Lovember's Farewell....

Assalamualaikum wbt and evening people!!

This whole Lovember is leaving...kind of sad... really sad actually...

Why?

Because this year, its beautiful... 

its full of experiences, theories and application...Apakah?? hahaha.. 

let it be that way.. too deep to understand..

Well, of course, many things happen... good or bad? both actually.. 

but i take it this way, everything have both side, the good side and the bad side... it's up to u to believe which one.. 

and I decide to live my life with only seeing the positive part...

summary of this Lovember.... i found myself throughout this month...

I learn so much... the difference between what i like and what i love...

 what i want and what i need...

At one point, i believe what i'm struggling so hard right now is just for the future...

 i'm putting my all to ensure i will not make them feel they don't belong there, to ensure i'm do belong there...

orang kata zaman sekarang takde dah zaman enggang pipit bagai..

 memang takde...evolution occur... sekarang zaman nokia vs iphone..hehehe

ok, merepek  =='

camni lah, if in case, this post is being read in the future, i want myself to know something..

Dear the future me, when u read again all the posts, u'll be saying what the heck are u doing..

hey girl, don't be ashamed with yourself... u did very well back here... don't u dare to regret any of these.. whatever happen in the future, it started from here... if everyone u love back here still there, let them know that my feelings towards them will never change... for that person, whether he's still there or not, let him know, he's the best thing ever happen... even korean dramas can't match us back here... hahaha.. 

kidding~ just take care of yourself, future me...

tiba2 rasa macam tinggal wasiat pulak... hehehe... who knows kan..

 anything might happen...

owh, teringat something, few days back, i did an experiment to myself... 

The hypothesis is that the tighter you hug your pillow, the greater u miss your love one...

and guess what, the result is positive... bangga jap, hypothesis terbukti..

end up with great dream... like a date while your mata tutup.. hehehe

tapi masalahnya, days after that, the hypothesis don't work that well.. like on and off... hahaha.. cis~ sapa yang dengki curi mimpi gua...

gua tau sapa curi nanti, gua cari luu sampai luu sendiri serah diri pada gua...hahaha... conclusion to all this crap talk is that i miss him...hahaha..

That's it... end of Lovember... kita jumpa lagi eh next year... take care..

owh, december sudah mari.... welcome... hopefully, everything will be just great... lagi great kalau salji turun di shah alam... saya taknak kepal2 salji kat I-City depan nun... nak kepal2 depan kolej mawar je boleh?? hahaha

tu je la kot... update2 pasal my 2nd sem and what ever happen in FUU, next post k...

by Lovember'13... gonna miss u... see ya in '14 k...

Love ya much...

the best music for me  is his words...

live your life guys... move on your life... be grateful... 

appreciate what u have.. be who u are...

XOXO,

uknoWho

Happy 18 Big Guy!! = ) 281113

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hye guys!!

The day I've been waiting for so long is..... TODAY!!! hehehe...

I'm totally excited... but yet still a little bit upset... tapi, happy day kan.. nobody can be sad today... so, smile everyone...

nobody is allow to be upset ok...

By the way... this post is specially dedicated to the special person for his special day... for Anda, my abang...

First thing first, happy birthday MIMN... happy 18th birthday... 

owh... birthday kena ada kek kan...

Happy birthday to u....

Happy birthday to u....

Happy birthday to my love one..

Happy birthday to u...

Nah... birthday cake for you... bukan setakat lilin je, bunga api + mercun pun ada... hehehe.... so, make a wish and blow it....  *fuh fuh* hehehe 

*clap clap clap*

Tell me the wish afterward k.. 

First, I'm so sorry for not being there... i really really really want to celebrate it together with u.. tapi nak buat camne, takde rezeki... 

I am here, and u're there... but i promise u, nanti celebrate eh... 

belated pun valid jugak kan...hehehe

For your 18th birthday, i got 18 wishes for you...

1 ) Happy Birthday again... welcome to 18s club.. hehehe

2) Semoga panjang umur and murah rezeki because u still have years to spend with me... hehehe...

3) May this 18 bring u luck and success and fun and all the good stuffs...

 owh, and also, blessed...

4) Semoga terus menjadi the best son to your parent, the best abang to your

   bro and sis, the best friend to your friends, the best person in your life k.. 

Don't worry, u're always the best in mine...

5) May Allah ease all your days.. and also your 2nd sem... 

   and also your study..

6) May you gain success in anything or any path you choose... 

    and remember, i always support u..

7) Semoga anda sehat selalu... eventhough maen hujan ke, skip2 all the

   meals ke, moga anda sehat selalu... avoid yourself from being involve with

   pills or doctors k...

8) Semoga dapat menahan hati daripada memecut sentiasa...

    berhati-hatilah anda di jalan raya... ingatlah yang tersayang... hehehe...

9) Semoga your 18 fill with surprises, positiveness and fun...

10) Semoga tak stress2 dah in each of your day k...

 Sorry~ i thought 18 is not that much... hehehe.. banyak gak rupanya.. 

  ok, keep counting..

11) May this 18 lead u to be a better a person and maturity and yeah, a great

     guy of course..

12) Boleh wish kat hati anda tak...hehehe.. moga2 terus terjaga dari ancaman

     luar... hehehe..

13) Semoga sentiasa dikelilingi dengan orang2 tersayang... 

     and happy always..

14) May all your wishes come true... dream big k...

15) Owh, semoga hensem, kacak, bergaya selalu.. toksah jadi fahrin ahmad ka, aaron aziz ka... u got your own charm k... hehehe

16) Semoga abang berjaya dunia akhirat...hehehe... ayat skema skit..

17) Semoga dibanjiri dengan hadiah2 yang pelbagai...

 dah tua2 ni ada dapat hadiah ke lagi...hehehe.. ada kot, last year pun dapat teddy bear lagi, this year mesti blh dpt lagi kan...

18) and last but not least, a present from me... u're given 18 wishes... anything u want dengan syarat tak melampau, still in the limit and insyaAllah if i'm afford it k...owh, expiry date is on your 19th birthday... so, use them wisely k...

so, yeah, done with 18 wishes... hehehe... fuhhh.... penat fikir... 
so happy always love one...

and again, sorry for not being there... we'll meet soon k.. 

P/S : your demand is available now...

Soon....

Happy Birthday young man.. love ya...


XOXO + much much love,

UknoWho@Ira

15thLovember2013

Assalamualaikum... Hi...

Gyaaa!! benda baru dua hari lepas... tapi dah start balik... *sigh*

tak kan nak kena tengok everyday kot... parah + kronik...

but, what to do... the fact is, i do miss u...

hehehe... sorry guys... kan dah kata, ni bulan Lovember... 

so, things will be so cheesy this whole month... hopefully never-ended..

back to the day....

erm, 15Lovember2013

After a month and almost two weeks being in distance, finally....

 nampak gak muka...

First impression, muka lain skit... hehehe... kurus a bit.. 

perangai, sama je...huhuhu...

Hati? as great as the last time we met... unchanged..

so, yeah, a very nice day.. 

even though for a very short period, but worth spend... 

Tak sangka the time flies so quickly... three hours are much shorter than i thought..

Honestly, that day was much much much better than what i expect it to be..

even though only for a short lunch time... 

anda sorg je yang buat perangai lunch pukul 3... sibuk kalah PM je.. 

but yeah, seeing u eating make me feel much much better... 

Talk... conversation... clearing all the misunderstanding...

 including the one with the bracelet...*sigh*...adik anda....hehehe...

owh jap, yang test tu, are u really tested it with your tangan??

and yeah, everything when well... really well... sorry for taking your time..

i don't know u're working.. i thought u're enjoying your holiday.. sorry......

can't explain the day precisely... hopefully, we'll never forget that day..

owh, if u're ever wonder kita lunch katne, dekat pondok tepi surau asrama..

hehehe... great... *thumbs up to us*

erm, few things happened and that things are being the answers why it's him.

first fact : i'm not that brave...

2nd fact: saya takut anjing...

3rd fact: i'm not so into mystique things..

4th fact : i'm not used with unique hobbies...

5th fact : All those facts i've mentioned above may haunted my dreams for days...

6th fact : i am short...

hahaha.... seriously, i'm not brave to those creepy things...

 even tengok wayang pun, seboleh-boleh nya, those horror movies are not in the must-watch-list...

and anjing.... i really scared of dogs... lagi2 yang menyalak without reason...

like really?? perlu ke menyalak... hahaha...

yang keluar dari mulut is ''mana ada takut... tak takut la..."

but i know, my face shows everything.. hahaha... 

dalam gelap tak nampak pucat kot....

papepun, new experience... nice one... tq..

so....in the nutshell, hehehe.. thank you so much for the day... for the time... for the fun.. for the joy..

for everything...

thank you for the words... the comfy one... 

I'll always remember the words u said when the anjings menyalak or when i started usha everything... haisy..

so, tq...hope to meet u soon...

And one more thing, thank you for giving me the chance to capai my impian and yeah, you can create your demand now... i'll be waiting...

i'll be more than glad if at that time, u're still talking bout your wish to drive 4x4 with me and turun all the bukit..hehehe....

so, live your life guys... happiness is everywhere... seek for it...

XOXO,

uknoWho

      

Sijil SPM punya cerita....

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello peeps...

Eh, apa kaitan gambar ni dengan story, takde kaitan langsung... 

i just keep thinking of them when i see this pic..

so, yeah... hari ni saya jejak kaki di sekolah semula..

 sampai sekolah stok terkinja-kinja, bajet macam bertaon-taon tak datang.. padahal baru brape bulan je...

but, afterall, we have so much fun today... so much laugh... 

erm, who are they??

well..... this is us... partner of giggles today...hehehe

and yup, ni bukan sekolah... hehehe...

ni yang kitorang rancang jumpa... 

but ada gak beberapa orang yang tiba2 terjumpa.. hehehe... camne tu..

Nawaitu asal gi skolah nak ambik sijil SPM bersama-sama misi dan visi sampingan... masing2 ada misi masing2... 

rasanya yang ikhlas nak ambik sijil SPM is Karthik only la kot... 

even nawaitu Devend nak datang skolah sebab nak ambik gambar ngan teacher Suzy and upload dalam FB... itu sahaja..

 jangan ingat Devend baik sangat... hahaha...

Lepas dah ambik sijil, berbondong-bondong la kitorang merempat ke bilik guru..

sampai2 terus jumpa bonda tersayang, Cikgu Rodzlina with Mama Wanis..

Cikgu Rodzlina as always, like a mum to me...

 never stop encouraging her students... 

treating each and everyone equally, sometime like her own child..

terharu sangat2... 

kata2 cikgu yang menusuk kalbu hari ni, diorang tak pandang bidang apa yang kita ceburi.. yang penting, we go on with our dreams, pursue our interest.. 

diorang tak tengok kita grad in what course.. 

penting we did our best in our own line..

so, dearest batchmates, tak kira la kita ambik degree ke, diploma ke, asasi ke, foundation ke, sijil ke or whatever it is, jangan lupa jumpa cikgu kita, sebab diorang always bangga dengan who we are...

 please be proud of ourselves k..

ok, done with motivation words... encouraged enough huh?? hahaha..

however, bukan tu je yang jadi waktu jmpa cikgu Rodzlina... masuk bilik guru, cikgu terus peluk2 bagai.. then cikgu kata, ''Tinggi dah kamu syera.."

Then, cikgu tengok atas bawah, atas bawah..

Cikgu cakap, "owh padan la tinggi... Kasut yang meninggikan..."

hehehehe... Sedih... even my junior pun panggil diriku ini Pendek... apakan daya, tak mampu nak melawan.. memang empunya mulut lebih tinggi SIKIT dari diriku ini...

Then.. jalan2 skolah... tangkap gambar merate-rate...

And then, ada jumpa Teacher Suzy... one of the best teacher i have ever knew.. susah nak cari cikgu macam Teacher Suzy... 

sangat berjiwa pendidik... 

Teacher, i don't know if u'll ever read this, whenever it is, take care...

 be strong... bantu and lead our juniors... don't let them regret later like us... Good luck in whatever u're doing... u're the best Teacher...

 much love from batch 13

teringat balik all the classes before... rindu sangat zaman sekolah...

after that, masing2 berpecah and carry on with our own visi dan misi tadi...

sempat la jumpa few juniors... 

best sangat nampak budak2 kecik dulu dah besar2... hehehe...

For the form 5 students, good luck SPM.. make our teachers proud ok..

then, few form 4 students... 

few form 3 students and of coz few form 2 students..

macam2 gaya budak2 ni... ada yang malu2, ada yang terlebih excited... ada yang curi ambik gambar... ada yang tersengih-sengih dari jauh... ada yang datang terus peluk.. hahaha... majoriti dah penah kena tengking dengan diriku ini..sorry adik2 ku sayang... saya marah sebab sayang, kalau tak sayang saya tak marah dah...hehehe...

and my visi and misi, tercapai la jugak... even sekejap je sebab masing2 rushing, tapi Alhamdulillah, sempat la jugak jumpa junior2 ku...

To my bro, nampak macam dah besar sikit, tapi perangai macam tu gak..

 tah bila la nak matang sikit...

and adik junior yang tak penah cakap depan2 before, asyik maen texts je, and finally baru merasa jumpa tadi, so much fun dapat jumpa... 

tak kekok sangat between us.. tapi sorry tak dpt jumpa lama, rushing sangat tadi.. insyaAllah nnti kita jumpa lagi eh Aifaa...

and sorang lagi ni... susah nak cakap... mula2 panggil diriku ini Pendek...

then, tak kenal nama 'kak syera'.. laen plak dipanggil nya...

then, boleh plak hilang...

bila dah jumpa, hal lain plak jadi nya... hehehe... ikot perangai sapa la ni..

owh, ada sorang lagi yang ku jumpa... junior yang sangat kiut.. 

aku panggil dia 'cekenit'... jangan tanya kenapa, jangan tanya siapa..

masih di saiz yang sama... kiut as usual... hehehe..

and, ada nampak few juniors yg nak sgt2 jmpa, tapi tak sempat jumpa..

sorry sgt2 Syu, Mus, Huda, budak2 form2, budak2 form5, my ex-dormmates and so much more...

i'm going to miss my school so much...

dont ask what's wrong with my face coz i'm soooo not ready for this pic =='

sorry because there are so many pics... i'm not good with words right now...

so, it is a very nice day... i'm so happy to meet them.. 

hopefully dapat jumpa lagi after this.. InsyaAllah...

I'll be in Taiping every two or three months for these two or three years.. but i'm not sure if i'll be able to go to school again... so, in the mean time, i'll surely miss this school like crazy... memang banyak kenangan pahit, but there's always so much more sweet things to remember.. 

I love my batch... hehehe..

Live your life guys, remember your friends, remember memories between them..

p/s: Next post will be bout us.. insyaAllah, kalau sempat i'll post tomorrow

       before my family's cuti-cuti Malaysia starts..

XOXO,

uknoWho

Know Who You Really Are...

Assalamualaikum wbt and hello people..

To write this post, is so damn hard for me.. why?

 because writing from your heart is the same meaning as confessing...

Before, i felt so secure because i know, he'll be there...

 He's always there to hear me babbling all over small things that can't even named as a problem...

I always complain about my study, my home-sick, my dreams, my so-much-more...

and he tend to hear everything..

I think he always heard all these words...even after midnight..

' Nak tido..."

' Nak balik rumah..."

" I hate my lecturer..."

''I'm hungry.."

" i miss....."

There's always these words...but he never sighed ...

sometime, it's kind of funny to think of how we can talked for hours almost everyday without feeling bored and still, filled with laugh and joy...

At first, i'm scared to reveal the real me... i did, but not fully... 

Syahirah at school is way too different then the real Syahirah..

After few time passed, he started to ask me...

 why are you not being yourself fully..

each time u meet me, u're still kind of shy somehow.. 

don't worry.. just be yourself...

Time by time, i'm being me, and he's being him..

I can join him singing in the car.. 

I can tell him what i felt that day..

I can tell him stories of my family..

Story of me in my toddler's years..

and he also shared the same thing..

Kadang-kadang it's kind of weird when my friends said that our conversation sound cute, but hey, it's not cute la, it's fun... 

I always know that he'll be there...

 sometimes, i'm being paranoid... afraid of loosing..

and each time i tell him bout my worries, he'll always said, 

"Don't worry..it'll not happen.. i'll always be your abang kan"

and somehow, those words never fail to comfort my feeling..

Unfortunately, cuti sem sebulan setengah is too long.. 

The distance is too much..

It's too hard for me..and maybe for him too.. both of us feel it..

teringat pulak the story of the bolster and the teddy bear....

Before this, i always think that he'll always be there..

but this distance taught me, how much i need him..

and how much this distance effect on me...

These days taught me so many things...

Make me think again, the way i treat him...

All my faults and so on...

I know and i believe, i do need him..

I'm praying the best of us...

Remember our good days before...

I know we can work this out...

Trust me, trust us..

Thank you for letting me know the real me..

for changing be to a better one..

I'm so sorry.. I miss u..

Thank you... for leading me in your own way...

The one who miss u a lot,

Ira

The Best Surprise in My Life...

Assalamualaikum and hye...

so, this is the story of the last 1st November... 

the starting of my Lovember i guessed...

The title may sounds too much for others, but for me, it is well described.

 so, the story begins like this.. on the last 1st November 2013, i went back to Taiping to get my ortho check up...Owh, i'm not alone there, i'm with my family...

so, btolak dr Tapah tgah hari, and my appointment was at 4.. 

and everything when very well...

however, there's something i hid from them..

 i've been waiting so long for that appointment for a reason, and hoping that my wish can come true there...

 i've been missing.... badly... terribly...

but somehow, i knew the fact that it won't happen...

my heart was so hurt that day knowing the reality...

and somehow, i don't know why, i can't stop thinking of 'what if'..

i'm thinking, 'what if that happen', 'what if suddenly it's a surprise'...

i kept waiting even though i know how that day will end up..

i send texts just to comfort my feelings... 

even though no replies, i knew he read it.. let it be that way, i can face it..

when the clock struck midnight, my dream, my hope just break into pieces...

tears... 

one thing i learned from that someone, and i'll never forget it,

' tak semua benda akan jadi macam yang kita mintak, yang kita rancang'..

i hold on the words, and i faced the fact.. 

another day had passed, and another day less before i get to see that someone..

so, bila hati dah pasrah dengan situation tu, i put my phone aside, and started to pull up the blanket..hoping that i'll be able to sleep that night..

owh, by the way, i used to let my phone in normal mode everyday..

but that night, i turned it to silent mode konon hati merajuk..

 tapi kan, i switched on the vibrate just in case, IN CASE yer (hehehe...) in case, there's anyone trying to contact me..

hati separa pasrah je, 3/4 lagi tak berapa nak pasrah....

baru je nak pejam mata, tiba2 fon vibrate...
Owh!!!! rasa nak lompat2 je dalam bilik hotel tu... 

ada orang call la....hehehe...

 lari2, cari tempat selamat, ok, line clear, boleh agkt fon...

Hohoho, pecah rekod.. tak penah lagi aku brani agkt call wktu ngan fmly... 

nampak sgt la kau tgah ni sgt ngan dia... haisy...

cakap stock nak gi merompak rumah orang... kena usik pun redha je la..

takde nye nak jerit2 balas... paling kuat pun takat gelak macam gadis melayu terakhir... tak bleh blah syera... situasi yang sgt impossible....

so, berbasi-basa la di sana, how are u, how am i...

where are u, where am i...

hahaha... perkara yang normal...

and, being so innocent, i believe everything...

ok.. EVERYTHING being said ok...

hahaha... lame disitu...

owh, a week before, i send a text, just for fun, saying smthing like this..

' htl flmgtn, tgkat -, jemput la dtg...hehehe'

just for fun.. so, during the call, Uknowho ask me again... 

which floor, and what is the room number...

and i thought that Uknowho is just joking because before that, Uknowho claimed that he's not there, a.k.a not in Perak...

 and konon nya, tgah jalan2 area rumah nak tumpang sambut Deepavali...

then, suddenly, Uknowho asked me to go and peek-a-boo at the hole on the door... 

ingat kan dia nak mengusik pasal hantu ke apa sbb dah lebih pukul 1 pagi dah pun...and yang lagi pelik, aku boleh ikut plak mainan dia... hahaha...

yang tak boleh blah tu, sempat lagi dia mgusik..

''boleh nampak ke kot lubang tu, cukup tinggi tak...."

hehehe, cis disitu... sempat lagi merendah-rendah kan diriku ini...

and by the time i took a glimpse at that hole, my heart stop beating for few seconds.. *eceh ayat aku*

the one i miss the most, the one i put my hope on, is there, infront my hotel room...

SURPRISE!!!!!!

hahaha.....what should i say more... dream come true...

so, anda, if in case u read this, thank u so much, for a very great surprise..

even though for 3 seconds only, it'll always be the best 3 seconds in my life...

and i knew the fact that not everything we wished and planned for will happen

yup... owh, ada one sad thing happen, one of my beloved post is missing, i don't know how to recover it.. 

i tried for so many time and spend hours, but still, nothing can replace it.. 

one of the best post..

our memories there.. hopefully, both of us tak kena alzheimer la eh... 

kalau tak jenuh nak ingat balik nanti..

which post??

well, this post...

the first time i revealed my shoe-size guesser... hehehe...

 the time when i play bowling, and i got a strike and i almost kalahkan dua2 bradik... almost k... hehehe...

so, yeah, the conclusion of this story is....

so guys, live your life...

 dream high, who knows, u'll also get that 3 seconds big surprise kan...

XOXO,

uknoWho