When things meant to be..

Hi...

sometimes, things are meant to be that way..

whether they're bad, whether they're good..

They're meant to be that way..

so, no matter how loud u laugh, how hard u cry, how wide your smile, how deep u regret,

as they're meant to be that way, there'll be no way to change it..

as a normal human, i'm hurt...

people see me as a strong person..

i am..

but somehow, when it's hurting too much, u just wish that it's just a bad dream, and pray the best to wake up.

being hurt is not an option...

but u always have the option whether to hurt people or not..

so, referring to the case of Me v That Person [2014], involving the Law of Feeling, it meant to be that way..

There're lot of damages..

There is defence that can be use, but not even partial..

erm, obviously, violating the Principle of Natural Justice...

*sorry for explaining the case in law mode.. 

so, yeah... people make mistakes.. and as the person that have the cause of action, i don't ask for any damage..

i still got monsters under my bed, but yours, i don't think so...

so yeah, beside all this sadness, many things happen.. the good things..

 and i think, it's meant to be tht way.

i made a decision before..

i'll be going..

and surprisingly, a lot earlier than i thought..

where i'l be going? 

when am i going?

why am i going?

let it be a secret for this moment..

there's no point to share it now..

bukan ada nak hantar ke, menyambut ke, melawat pun kan..

so yeah... until that day, that time, that moment, let just God know it..

HE know better than anyone..

am i running away from problems?

at this moment, honestly, yup.. i am running.. for a while..

but then, i'm going for good reasons too..

trying to reach the best future..

just pray the best for me.. for my future..

May Allah ease all the process..

owh, people kept asking whether i regret whatever just happened..

i'll never regret..

but yeah, frustration always there..

there's nothing to regret for..

it's part of my life.. part of the memories..

it just happened to be like that...

and people yang keep asking me whether i'm ok or not..

don't worry eh, i'll always be a strong person..

or at least i'll try to be one.

sorry buat siapa yang tidak faham..

it just something that i need to write down, to let me feel a lil bit better..

and dear mama and ayah, 

thank u for being the best parent ever...

even though i never share these kind of things with u guys,

but still, u're trying to make me laugh..

for this moment, i still cant.. but one day, i will.. again..

don't worry if i always not feeling well...

don't worry if i'm not in the mood..

don't worry if i'm getting 'cengkung'..

don't worry if i sound so weird..

your lil girl here, is starting to be a lady..

thank u..

and last but not least, Aina Asyran, thank u so much.. for everything..

things are getting harder for me.. don't worry, i'll be just fine..

i'm surviving..

i'm not sure whether u'll miss me or not afterward (hehehe...)

 but surely i'll miss u a lot girl.. 

we're getting into so much distance..

u'll be a lady when i meet u afterward..

whatever it is, aku sayang ang wei.. 

so guys, just live your life..

life did get so hard sometimes, but it is life after all kan..

hold on a bit.. u'll be just fine..

think positive..

and yup, best of luck..

XOXO,

uknoWho