Hi
After few months of not writing anything, finally today i wrote one. Even tho currently in the middle of exam week, and a looooottt of things happened. Anyway, if any of you read my posts, you must realized how i've been so negative for the past few posts a.k.a for the past few months. Seriously, third year of law school is damn hard. Like seriously.
However, as I'm taking short break during this study for tomorrow's paper, I just realized how i used to be so carefree and adventurous. During my trip to Paris, there's this one day that hujan lebat gila and I'm not sure where I am at that moment as I randomly walk through Paris city, trying to buy an umbrella, but nowhere to be found. I decided to just walk in the rain, without knowing which direction i have to go. At that moment, of course I'm a bit worries because I am all alone there, cant speak french and with limited budget and somehow a lil bit annoyed with how i'm stucked in the rain. I'm literally wet as if i'm bathing. However, somehow, I end up went into a small shop which I'm not sure what kindof shop it is at first, i just randomly walked into a shop hoping that somehow i can find somewhere warm enough while waiting for the rain to stop. And guess what. That's the best shop i've ever entered in Paris. It's a small book shop. A warm one. With that typical book smell. Seriously, the best shop ever. And at the back of the shop, there's a lot of snow globes and music box. A very beautiful moment. Seriously. I am all alone in the shop, no other customer, but i had so much fun. Well, all those hate and annoyance just disappeared.
Next, those moment while I'm staying in Yogyakarta. A rural area. At first, I'm struggling a bit as it is not as comfy as how i live in Malaysia. It's a typical rural area, a small village, far from city. I really hate the fact that my access to internet is veryyyyy limited. the basic necessities are limited too. However, few days after, I end up enjoying my days in that village. My only concern is how to make my students happy and enjoy my class. How much chocolate bars should i purchased so that i can ensure all of them can have it.
And during my trip to Thailand for the speech competition. My first ever English speech competition. I'm very scared. Not used with competing with strangers at that time. I'm pretty much sure that i hate myself at that time for not being able to communicate with others using better English or whatnot. But in the end, I still enjoy my trip there and i make friends that I'm still keep in touch until today.
So, what I'm trying to say is, there's time where you think you're useless, and how u wish u can give up. But, after all, it's just a phase that you need to go through no matter what. And believe me, after everything done, those hardship end up being the most beautiful memory ever. When you think you're all alone, take a step back, and see how many people around you that keep supporting you and pray for your success.
When you ever feel that you need to give up, just imagine how many smiles that you'll get when you complete that one thing. Trust me, the you thats struggling today will be the strongest person tomorrow. and yet tomorrow you'll face another test, and guess what, you'll be a lot stronger the next day. So, in the end, it's all about fighting with yourself, it's not about you're trying to prove to others how amazing you are, but you are trying to prove yourself how strong u can be and your potential is limitless.
Thus, head up. You'll be just fine. The life might be damn hard right now, but believe me, one day, you'll see someone who is younger than you, struggling with the same problem, having the same emotion. But the only thing that you'll say is, dont worry. you'll be just fine.
So, their syera, be strong. You're strong. And you're stronger than what you think you are. What restraining you from achieving more is yourself. Beat that weak, unmotivated soul out of from your mind, and you'll be a greater person soon after. Remember, don't compare your path with others. don't compare your flow with others. Some might be running right now, but you cant because you're taking so much time for each step you're taking. But believe me, there'll come time when others will stop, but you'll be running while holding others hand, supporting them to move forward. So, don't worry. Stay within your own flow, and u'll be just fine.
Take care syera. And goodluck.
Stay humble.
Me,
Syera
