Take Note #1

Hai..

When i start without a salam, there's always something wrong.. 

yup, something is not right...

i think bout this over and over before i decided to write this down.. 

i'm not complaining, i'm not trying to relate this to anyone or trying to degrade or humiliate someone.. so please, no offence..

erm, first, lets make this clear..

salah and silap is so different..

personal and professional should not mix up..

feelings and fate can't be denied..

don't worry.. this post is not one of those my lovey dovey journey..

something serious is happening.. and i don't like it..

once, in my highschool years, i'm not one of the friendly friend or student or senior or anything that goes the same..

aku tau aku jenis cepat melenting..

 tak kira kawan or tak kawan, junior tak junior, senior tak senior...

when i said it's wrong, no one can denied..

but hell you know, i'm not evil..

i'm not that cruel to ruin your life..

just, put yourself in my position just for a while..

you'll understand my action..

gila kuasa takde dalam list..

jalankan tanggungjawab is my priority..

the way i handle it may hurt people, but trust me, if i don't do it, how to complete it..

aku tau aku tak rapat ngan orang, but hell you know i have feelings too..

sapa kata aku tak sayang kawan or tak sayang junior wei..

budak batch aku.. even aku penah marah korang pun, kalau korang jatuh telentang patah riuk pun, aku tak tinggal camtu je...

kalau aku nampak apa korang buat sebelum2 ni pun, aku tutup mata jugak..

penah tau ke ada 'kawan' korang yang celik...

untuk junior aku... sesombong-sombong aku, semasam mana muka aku pun sebelum ni... aku sayang korang kot...

seteruk-teruk aku marah, tampar, sepak korang pun before ni, fikir balik..

aku marah tanpa sebab ke apa..

takde la aku hitler sangat sampai nak hukum korang tanpa sebab kan..

teruk2 mana korang kena sampuk hantu pun, aku tak lari kot..

sesusah mana pun korang nak sembang ngan aku sebelum ni, kalau korang mintak tolong ngan aku, aku tolong jugak kan... 

tak kira ar aku korbankan masa ke, tenaga ke, duit ke apa, pernah ke aku mintak balas balik.. takkan..

aku bukan ungkit.. aku bukan masuk bakul angkat sendiri..

cuma fikir sekali..

kalau aku cuba berbaik..

kalau aku panggil kau adik..

kalau aku tak pandang jelik..

kalau aku boleh respect..

susah sangat ke nak treat aku as someone u know at least..

aku tak mintak banyak pun dari korang..

just treat me as u want yourself to be treated..

i don't mix my personal life in between, so u too..

don't..

believe me, i don't take advantage on people..

 i don't start a communication for a drama or a cliche or a melancholic..

trust me, that is me, the one u'd never knew before..

ask my friends, ask any of those SAWAN, any of my Shah Alam friends, any of my debate team, i've never once take advantage on people, tak pernah dalam hidup aku nak menjatuhkan orang...

i'm frustrated..i'm mad.. i'm upset..

just think..

jahat tak bermaksud jahat selamanya..

jahat tak bermaksud kejam..

things happen for reasons..

think wisely, and u'll understand..

guys, sorry for my language today..

don't use it in any of your essays or during MUET test k..

Teacher Leez and Cikgu Rodzlina, maaf bahasa yang ku guna tercemar..

live your life guys..

p/s : if u heard bout me from anyone of any stories or 'rumors' should be, just try to think for few times.. am i that bad??

XOXO,

uknoWho

Sei Un Dono

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hola....

Ok... in jiwang mode right now... 

only God knows how on earth i'm trying to find the best, conducive condition to right this post...

and now, its raining, the light is turned dim, i'm hearing to my mp, on my bed and yeah, it's conducive enough for me to write a jiwang thingy.... hahahah...

and, before i start, i know some of u guys so eeww~ to read jiwang things i wrote.. well, face it.. i am young to say i love someone, and he's the one or complementing the guy or something... 

and i admit it, sometimes i also don't know why i wrote those things..

 but come on, this is life.. 

my principle, these all lovey dovey journey are part of my life... 

and i'm appreciating it.. and it's my pleasure to wrote it in here as when i grow older, i want to read it back... 

whether i'll be glad or whether i'll be regret, it's up to me..

if it's ok with u, read it.. if not, leave it.. as simple as that.. no offense..

and here it goes..

once, it's just a dream of mine..

well, honestly, i'm not that friendly to people during my school days...

 i can't mingle around easily...i'm not good at communication..

i'm not pretty, i'm not smart, i'm not good at anything...

 duhhh~ zaman skolah ku terbazir camtu je...

even people are seeing me like a 'super duper jerk prefect yang macam bajet bagus sangat jadi pengawas kan'...*guys, i heard it even though u guys are whispering*

yup, i admit it, people hate me during my schooldays and only God know how i'm truly are... 

dah2, back to the main story, so, people always being scolded by me... 

including him if i'm not mistaken...hahaha.. 

sorry bro.. memang hobby wa marah2 orang =='

and i don't know when did everything started..

We're completely different...

I saw the weirdness in him and i do have my weirdness at certain,

 but, when the weirdness occur at the same time, it matched each other..

hahaha...pair of weirdos will do..

tah la... it's quite hard too explain it here...just leave it...

hahaha... let it remain like that.. complicated..

but seriously, once, years back, its just a dream of mine..

but somehow, the dream become my future now...

Muchas gracias...

somehow, the list is quite similar to mine, except for the random dancing... 

i'm not into dancing.. 

random responses will do... hahhaha..

recently, i'm talking with a friend of mine on the phone.. a very good friend of mine indeed..

and she's telling me bout her lovey dovey story... 

and i'm aawwww~ all along the stories... 

well, i did hoping for 'sweet-things-couples-do',

 but i'm not that kind of asking..

and when my friend shared pics of them and things between them, then i just realized, we don't do all these.. 

why?? its quite upsetting at first..

but then, after a very deep thought, i asked myself, are those things all u really care... are u sure if u have all these u can happy?? 

nope, i'll not.. what i need is just these...

that's all i'll ask for...

enough to make me happy everyday.. kindof cliche kan.. but honestly, every people have their own way to live up their love life... some people glad with things, some people glad with pictures, some people glad with calls...

each people have their own way..

 people said, we can't live our life based on memories, but i did... 

and it turns out to be my way.. i appreciate memories.. when i miss anyone, i'll try to remember memories between us... that's how i live my life..

so, i'm so glad and happy with what i have right now..

God blessed me enough..

there's nothing i could ask for more...

owh, there's one thing i wish, I wish it'll be forever..

that's all...

how i wished i could wear a dress  like in my old days... hahaha...

anda,

ok, saya sudah segan..

and guys, be happy with what u have..

appreciate it, appreciate them.. things happen for reasons..

believe in changes, believe in fate, believe in future..

live your life..

p/s : its italian.. a penpal tought me a few phrases and this one is the most suitable.. Grazie mille Nella... Thank you...

XOXO,

uknoWho

Girls Next Door...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and salam kecintaan plus kerinduan....

Heeeee~ saja buat ala2 sweet skit sebab nak citer pasal these girls....

so...i'm going to tell bout them... 

never introduced them officially in my blog here... they always be like here and there in each of my post, but, never told who they really are...

 and finally, after the first semester over, i'm going to tell who they really are... *sigh*

this story is bout THEM... in my point of view.. the way i see them..

 the experiences between us...

and, drum roll please....

this is them...

actually, two of them are my roommies and the other two, bukan la next door pun, lebih kepada frontdoor.. hehehe... 

lagi dua orang budak bilik depan.. but, saja nak bagi title post cliche sket,

 so yeah, Girls Next Door... dengar macam ala2 Gossip Girls kan...heeee~

who are they? 

well, basically, they are my friends in Shah Alam... we're from way too different backgrounds, but, suprisingly, we blend in perfectly..

almost perfect..tapi ok la tu, kira boleh kata sekepala la gak..

based on the above pic, dua skali muka yang paling besar depan2 gmbr tu is the girls bilik depan, lagi tiga orang blakang is my roommies and yeah, me = )

so, lets start with my roommies..

first, Anis Amalina..

hahaha... anis, sorry ar wa curi gambar lu dari FB... 

yang ni yang paling ayu wa rasa...

She's from Kedah.. fresh product SMKA Yan.. but believe me, indah khabar dari rupa... hahaha..

jujur cakap, boleh buat bini dia ni, but seriously, not now... why??

rupa yang kat atas tu boleh dapat sekali dalam satu sem je kot.. 

yang hari2 laen, rupa dia camni...

hahaha... tudia aih.... sampai camera pun tak sudi nak focus kat muka... 

hambek hang...

tader ar, saja buat gurau2... mula2 jumpa dia ni stock taley buat kawan ar...

sombong tak bleh blah punya muka... dah ar aku ni skali pangkah muka orang, memang susah ar nak click balik... but seriously, she's a very nice friend... 

hari pertama dah ajak beli nasi skali... haaaa~ nampak tak kimia disitu..

thank God i found her... boleh kata sekepala la.. rajin (la jugak) and banyak gak jadi tempat rujukan... nak citer pasal dia ni panjang gak sebab banyak je yang jadi... tapi dia ni la yang teman diriku ini memasak sahur puasa haritu, dia ni la jgak yang slalu teman beli nasi, dia ni la jugak yang join diriku ini bergosip dan memangkah orang.. best la bilik ngan dia ni..

 cuma, tahan telinga sebab dia suka jerit.. yang laen, ok je...

so budak, tq jadi roommate aku...

next, Izzan Tajul... my roommie setentang katil ==' itupun aku citer..

so, that's us...

Yang ni pun satu hal jugak...

 muka stock suci murni, believe me, perangai berantu jugak ni...

gelak dia memang legend ar, stock kalah all the yellow minions thingy tu... 

but, it's fun to have someone from your state tu kan... 

at least she knows where Tapah really is... duhhhh~

bab mrapu memang kitorang ngam... both of us boleh nampak wat people don't see... we cant see any ghost, but we sort of found humor in almost everything.. camtu la kot boleh ngam ngan dia... hahaha...

 pair of weirdos will do...

lot of sharing stories and luahan perasaan stock confession je ngan dia ni.. after all, having fun being roommies with them.. to both of u, anis and izzan, it's a pleasure to be lived in the room with u guys.. 

learning the real meaning of 'tolerate' and 'teenagers'... tq.. and i know its kindof impossible to get the chance to be your roommates again, but after all, great memories everywhere in between this first sem.. thanx again..

*kesat2 air mata*

ok then, the girls from the room opposite our room..

i don't know how, but suddenly these two girls become regular customer or guest to our room and i'm so glad they be like that.. hahaha

so, first, Atiqah Dalila..

a very very nice girl from Perlis... humble person... really easy to click with..

owh, by the way, the word 'click' mean 'ngam' to me... 

and back to this Tiqah story, she's a very hard working and super detail person.. what i mean is, she'll ask anything or find anything till it answer her question... really 'click' with me... 

never annoyed plus always glad to know her...

for me, we had almost the same passion, but this girl show it clearly in her act, but me, naaaah~ i'm more towards 'simpan-dalam-hati'...

 tu je la kot beza dia...

but seriously, i don't want we to loose contact for the next sem.. 

owh, one more thing, i don't know how to explain it but this girl has a kind of humor aura yang dia sendiri tak rasa dia kelakar but i'll surely laugh when she's around in any situation.. tak kira ar time orang serius ke sedih, there'll always be a situation that i'll laugh about..

and that is us after the final paper... hope our dream come true ey babe...

and last but not least, Anna Sofea..

first time i meet her when she came into my room, in my heart

 'damn, this girl is cute'

seriously, she's cute... orangnya renek lawa.... serious lawa... padan ar abang burger pun ngorat... hahaha.... takley2... reserved awek orang dah ni..

honestly, this is the first time i met someone who's so preety and at the same time so hardworking... gila rajin budak ni study...

 aku study tak sampai setengah yang dia study.

such a sweet girl... owh, dia punya taste of food somehow quite similar to me

macam pelik plak bila slalu cakap..

''eh, aku suka benda ni camni''

then, i'll answer ''eh, taste kita samala.."

after that i said, ''i don't like vege much"

then she add " eh, sama la"

heheheh..... our tastebud lebih kurang kot...

 by the way, she's from Terengganu...

 lepas ni kalau datang Terengganu boleh ar menyendeng cari Anna plak eh...

so, thanx to both of my neighbor yang menambahkan bilangan kawan saya kat UiTM ni ha...

actually, i don't have that many friends in UiTM... 

well, dunia berubah a bit for me ... and seeing the world of 'selfishness' somehow make me hard to find 'friends'..

lagi2 i'm hard to open up to new people... i'm not that kindof 'hye2' people around on the first day... i'll take days or even months to start talking to others... so, there they are... being my friends in my new world.. thanx..

after final...

Sunway Pyramid

Dewan Seri Budiman...and owh, yang pakai selendang tu la Anna Sofea

ICT

Thank God i get to know them... wonderful journey in my first sem..

 insyaAllah our friendship never die..

it'll last as long as we're friends.. Gonna miss u guys... 

jangan lupa kita bukak puasa skali, masak sahur skali, maen langkah2 pintu stock jalan kolej tu kita yang punya, tengok wayang, study skali, tiqah keluar masuk bilik tanya soalan... 

anna keluar masuk bilik cari air ==' anis aci redah bilik korang coz kurang kasih sayang and saya yang keluar masuk bilik korang bila ditinggalkan sorang2... hahaha... i hate being a loner.. 

whateva it's, take care my friends...

 don't forget us k.. may each of us gain success..

by the way, if anyone call me and ask me where i am and who am i with..

and if i answered ' I'm with The Girls'..

well, these are my girls...

 hahaha.. if this is us, i'll be the one with the darkest hair colour, anis yang the one with the red ribbon coz macam bajet2 ayu and anna yang in the middle sebab the cutest one... 

tiqah ngan izzan rebut la korang antara dua yang tinggal tu... 

just for fun guys.. no heart feeling k..

i dont know why, but i think, i may suit to be in a group of five girls.. dont know why, but it seem to work like that..

zaman skolah menengah, i rapat with this another four nice girls which are 

mizah, tasnim, timah and cik...

then, i know this amazing sawan girls, pun ada 4 lagi prempuan that are 

eyna, nora, wani and mot..

and Shah alam, i found another four girls which are

anis, izzan, anna and tiqah

so, in the future i'll be friend with another 4 hot working mama... 

hahaha... insyaAllah

so, thats it.. my friends... the girls.. i love all of them.. mesti korang tengah terharu baca benda ni sekarang kan.. stock kesat2 mata... hahaha.. please be.

this friendship is beautiful for me and i hope u guys see it in that way too..

and people, appreaciate your friends as they accept u as their friend too..

be with them not only during the laugh, but also during the tears..

be by them not only when there's food, but also when there's no electricity..

be beside them not only during your free time,

 but be there when there's also hard time..

love your friendship as it's infinity, live your life as long as forever..

p/s : i've done with Anthem... and God Gracious, the book are amazing..

       tq Hlovate

2nd p/s : this is the teaser for the next post... and honestly, i don't know

              when i'm going to finish writing the draft...

hahaha.. wait for the next jiwang side of me...

XOXO,

uknoWho

SoS : Synopsis of September

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hello bros and babes...

nah...darling terus aku bagi..

hahaha... gaya bagi salam takleh senonoh lagi... 

dah tu je yang terkeluar dari kepala... mohon tutup sebelah mata..heeeee~

yup, i know i know... it's october already... 

and i promised of this post days before.. and yet, the feeling of writing tak kunjung tiba jua... and yup, this is the night...

 aura menulis membara...hahaha... membara la sangat..

takpa2, saya bagi satu analogi *wat nada bahas sket..hehehe*

'' menulis blog ini umpama menghabiskan sebuku roti Gardenia, its ok if we don't finished the bread before the expiry date, after few days pun, still ok lagi kot"

hahaha~ that's the best analogy that i can think right now...

so, back to the main point, apa je yang ada on my September...

well~ there's two MAJOR things...

first, my birthday..

second, my FINAL.. *perhh, birthday pun aku tak highlight camni*

i'll tell u one by one, but seriously, not in accordance because, during le Final, my head got a bang, and woila, everything after that jumbled up... 

even the 'drive-through-not-so-well' situation occured....

how to start this thing eh...

right, first, my birthday, i wrote bout it before..

next, my Final...

three words to describe.. 'disaster, terrible, over the limit'

and fine, more than three words to be exact..

i'd heard bout it before, studying law is not a game that u can have fun all the way of learning... it's a war man, a war... yang ni baru foundation... 

kalau la ada rezeki buat LLB, muntah hijau la saya...hehehe~

it's a tough month, study macam apa je... books and notes all over the place.. taktau nak mula dari mana... and buku law, stock nak lawan yellow pages je.. 

orang sakit merate-rata.. aku pun sempat join sekaki demam dua hari...

 ada yang lagi parah siap pengsan2, jatuh tegelincir dalam bilik air, histeria, meroyan, smua ada ar senang citer...hahaha..ok, i exaggerate it a bit..but seriously, these did happened...

final ada 7 paper, and the final ambik masa almost two weeks... tapi berselang-selang hari ar.. macam waktu spm dulu2...

 *ceh...bajet macam dah lama, benda baru last year*

and the first 6 papers end up on monday..and the next paper is on thursday...and yang thursday tu hanyalah paper ctu... hanyalah ye kawan2, hanyalah...

heee~ so, we did a bit of celebration... 

just the girls, four of us, owh, one of my rommies tader..

and we went to Sunway Pyramid... yup...Sunway...again =='

the experience is undescribed coz i never got the chance to mingle around with girls... so, its fun..

who are they? on the next post, i'll tell everything k...

plus, another reward from another person for me after berhempas pulas berusaha sedaya upaya yang mampu untuk final ni...hehehe.. dapat la relax2, tenangkan jiwa, merapu meghaban segala bagai dengan anda..

so, thank u for 'the day'..

then, datang la hari khamis, and habis la paper CTU085 yang sgt bermakna..

this is where the Final took placed. DSB a.k.a Dewan Sri Budiman ye kawan2... ramai nye la yang kata Dewan Sri Bunian... 

including me during the orientation week...ehem ehem ehem... hahaha...

a very nice experience sebab waktu SPM dulu dok dewan kecik je.. student pun 100+ je.. yang ni nah kau... dok satu batch beratus-ratus orang... 

and the dewan was so cold... the aircond cap ayam... hahaha... everyone wear their sweater, pashmina, cardigan,  gloves... 

owh, i saw someone brought a blanket ==' ok faham, dia sejuk k..

and bila dah habis, everyone like...

' YEAY!!! Final is over... nampak Tapah dah....' *thats me*

then, macam biasa la... sesi gambar2... ada yang siap nangis2 bagai... macam la dah tak jumpa dah... benda selang sebulan jumpa balik.. hahaha.

so, selesai citer Final.. pheww...penat nyelah menaip..hehehe..

ok, next, apa je yang ada kat fakulti ku tersayang a.k.a FUU 

a.k.a Fakulti Undang-undang..

by the SCLC club yang sangat active... 

i'm one of the committee tapi macam ta exist je... 

insyaAllah, next sem i'll be joining you guys...

and yeay!! book bazaar... bukan sekadar books je, makanan, pakaian, accessories segala bagai... dengar citer FUU slalu organize event camni... adoyai, tempting gila.... 

diorang organized for the whole week, and i'm trying my best not to spend all of my allowance there... they're are so tempting guys...

 seniors FUU memang awesome ar..

berkhemah2 kan...ni waktu tader orang,,, 

and ramai nye lahai warga FUU ni hah....

and thats all la kot yang agak2 highlight in this September... well, there'll be another two posts related to Them and We... so, wait for it... 

maybe the posts will be ready in no time because, i'm in my sem break, and nothing to do because the entire family is education-based people...

 diorang tak cuti lagi... 

tinggal la 'anak-sesat-ambik-law' ni hah melepak sorang2 kat rumah...

owh, almost forgot....

yup... hye october... sorry for the late wish...hehehe... been so busy with the technologies...sorry..

so guys, enjoy your day..enjoy your life...

 enjoy every secs, mins, hours, days, years....

 be happy.. be positive... fight for the sake of the future..

 fight for your desire... stay strong..

strengthen your believes on him/her.. let go the past... 

start a new one.. i'm sorry.. i'm a bad girl... 

but referring to heart, its hard to tolerate..the further i go, the deeper it be..

 and its revealing... Gosh!! what on earth am i saying... 

naaaa, sapa makan cili, terasa la pedasnya..

but believe me, everything happen for a reason... HE planned the best for u.. who knows, u'll find better... 

i let go my past and i found my future..i found THEM, i found US.. 

i found my future.. i found my life.. 

i found my passion... 

and i'll spend the rest of my life with what i got right now...

anda, read this over and over again, and tell your heart, that i meant it with all my heart... 

guys, i'm young to talk bout this kan... but, life comes once..

 and i don't know at my golden age, i'll remember all these or not..

 and that's why i wrote all this...

live your life guys...

XOXO,

uknoWho

Rewards of September...

Assalamualaikum w.b.t and hye peeps...

see that.... i'm full with smiles that i can give it as giveaways... hahaha..

kidding~

soooooo....welll.... actually, it's not that rewarding at first... 

suit to be called as terrible month... 

erm, exams, assignments, tension...and everything..

but somehow, when the month almost end, well, dah end dah pun...

tapi it's rewarding... 

1st of October... experiences... rewards.. tq.

erm, what happen today?

first, half day with girls... girls talk, girls walk, girls shop and all the girls stuffs...i never experience it before, well, having fun with girls, but today, i experience once... heeee~ tq guys... it's fun..

owh yeah, kitorang sempat usha citer 2 Guns... 

erm, comment : best la jugak... mula2 citer macam bosan skit, but towards the end, its fun... all the guns stuff and people being murdered like lastik cicak je dalam citer tu... hahaha... 

yet, its a very good movies for whoever yang nak release tension..

the other half....erm.... first, i went to someone's college... and its weird enough.. sorry.. jangan terasa na..next, something beautiful happen.. 

another new experience for me.. never expect dapat usha the kl scenery today... nampak la the towers and the lights... dari matahari dok ada lagi, sampai bulan keluar... watched it from both period..

 it's beautiful... it's rewarding...

i'll surely miss all those moments... all those laugh... the sulks.. 

all those silly thing happened..the smiles... the giggles... tq so much... 

confirm takkan lupa kes kfc tu...sumpah segan..and crita LBS jadi saksi.. yup..

may all these last forever... tq girls for making my day... tq uknoWho for making it beautiful...sebenarnya, the story of today is soooooo long...

and swear to God, i can talk about it for the whole day... 

but, i'll keep it as secret among us.. 

erm... a box of secrets to be shared afterward...

erm,  i got this one quote today from someone... 

' today is like adding sugar into a bottle of mineral water'

hahaha~ inspired enough kan....

 guessed only us may interpret it deeply kan...

this post is short because i think, it's even more proper for me to make it a secret...but, i can guarantee, it's beautiful.... 

rasa macam dah panas je mata + muka when the day came to its end..

erm, i'll conclude all the september's story on the next post... erm, teary now.

lol~ ngada2.. hahaha... 

so readers, do take care, live your life... face the day with courage, rewards will come later...believe me.. its worth waiting... its worth to be counted..

erm, another gold lines added in my diaries today... tq..

hahaha... i'll practice it harder next time k..

XOXO,

uknoWHo