say that u need some time alone, go wherever u want, take as much time as u want..

but when things get better, please come back..

I'll forever there..

Waiting for my Abang..

Last, thank you for being my Abang along this journey..

See you in few days..

proud to say, i'm in love with my bestfriend, my long-time-crush, my partner, my young man..

p/s : iolls ok + redho pasrah je madu ngan cheTa, but please, only cheTa je k.. lebih2  i kennot...

Forever yours (eh?)

Ira

The Crush

Assalamualaikum.. hye..

These few days are just too beautiful..
just too beautiful that i unable to describe it..

so, my main point is the crush..
honestly, i have one during my high school years, and i still do..
this one crush, i never let anyone know about it before, even my girls dont know bout it.

Last night, i let someone know..

The Syera that people know is the Syera yang muka x de perasaan, yang suka marah2, yang bajet bagus and the list goes on..

However, i'm still a girl, and i admit, i do have crush on someone.. lol..
blushing while writing this..

i don't know how all these started..
during my first year in high school, i'm all nerdy over books and i dont see boys as boys... lol..

as our classes opposite each other, it's not that hard to take a glimpse over him..
by that time, that boy somehow catch my attention, but during that year, i just knew his existent but never have any attempts to be his friend..

starting from my second year in high school, i got this one new habit, curi2 tengok..
hahaha, kalau ingat balik sumpah malu..
as a prefect, i need to do few things during the perhimpunan..
kadang2 jadi emcee, kadang2 jaga baris, kadang2 jaga blok..
and waktu bertugas ni je la i got the chance to do my agenda..

honestly, he's not a perfect guy or what, but somehow i have this feeling to be his friend, tapi mcm x de sebab je tb2 nak jadi kawan kan..
so, curi2 tengok je mampu..

so, macam mana i buat..
if waktu i jadi emcee, if ada waktu ucapan or anything, my eyes will absolutely at him..
if waktu jaga barisan, i'll find the best spot so that i can see him without anyone noticing..
if waktu jaga blok, believe me, diriku ini hanya tengok sorang budak je..
hahaha... tempat paling best untuk mengusha is hujung pejabat mengadap tapak perhimpunan..

that's what i did from form2 till form 5.. i've never done more than that..
never be close friends.. kadang2 if terserempak pun buat2 tak kenal..
and he never give any interest..
nama pun crush kan..

then, time form4 and form5 i involved in quite a lot of school events and so do him..
its quite nice to be able to see your crush.. lol

how did i know i have crush on him?
simple... first, i always have this feeling to be his friend..
2nd, when he talks to me, i got a mini heart attack...hahahaha
i really did..

i tried to talk to him few times, but it's always be a conversation between batchmates..
but now, after few years, my crush finally knew that i have crush on him..
luckily, he's ok with it..

and guess what, he's my bestfriend right now..

how i wish he know that he's still my crush and forever will..
eceh.. hahaha..

ehem ehem... hahaha

that's all, a story of mine..

XOXO,
Syera

Hope

Hye.

so... ermm.. i've been thinking for a while now..

few days back, someone asked me about hope..

and i did let you know about my hope..

at least part of it..

I do hope for your happiness and I do hope for my success..

once, i came across this one quote..

'Hope is waking dreams'

you know i dreamt a lot..

i really did..

and i still do..

so..these dreams are my hopes..

but still, how am i supposed to tell you everything..

Tbh, i learnt a lot from everything back then..

 Just like what u did, i'm trying to improve myself too..

and i'm trying hard to do so..

When u asked me that question, i didn't know how to answer..

"Is that the only thing u're hoping for?"

If i can answer it again, I really do hope I'll answer it this way..

"Can i hope for more?"

From how u reacted, i knew u dont read this blog anymore..

so, i dont think u'll never ever ever know about this small thought of mine..

but seriously, your question make me wait for your text every night causing me to get less sleep..

and i really do need enough sleep right now...

so, i do pray a lot to God.. i knew He is the only one that can deliver this to u..

hopefully, kalau terdetik rasa hati, please let me know the answer..

don't stop a conversation with a riddle or a question, i hate it.

it's between these two..

goodbye or letting go.

let me know soon

me is still me.. 

you are still you..

i'll be the better me..

as u'll be the better you..

p/s: i don't know where i got the courage to do that that night, but somehow, i'm really glad i did that.

ira